Hi? I asked my self when i saw my worried frustrated and depressed face. I asked my self why? i am here in this shity world why?
I neend to prof my self to everyone . What should i do when i feel lonely feel anxious feel afraid i run from my feelings that i feel for you ….I asked him then he replied there is always a option to choose the right path i think i am not ready for this freaking relationship you always asking for too much you need to be control your self i am not a robot and your servant. You need to be stopped right now you fuckin bitch. At this time I totally shuddered sad and i faint his words stay in my mind n my heart for along time there was a first he abused me treated me bad . When he abused me callin that word for my heart break my mental health was not stable. I locked my self in my room for along time and disconnected to my social life and disappear. He cursed me that I couldn't find Anyone who actually cared me love me and marry me.
His voice killed me from inside . I totally forgot my memories with my family , friends, fellows and my Name .
My mother call my name but I couldn't remember my entire soul . My father came to my room ask me what happened to you why you doing all these things are you in your senses RINA? Wait what? I hate my name my self because he calls me Rina as my pet name… so I decided to do suicide i tried so many times but i saved by my family . They save me but why. Sabrina Kim young . Doctors call my full name asking repeatedly Are you listening us. Are you ok? Is there any thing that you feel wrong ? Than suddenly I cry alot they give me injections so i sleep well after so many years . I hate him I promised my self this time I decided NOT BEGGING FOR LOVE.Or for anything .