Warmth...
Not the cold sting of the ocean.
Not the crushing silce of drowing.
Just warmth
Soft pulses started to surround me like a veil .
Then I hear my heartbeat and thought this is my last heartbeat before I am finally free.
But then
Light
A blinding, pure light pours into my vision as I was lifted from the darkness.
I try to breath
A painful and sharp gasp escape through my lungs turning in a small helpless cry.
Then I feel it , arms holding me
Strange hand, soft hand and the warmth of those hands.
Voice started to echoes around my ear but the words doesn't make any sense.
"Zelha noren talva, selmis."
"Kra'ten horas! Yilo'ra, yilo'ra!"
I blinks.
what language is that ?
where am I ?
I try to speak , but only a tiny wail leaves my mouth.
My thoughts were clear....
but my body weak , fragile
and small ?
Too Small.
A women lean over to me,
Her eye's were gentle, shimmering like the distant stars.
She whispered something in my ears , the foreign words brushing against me like a soft breeze.
"Nal eri… narea, tolen."
I don't understand
Not a single sound what she trying to say .
Instinctively my tiny fingers curls around her hand.
Then the dots starts to connect, I am been reborn...
But inside my mind I am screaming in confusion.
Where am I?
What happened to me?
Why can't I move properly?
Why can't I speak ?
A man appears beside her. Broad shoulders. Pale hair.
He says something proudly
"Shalver ni'ar. Ven'lo, ar'tena."
The women laugh softly
I began to recognise their emotions...
But not by their words.
I don't know this place .
I don't know this language .
I don't know this life.
But the truth settle in my chest.
I am not dead
I am reborn.
In a world i understand nothing.
As I look up at the strange ceiling of a world i don't belong to.
I recognise something terrifying .
I wanted to escape life.
But instead I got a second chance.
A second chance for what?
To suffer again?
Then the men pick me up in hand and said a single word
"Matthias"
I look at him confused as I try to process what's happening.
Matthias... That's my name now
My name ..
I can see the happiness and excitement in his eyes and the women who's smiling with joy...
So they are my parents...
Parents in this new land?
A new beginning or again same mistake?