Me, my name is Lovey… as my backbone started hurting, I would not be able to study robotics engineering, so I quit my study and started looking for a job. I live in a city called Rogera. It is a well-maintained and rich kind of city. The restaurants are mostly at a place outside the suburbs.
I contacted the company which helps the restaurants deliver food to people's houses, and I applied for it. They said they have contracts with a few restaurants right now, and it is pretty close to my house. They would pay me 15 bronze coins an hour plus 1 bronze coin for every food delivery. It was a pretty good salary to live on.
I joined the job, and as I was sitting in the area where all the restaurants are — restaurants like The Hermit, Moana, Subool, and Cuckko — the first day was not bad. I got a couple of orders to do, worked 5 hours, and earned around 90 bronze, doing 15 orders.
One day, I was sitting near The Hermit, hearing a is girl speaking with a few boys, but I was watching my phone at that time, as I was allowed to use it. Suddenly, I felt an external force pushing my head up, like some divine power wanted me to look at the girl who was conversing outside Subool (it sells breads stuffed with vegetables and meat). I could not help it, and eventually, I saw her.
I saw her standing… the way she was standing outside the restaurant was the same way I would stand. Her left foot was in front of her right foot, and her hand was on her hip, fist clenched ✊. She was wearing a scarf that covered half of her head, a green T-shirt over a black full-sleeve T-shirt, and blue loose jeans. Her skin color was somewhat light brown. She was not classically beautiful, nor pretty, but she had personality. I felt an attraction toward her.
But she was a believer of Ruman, a religion which believes in the oneness of God, and I believed in no religion — it didn't sound promising.
After three days, I got an order from the same restaurant, and she was working at the back. I wanted to say hi, so I waved at her, and she waved back at me. That was my first interaction with her. It kept happening for around one month. Slowly, I started to like her. I could see myself in her — the way she stands, the way she sits. When she would sit, she would make sure that no body part was exposed. She was extrovert, adaptable. She would like to join a conversation between two people if they were familiar to her, trying to adapt to another's personality without sacrificing her basic moral and ethical values.
I wanted to explain her that I was not attracted to her physically or sexually. I just liked her because she matched my aura. She was as skinny as me, 5 feet tall. She would often laugh at her own mistakes hhahah.
One day, she was sitting in her car after finishing work. I thought this was the right time to talk to her because talking while she was working was not a good idea, and waiting for her to arrive at work wasn't ideal either. It was accidental — she finished work early, and by chance, I was there waiting for an order. I gathered all my courage 😁.
(Lovey:) I knocked on the passenger-side door glass.
(Sumaya:) She slowly opened it.
(Lovey:) Hi.
(Sumaya:) Hi.
(Lovey:) People tell me you are rude…
She was surprised.
(Sumaya:) Because some customers have no patience, and I get frustrated and behave rudely.
While she was speaking, I felt so happy, chills went all over my body, and my brain felt somewhat frozen from the happiness.
(Lovey:) I know you are a good person, and slowly, slowly, I started to like you. I don't even care if you believe in Ruman.
(Sumaya:) So nice… I really like it.
She smiled softly, happy to have me there. I felt that.
(Lovey:) What is your name?
(Sumaya:) Sumaya.
(Lovey:) Samayaaa…
(Sumaya:) No, Sumaya.
I had not heard properly because the traffic was heavy at night at 9 PM, but I guessed correctly.
(Sumaya:) Yes, yes.
She told me about her family and that she was tired.
(Lovey:) Sumaya, take care. I want to tell you I like you the most.
She might have thought I liked her because of her light skin and beautiful face haha… as usually in our world, people are attracted to light skin color.
(Lovey:) I want to give you a gift. Maybe tomorrow I will bring it.
(Sumaya:) Ok.
She was so happy.
(Lovey:) Ok, bye. See you.
(Sumaya:) Yes, see you. I am working too.
The smile on her face gave me chills and made me nervously happy.
