I was able to understand that inner demons that might form out of these negative thoughts, might come into play when that person was trying to breakthrough, making themselves another trial that the Practitioner must go through, if he wished to impact the barrier leading to another Martial Realm .
Those barrier were meant to be a trial in themselves for the Practitioner, no matter how much talented or how much he was strong, if he faltered and failed to breakthrough those barriers, then he can only hope for a miracle to happen, that would be the only way he could achieve a breakthrough .
Senior Brother told me about the existence of pills that help with breaking through these bottlenecks, but they were either too expensive or had severe effects that made people think trice before using them, some of those side effects are not being able to progress after that even .
The amount of Medicinal Energy in those bottlenecks aiding Pills were so aggressive and abundant that it might end up damaging the meridians of the Practitioner than helping him breakthrough .
Crippling him for life, some other lead to the severe loss of the essence of practice, making those guys who consume these Low-grade objects to breakthrough weaker than even before they breakthrough .
Some could leave hidden energy in the body, threatening to come back to bite the Practitioner at the worst time possible, every time he would try to impact the barrier, he would meet a more difficult bottleneck, not only that, but if he were to fail passing in a swift manner, the only result waiting for him, was having to deal with a more stronger barrier next time .
He will also need to deal with the injuries that befell him due to failing to breakthrough, that's when the hidden injuries that taking those Pills left will start to take effect, it will worsen the injuries, forcing the Practitioner to spend more time in recuperating from those injuries .
But them just appearing suddenly might be actually enough to end the life of those with weak foundation and inability to deal with those hidden dangers in their bodies, either for lacking the inability to buy an elixir that could help in mending those injuries or worse, having to survive alone in this endless wheel of suffering .
Having neither the time to let the injuries heal or their body to rest, which will keep drawing the end of those guys more and more and the end will be their ugly deaths .
It was important to always dealing with hidden injuries, using precious herbs bath or High-level High-grade Pills or by the use of Medicinal Baths, all those things were quite expensive, the guys who will be trying to survive have no access to any of those methods, which will make them take more risks and end up suffering as a consequences .
Other High-level Pills have only two problems, the first being only usable 2 to 3 times before the body will accumulate pill resistance to it, making taking it a third time to some people or a fourth time to most people completely useless .
Meaning that they can't be use until the Practitioner was sure that he will be able to breakthrough, but was lacking the final push, that pill would be able to give that push, otherwise if he was still a bit short after doing this .
He might end up forced to buy another batch of these pills and even be forced to take two pills at once for the next time he attempt to breakthrough the bottleneck, this procedure bring us to the second problem, how pricey and how rare those pills appear on the market, that's the most problematic part about this kind of pill .
The demand on them was high, but they were always appear in short supply, making the battling over who get to keep them even more intense, the pills being also difficult to made made the matters even more worse .
My senior brother advice for me was to always try to be careful with the hidden injuries in my body and to enforce my heart and resolve and to always make sure to not bring a disaster like having Inner Demons upon myself .
I thanked him for the advice even though I believed that it was the least of my worries, my Panel could help me digesting those side effects, making me able to eat as many as I wanted without much of a problem happening, it was the concept of Inner Demon and what it represented in the mind of the Practitioner, that what intrigued me the most .
After hearing about it from Senior Brother, I couldn't help but ask about it, intrigued to find more, my senior brother couldn't help but find my curious expression a bit amusing as he said :
You really look like a child that have never gone outside in life and suddenly was amazed by how Grand the world around him was .
Even though it was just a comment, I couldn't help but search in Tian Long's memory for times when he got out, I found out that the term introvert could be the only term I had in mind, one which could describe the entire guy's life .
Other than getting out of the family mansion to do some tasks and chores like going to the market or doing an errand, that guy had spent all of his other time practicing, kicking stones, carrying things double his weight, training day and night, ًthat was all his life was like since he first discovered Martial Arts, his passion and desire for Martial Arts grow as he grew up .
