Being a literature student I had read in many novels that when true love happens you forget what's right and what's wrong. You do things that you never imagine you would and you cross all your limits just to be with that person. In my case I had become the exact same person as described in romantic novels. I always used to wonder is it even practical that a person in love loses all his ability of thinking and being fair and just. But today as I stand here in front of a person I never imagined I would love so deeply, I accept everything. I believe all those novels that boasted about love and its effects. Because I am that person now.
Ash's POV
Tringggg....Tringggg.. (Paul Calling)
I finally picked up Paul's call after a total of fifty missed calls. I was in my dorm, lying on my bed, still in shock with what had happened an hour ago.
[He..Hello! Paul], I said.
[Where the hell are you Ash? You even know how many times I called you. How can you be so reckless? You have never missed my call and today fifty. Why? Where were you? What were you doing? Answer me!!], Paul shouted.
He obviously was angry. I could feel it. There was never a time when Paul had shouted at me this way and this was the first time it was happening.
[I was at a birthday party I told you.], I lied.
[Then why didn't you pick up my call? And are you coming this late from a birthday party?], he asked.
[It got silent unknowingly and that's why I didn't know you were calling.], I lied again.
I am becoming more natural in lying lately which I don't like. I was never a liar and now I was becoming one and that is hurtful.
[Look Ash something's off with you lately. I can sense it. You are different. You were so simple and everything was so easy with you. You hardly call me these days and you even go to parties without telling me. You know that I'm not the toxic kind of a boyfriend but I would really appreciate if you just tell me about your whereabouts. I'm your boyfriend Ash and I love you], Paul said in a calm tone now.
A tear dropped down my eye. I am not doing good to Paul. I am betraying him.
[I'm so sorry Paul. And I have no excuses. I think I'm not feeling well. I'll talk to you later.], I hung up his call and started crying.
Why does it had to be me? Why did I fall for Chris? Why did I betray Paul? Why I have fallen in love with Chris? Why my heart chose Chris over Paul? Why? My mind was a complete mess when there was a message on my phone from Chris.
Chris- Night butterfly. I'll pick you up for college tomorrow.
Reading his text I had an instant smile on my face. My heart started beating fast. I was lost in the memories of our time spent an hour ago. I caressed my body with my hands at places where Chris had touched me. It gave shivers to me. I was breathing hard and for the first time in my life, I was feeling myself. The feel of his lips on my neck, his perfume, the sound of his chains and his warm breath, I was feeling them again all by myself. I had never felt like this before.
On the other hand my heart was in pain knowing the BETRAYAL I had done with Paul. I couldn't bear to see him sad and that too because of me. There was a night that was just not ending. I knew the next morning I had to make a choice. A choice of whether I will stay with Paul or to have a new relationship with Chris. I was feeling that I'm at a dead end of a cliff.
I never knew I would fall for someone other than Paul. In my wildest dreams even I couldn't imagine myself making out with Chris. But I gave in. It felt so natural with him. It feels like there was a connection we shared. I had never felt loved like that before. It was special. It was different. BUT, it was wrong. I did a mistake, I betrayed Paul. And tomorrow I will correct my mistake.
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9:00 AM
I was almost ready for the classes. My eyes were swollen and red and I was having a headache. I couldn't sleep for a minute last night and I was just feeling terrible.
"Ash where did both of you guys went yesterday night? Did...something...happen between you two?", Arin asked me teasingly.
I was upset with her question. I almost cried but then controlled my tears. I just smiled at her and said, "No Arin. Nothing happened. He just shouted at me for getting involved with Evan and then I returned back to the dorm. You were already asleep when I returned."
"But why do you look so sad? Did he hurt you somewhere? Tell me Ash and I will punch his pretty face!", Arin asked seriously.
"No Arin. Its just that I was not able to sleep and whatever happened in the race just disturbed me so... Anyway lets head downstairs or we'll miss our classes.", I replied.
Just as we reached downstairs I saw Chris waiting for me as he promised me yesterday that he will go with me to college. He was looking beautiful with the flowers he had in his hands. Almost everyone was looking at him because the heartthrob of the college was waiting for a girl with flowers in his hands. Obviously every one wanted to know who that lucky girl was. Some were even clicking pictures and recording videos.
I knew he was there for me. It hurt me. I ignored him and started walking the other way.
"Hey Ash! Why are you going the other side? And who this Chris is waiting for?", Arin asked.
"I don't know. I just have some work there so lets go there.", I replied and started walking hastily.
Just as I was walking away, Chris came in front of me. He smiled at me with love flowing from his eyes and I again fell for him.
"Where are you goin butterfly? Didn't you read my message yesterday? I'm here for you with these flowers.", Chris said lovingly.
There were so many comments and shouting going on. People clapped, some girls cursed me whereas some were adoring us. I was nervous. I wanted to hold those flowers, wanted to hug him and kiss him but I had decided something else.
"I have some work Chris, I'll go to college later. Please go.", I said bluntly.
There was an obvious shock on his face. He looked upset, pissed and angry.
"Are you okay? Is everything alright? After what happened between us last night..", he was talking when I interrupted him, "Nothing happened between us last night. Okay. Now please go away and don't bother me."
I ran away from there crying my eyes out. The flowers he had brought were lying on the ground and he was standing there stunned with my words.