Next day, I prepared everything. When I went to do the job, she was working in Subool. The gifts I had for her were two bangles and earrings. I wanted to give them to her because I promised I would. I thought she would finish work around 10 PM, so I waited until 11 PM. When she didn't come out, I left the bangles and earrings in front of our car with a note:
"If you want to date me or start to know me, wear these bangles, one on each hand, and I would secretly know."
I left it, thinking of destiny decree. While it was hurting me, my brain was saying she did not come out because she did not like me, and why would someone like a dark brown-skinned man? I left it there because I got an order, and when I came back, she was gone.
The next few five days, she did not come back. I was so nervous — what happened to my gift? Did she read the note? These thoughts ran endlessly, sometimes suffocating me. Sometimes, I wanted to leave this part of the world and settle somewhere else.
After seven days, she was there. When I went to the restaurant to pick up an order, she was hiding from me, which made me so sad I literally cried. I felt someone had ripped open my chest and pulled my heart out. She was ignoring me, I felt it. I told a boy working at Subool to tell her she could talk directly to me. I left.
After an hour or so, I got the order and was about to leave. I heard:
(Sumaya:) Hey, I want to talk to you.
I wanted to sort out things between us. She said:
(Sumaya:) It was so scary. You were waiting outside for me.
(Lovey:) I wasn't waiting for you. I was just delivering food. It might be a misunderstanding.
She agreed and said:
(Sumaya:) Okay… I think you are a good man, but I am young, just 18, still starting my life.
(Lovey:) . I just want to make you happy. I only had good intentions towards you I wanted to say more than that but time did not allow me and talking to someone emotionally while she is working did not suit well to me
Talking to her gave me a unimaginable happiness even though she behaved unexpectedly, happiness wasn't mutual.
For at least two months, I would go there and pick up orders, and she would not talk to me. Not even a hi. But I could feel my presence made her happy. She would talk to colleagues about me sometimes. I felt that. Slowly, one day, I saw her staring at me. She was so embarrassed, her lips formed a circle 😙 — a gesture I loved.
From that day, I wanted to talk to her because I felt she did not hate me. I would wait patiently, feeling nervous, but happy just looking at her.
One month passed. I was talking to a friend at the restaurant when I saw her car leave. I asked the friend about the number; it was hers. I was sad I did not see her. I found out she had been sacked. I was surprised because she was a good worker.
I was about to quit the job too. I wanted to find another job because this one was stressful. My backbone still hurt from sitting and driving. I thought my story would end here.
After a month, I went to look near the restaurants while working another night job. I bumped into a diary. I opened it. I shouldn't read someone's diary, but it was written: Sumaya. I took it home and read it.
I shouldn't read someone's a diary but it was written on the diary Sumaya so surprised to know it's might be the same girl or she's different I just wanted to read it I took it home and started reading the diary and it starts from like I was born in another country on my greater with my family life been so good to me though but what I was looking for is true love nor the someone is attracted to me through to my beauty , I would go to school boys will propose me and boys will love me but I don't want I want the Destiny decree to happen I want someone to meet me accidentally and fall in love with me slowly slowly that's my dream it would never come true I was thinking about it all the day and since childhood as a believer in the God and I believe that will come true one day that's Sumaya I was so surprised to read, I read everything about her her choices are personality everything what she feels as she has written everything in that diary and the most important thing like she said she likes the chocolate but not much and she loves to shopping she have a good dreams to have a house and good family all of it written in it. The more I read the more I felt that we are one should in two bodies .Then I stopped at the page , says 26th of January I met a boy , and I was so surprised and my heart was palpitating, the heartbeat could be felt from like vary corner of my body ,The tears were falling from eyes one by one tears of happiness and joy and ecstasy or Destiny decree which has made me feel like I am the special even I am dark skin color. She described 26th of January I was working in the restaurant and I was so bored and so tired and my colleague went out and the one of the guy was talking to him and laughing, there was no work in the restaurant and I came outside talking to that person we were laughing and talking about random things when my sight landed on a boy who was sitting right side of the restaurant in front of other restaurant and he sunk his head in his phone and just by looking at him the kind of happiness I