It sparked his interest at first, but after witnessing those guys who were jumping up from one rooftop to another, all that he was able to think of was to save enough money to be able to learn Martial Arts and pursue his dream, that's when he met uncle Lu San .
No wonder he was praised as diligent by uncle Lu, that guy never complained about the inequality nor the unjust in treatment regarding the practice of martial arts, all he did was to keep training and waiting for the chance of learning Martial Arts after saving enough time .
Yet and if fate was intent on playing tricks on him, him being so diligent was also the reason that made him catch the malicious eyes of dogs like people, which later ended up in making him their target and resulted in him perishing .
I couldn't help but mourn over that guy's loss, every time I got reminded of it .
Why are you looking like you saw someone close to you die just now ? .
As I heard Senior Brother say this, I was awakened from my involuntarily mourning state, I completely forgot about where I was standing currently, I used mourning for my financial state as an excuse and weirdly enough he seemed to have witnessed an emotional outbursts like those before .
I couldn't help but also come in terms with the fact that I'm currently rich, but just hearing about how costly practicing Martial was, I almost regret giving that loan to Mu Lu, after I spent the money I have on me, I will return to be a pauper as before .
You don't need to make such an ugly face just because you are short of money .
" Senior Brother, have you ever been short of money in your entire life ? .
At my question, the face of my senior brother became a bit weird as he began to reminisce about whether did he ever do this and the final results was him shocking his head and saying :
I have my own set of bad days, yes, but I don't think that I have ever had a short in money, why are you looking at me like that, carful now or I might really beat you up until your face become blue .
As he answered my question, I couldn't help but have a disgusted face on the filthy rich Young Master in front of me and his comment before about telling me that it wasn't so bad to be poor, so he seeing me looking at him like this, he clenched his fist and threatened to hit me .
I couldn't help but remove the disgusted face I was making and change it into one of squinting my eyes at him glaringly, seeing me like this, he coughed away the embarrassment that he got from my stare and said :
Cough, cough, If you hadn't stopped me earlier with that damn question of yours, I would have told you about the fact that just for practicing Martial Arts, believe it or not you will get paid from now on, all thanks to the fact that you had become Master's disciple of course .
Hearing being paid for practicing Martial Arts, I was all ears to what might he say next, he laughed bitterly at how focused I look, shook his head and then continued to say :
Master have already put your circumstances in mind, not only you but us senior brothers and sisters were also included in this, every month master will be giving out the resources needed for that month and even for the poor disciples like you, there would be even an allowance to be distributed for the Core Disciples, I don't see Master excluding you from this .
Don't look at me like that, I had warned you already didn't I, I hadn't received any of that money, but I won't lie, I still had exchanged them for more training resources, it was 20 silver taels last time I checked, not much but they should be more than enough to support your practice for a week or two .
I lost my focus just as words about those 20 silver teals left his mouth, I almost jumped out of happiness, this was 10 times boost in allowance compared to what I would have gotten back in the Lu Family, it would have taken me 10 months to save that amount of money and that was if I hadn't spent any of it on food and rent .
Not to mention the fact that there were even training resources being distributed as well, if that wasn't enough to be described as great, I don't know what was, week or two, that was almost enough to last the whole month if I wise with how to spend it .
I know that in your eyes, I really shouldn't be the person to tell you this junior brother, but try not to become so obsessed with the idea of collecting money, it's quite an unhealthy obsession .
Senior Brother's tone suddenly become serious and quite dignified, I couldn't help but wonder what might have gotten into him to make him become so serious all of a sudden, I was suddenly hit by the realization of what might be the reason, I said :
" Is it related to the formation of Inner Demons .
At my words, senior brother was surprised at first at me realizing on my own, he then nodded his head still serious as before, then he said :
You are indeed a Martial Arts prodigy, you are quite perceptive, it's indeed as you guessed related to how the Inner Demons form in the mind of Martial Artists .
