When he entered my room slowly, my heartbeat went faster. Those masculine looks, strong arms and arrogance amidst the tough face. Dream of every girl. He pushed me to bed, my mind exploding with excitement.
He crashed into my lips like a shore meets a wave. He pulled me closer, devouring his lust through my lips. Our kiss deepened like he wanted to steal my breaths. My body betrayed me when heat bloomed between my thighs. The wetness was charismatic.
And then, he cupped my soft bosoms. My body responded with a gasp. I was on cloud nine. I lay on the bed waiting for him to get over me when....
*Bamm!!*
The pillow hit me back to reality.
"Wake up Ishita, it's already late!" Chetna shouted at me as I looked at her with my squint sleepy eyes. Another dream, another nocturnal orgasm that has wet the bottom of my undies. That's how my life has been..
I am Ishita Ghosh. 20 years old but matured, or maybe not. I belong to a Bengali Family in Silchar, Assam, which most people don't believe due to my slightly yellowish brown eyes.
Let's start from the first level of my life. I come from a highly conservative family and I mean it. Sharing a roof with three generations of people isn't easy. In my entire joint family, I am the only child and that too a girl so you can just imagine how much burden of expectations I have.
"Dress modestly," "Focus on education," "Don't bring shame"
I have heard these words in my childhood frequently. Not a good perk of being my parents' only child. Living with my grandparents, my uncle - aunt, my cousin bro who just engages himself in PUBG and two unmarried aunts, My life was never mine. In my school, I was always the one who get awarded for high attendance every year. Not because I like going but because it was the only place where at least for one time I can do what I want to.
Boyfriends were a distant dream, I was not even allowed to have "Boy-friends" or even talk with a boy who was not my relative. In recess time, when girls of my age used to hang out with their consorts, I sat in the classroom eating my tiffin looking at them with zeal.
To make things worse? I am socially anxious. Never got many proposals from boys (except for that one love letter from a senior student which I threw. Creepy) so it got me self-esteem. When I was in 9th standard, I begged my parents in tears to get my first ever smartphone and it became my escape. K-Dramas, Wattpad novels and Infinite Pinterest scrollings, that became my free time. Those fan-fics with that "Toxic dominating boy with a soft heart trope" ruined my taste in men. Girllove novels...just made me curious.
I couldn't even have social media during high school. That one time when my parents discovered my first ever Facebook, they literally yelled at me like a scandal and I never dared to repeat. When I talk with any of my friends, I could sense my family members eavesdropping on me. Being born in an upper class family didn't make me lack of anything except privacy
Then came my escape way. After high school, I disconnected myself from studying day and night for the NEET exam. And when the result came finally, I gave that happy scream. Although 78% wasn't that good, I tried every hook and crook to get my admission in SMCH. In the living room, my family discussed with worry and sadness while in my own room, I rejoiced in my triumph.
Hostel was the haven I didn't know I deserved. My roommates Chetna, Kankana and Shweta were supportive and this helped in propelling my life. I hang out with them, places where I couldn't go alone before. I feel the least homesickness because the independence i never had, Hostel was offering it even if it was little. Of course I still had to be in warden's surveillance
I do what normal girls used to do. I made boyfriends(yup a "s" but currently single now), earned some small gigs through tuitions, did wild things like "that fingering" and more. My dream was never to become a doctor but to finally get independent and make the decisions I wanted so that I don't rely on anyone. Call me selfish but this is it.
My roommates-cum-friends , my cats and unlimited ambition. This is my situation now.
My life was clean, simple, even more beautiful than before-until...he walked in.