felt just just so good , my body froze for a moment and I felt is not he someone I was looking for . he stood is the same way I will stand and this make me fall for him " destiny decree" maybe I meeting him and the first day he came into the restaurant my heartbeat were so heavy and I was feeling happy but I didn't know how to start to talk to him so I hid myself behind the wall and I came outside gradually wanted to see him but not to show that I am interested in him . he waved at me and made me so happy and I waved immediately back and smiled at him it was the most beautiful precious moment in my entire life since childhood. As I found myself falling in love slowly slowly but it was so gently I was living the every single moment of my life working in sabool. Sometime he would come at my restaurant. One day I was sitting in my car that boy the one I love he knocked on the glass of the other side of my car door I was so stunned and was taken by surprise and I did not know what to do I just froze after some moments I realized came back to my senses and pulled the glass down he said hi to me obviously I immediately waved back high to him and explain everything about me and my family and everything I could say being so nervous and I told him my name and told him I would meet him tomorrow because I want to take the thing slowly slowly want him to make efforts because I preserved myself since childhood for the person I love the most who is him. next day he was waiting outside as I felt and I thought he's not a good boy because you should not wait for someone outside so I just stared at him because I want to look at him I love him but I also want to teach him how to behave properly and I intentionally did not come out but by my surprise he left me the gift and a note that was so cute to be honest I read the note it says if you want to date me wear these bangles it touches my heart everyday I read that note and see the gift he gave me bangles and earrings special and most precious gift I have been ever given and I would stare at him without getting noticed and most of the time he will never notice me and the gift he gave me I still possess that one day I wore each bangle in my each hand and earrings while uncovering my ears to show him that I do like him but he did not come to the restaurant on that day"Destiny decree" . One day i was staring at him and he noticed it and I was so embarrassed and I was feeling so shy about it because I never stared at a boy before and I was so nervous so I made that gesture with my mouth 😙 feeling,then he left and the whole day I was happy and then I started waiting for him all the time I would work feel so happy and in exuberance and ecstasy well when he would come but on the contrary side I will not initiate the conversation or even say hi but I would wait him to say something because I want him to make effort for me to come to me and tell me that he really loves me and the love he does is not physically and I was waiting waiting and I wanted it to happen because I could see in his eyes that he is in love with me not because of my body but because of something he sees in me and that is hard to believe but that did not happen and he did not talk to me anymore and what happened like I receive the notice from my restaurant that I have been sacked and I was so so sad about it and I accidentally I deliberately before leaving dropped the diary , thinking in my mind that if he is destined for me he would find diary, I did not write address in it or my house because I don't want him to come knocking on my door and show up. Diary Ends here..I couldn't sleep the whole night I was awake until the daytime I thought I should take a stroll outside because I was feeling so enjoyed as well sad in the meantime because I wasn't able to see her and I was thinking about a lot of things her face I could imagine her face and look at her like I just took everything in the wrong way but I could not believe my eyes when I saw Sumaya waking towards me I did not waste a single minute approached her hugged Tears rolled down from her eyes — tears of joy, sorrow, regret, love, and relief all mixed into one. I kissed her forehead softly, feeling her heart beat wildly against my chest. That heartbeat told me everything words never could. She loved me. There was no doubt anymore.
We stood there, in the middle of the street, two broken souls holding each other, as if time had stopped. We cried — not out of pain, but out of everything we had kept locked inside.
We held each other for what felt like 30 or 40 minutes, maybe more. The world faded around us. It was just me and her — Lovey and Sumaya — finally where we were meant to be. ignoring the people passing by . sometimes she would kiss my head and sometimes cheeks she would cry too 1 year of long wait . And I wanted to ask where were you my Soul.. she just Said one thing I felt like I was dead without you .. She gave me a diary to read her person diary.. but after that she introduced me too her parents and they accepted me .we got married and now we live together . I started reading her full diary after couple of days . She said I went home after dropping the diary thinking about him .