Inner Demons are the resentment that kept accumulating and nurtured by the Practitioners own lack of strong hearts and weak wills, regrets, desires, even wishes, doubts and vows take a huge part in nurturing these things .
Those things start as nothing but a few bad premonitions and thoughts that might appear at critical time to mislead the Practitioner and trick him into making a mistake in his practice, as long as the Practitioner conscious enough, he can actually discard of these negative thoughts without a problem .
But after these negative and malicious thoughts thoughts get nurtured for a few years, some people might start doing vile and inhumane things, fastening the forming and gathering of these malicious thoughts and make them form a one bigger malicious thought, the evil inside the Practitioner settle into that thought and gave it a consciousness .
If before the Practitioner can fight against the influence of those malicious thoughts that aimed to make him destroy himself, then the Inner Demon work on forcing the Practitioner to comply to his words and orders .
Using all the evil that he already felt inside the Practitioner, using all the guilt, anger, lust, arrogance and all the malice it know it existed in the weak heart of the Practitioner .
Once the Practitioners try to breakthrough and make a big leap in their practice, those things will creep on the hearts and minds of the Practitioners at the most crucial stage and will try to entice the Practitioners to stop trying to breakthrough or carrying on with the breakthrough under the constant threats of those Inner Demons .
Those Inner Demons will kept using the Evil that they found in the heart of the Practitioners, not only the Evil in his hearts, but everything will be laying bare in front of these things for them to use .
Dreams, regrets, hopes, hesitation, all and everything that could help in unsettling the Practitioners, those who fell to the tricks of these Evil things would stop his cultivation and end up suffering injuries, but it will fuel his heart with even more unwillingness and make it heavy with guilt .
Making the bottleneck that was one step away from being broken, become like a strong wall that can't be bypassed, that what normally happen to those who fail to breakthrough with or without the intervene of Inner Demons .
But there was another issue with those who stop the breakthrough due to the influence of those inner demons, their Inner Demons will absorb the frustration that failing to breakthrough will cause those guys and grow even stronger together with the bottleneck .
Making any breakthrough in the near future close to impossible, unless not unless the Practitioners deal with their Inner Demons first, if they weren't to find away, then they can only restore to breakthrough helping drugs, but those things are available for only a few really rich people, even I couldn't be able to afford one, even if I were to empty the Treasury of our Fu Family .
As I heard about the description of Senior Brother, I couldn't help but associate it with something that I came in contact with on my first night here in this world .
The resentment that Tian Long had left in this body and that have dissipated only recently, it too was formed from the regrets and the desire to take revenge on who was responsible for his death .
But after listening more and more, I found a few things that they shared yes, but there were a few points of differences as well, for starter they were both starting as resentment, both were linked and nurtured by the regret and the negative feelings that the person whom the body belonged to .
But that's where the similarities between the two finish, the resentment that formed in the body of Tian Long wasn't influenced by the Evil on the original Tian Long's heart nor did it use the evilness in the original Tian Long's heart to gave birth to a malicious intent aimed to destroy me or attack me when it find an opening, or when I'm not able to fight back at all .
The resentment that Tian Long left was solved after his regrets were solved, but on the other side, the resentment that formed the Inner Demon worked in a complete different manner .
From my Senior Brother's words, it seemed that it will continue to grow with the person whose thoughts created it and keep haunting him and waiting for the chance to strike him down, so even though the two seemed similar out of the fact that both are based on the resentment, one wanted nothing but its regret get removed .
On the other hand, it seemed that this other resentment was completely Evil and Malicious and fully intent on attacking the person who it reside in, seeking nothing but destruction of every hope and dream that person might have, a nightmarish bizarre existence through and through .
Just as I was wondering about whether the Panel would be able to solve this problem as well and how should I even be able to fight back against those negative and malicious thoughts, I heard Senior Brother say :
But don't bother your mind much thinking about it or else you might end up nurturing an obsession and by default it might grow into an Inner Demon, but it isn't like those things can't be dealt with, it's just the process that was quite tricky .