No other reason?"
You Shulang's ending tone was steady, flat and deep, with no way of telling whether he was happy or angry.
Lu Zhen felt guilty and was therefore very nervous. He stumbled over his words of breaking up, and the lyrics he had prepared all night were scattered all over the place.
"You are very good, but I am not worthy of you."
This sentence almost broke the calmness on You Shulang's face. The shadow under his brow became heavier, and he took out a cigarette and rubbed it slowly in his hand.
The young man opposite him kept his head down, and You Shulang could only see the top of his hair. He once loved that soft hair, which seemed to extend gently to the very end, and when he touched it, his heart felt like it was soaked by a silent spring rain.
Today, the hair still shines with a soft and bright luster in the sun, covering the young man's eyebrows and leaving only a tightened chin.
With her lips tightly pursed, her fingers were fingering the deliberately torn holes in her jeans. It was already late autumn, but the fashionable and beautiful Lu Zhen was still wearing single trousers. Her fingernails dug into the holes, leaving red marks on her skin.
Forget it, You Shulang softened his heart.
The glittering crown on the bookshelf, the valuable items in the wardrobe, the crude excuses, the inconsistent pretexts, the untracked schedule...
No more questions.
Since Lu Zhen has already decided to leave and has found enough excuses for their failed relationship, why should he embarrass him and put a label on him to embarrass him?
The cigarette was thrown into the mouth and lit.
You Shulang finally asked behind the soft white mist, "Have you made up your mind, Lu Zhen?"
Lu Zhen suddenly raised his eyes and finally looked straight at her. His fingertips slowly tightened, causing wrinkles on his pants and heavy red marks around his eyes. He almost opened his mouth but gave up.
Finally, his eyes were filled with a bright light, the light of the crown on the bookshelf. Gritting his teeth, Lu Zhen said word by word: "I think."
Both were speechless.
Apart from the rising white mist, there seemed to be no living creature in the room.
After finishing a cigarette, You Shulang pressed the cigarette butt into the ashtray.
"I'm leaving." He stood up, "Take good care of yourself in the future."
The man walked briskly without any hesitation. When his finger touched the door, he heard someone shout behind him.
"You Shulang!"
Before the sound faded, Lu Zhen suddenly ran over, threw herself into the man's arms, hugged his waist tightly, and cried like a wronged child.
The tears were warm and surging, soaking his shirt and burning his skin. You Shulang let his hands hang at his sides, not hugging the young man as tightly as before.
"You don't have me in your heart anymore." He gently pushed Lu Zhen away while sniffling, leaning down to look him in the eye, "Don't cry, you are actually quite brave, you can face your own heart."
He rubbed the young man's hair for the last time and said, "Live a good life. Your working environment is quite complicated. You must take care of yourself and don't mistreat yourself in other aspects."
After giving his final instructions, You Shulang turned around and tried to leave, but was stopped by Lu Zhen again. She looked at him directly with tearful eyes.
"You Shulang, have you ever loved me?"
There was no lingering emotion in Lu Zhen's words, and a hint of blame could be heard in his words.
The tall man was silent for a moment, and for the first time, there was a hint of coldness in Chen He's eyes.
"Can't you feel it?" the man asked.
"You are caring, asking about my well-being, taking care of my daily life, and standing behind me unconditionally?" The young man sneered, "You Shulang, do you think love is just like this?"
Looking at the man's slowly frowning brows, Lu Zhen almost denounced: "Yes, you are very good to me, a perfect boyfriend who can't be faulted with anything. You agree with everything I say and cooperate with everything I do, even if it's something you really don't like."
"But other than that, I can't feel you at all! I can't feel your true self! Just like you never tell me about your work, I don't understand, but I also hope to be able to participate in every aspect of your life; you are not interested in what I tell you, although you listen carefully, but I can tell that you don't like it!"
"Also, I really can't walk into your world. When you are silent, smoking, laughing, and even after making love, I can feel your loneliness! Even if I am right next to you and hugging you tightly, you are still lonely! Your heart is closed too tightly, or you don't want to let me in at all! The distance between us is too far, so far that no matter how hard I try, I can't get close to you! You know, that kind of frustration is really frustrating."
Lu Zhen wiped away his tears and made his closing statement.
"You Shulang, you have never loved me."