‘’The Man I Shouldn't Want’’



Description 
He is older,he is powerful and he is the one I have been warned to stay away from 
One mistake in the office changed everything 
I should walk away but my heart won't heart listen ooh God 

Outline 
I'm a young woman who works at the sinful company as the receptionist in the company
But here comes a family friend who is very old, wealthy and powerful.
As I turn on the corner trying my possible best not to sight him the bum
He bump into me floating all the paper and documents in my hands into the atmosphere 
As I went on my knee picking it up then I felt a strange hand touching my arm 
I couldn't even breath as my heart pumping like ever before I rise up my head to find him looking at me 
His eyes which I couldn't let go off.
I felt a bit guilty,a mix of surprise and something I can't even explain.
I knew this moment was the beginning of tension between the both of us.
Then the unexpected happened.
He started visiting the company more often.
I try to act normal but something in me always wanted to weaken me.
But there are stolen glances,light teasing,and moment that feels dangerous
When he walked to me and offered me a coffee and asked how my day had been.
We had a small discussion and he started helping me with work.
I pretend I was okay but deep down I was getting more and more drawn to him.
Something which both of us knew couldn't happen and was not supposed to happen but we couldn't resist from it.
One evening I was given a specific task to complete but was really tired that day when everyone in the office went home and I was the only one there trying my best to complete it before morning.
He walked in unexpectedly as I was shocked to see him by that time, then I remembered he went for a late meeting.
The atmosphere shift is quite dim  just the both of.
He offered to help me but I resisted and couldn't help control myself when he got close to me but he still insisted.
The conversation  turned personal as he wanted to know more about me and I wanted to know him too.
We talked a lot, forgetting it was even late that I had to go home.
Then bum told me how he admired me and had been thinking about me since we met.
I couldn't even believe it. I thought it was a dream like is it real ooh my God I can't believe my ears.
I couldn't hold myself any longer. I tried to hide my feelings but he noticed it.
Then he started getting closer to me. I was also going back until I reached the end of the wall. He looked at me deep into my face touching my shoulder, brushing my hair then moving his hands towards my chin.
Then I had the ring of a phone,it was my phone my mom was calling. I used that opportunity to run away from him….

I didn't hear half of what my boss said in the meeting.


I didn't taste the lunch I forced myself to eat.


And every time I tried to convince myself it was just a passing feeling, his voice replayed in my head like a song I couldn't let go


But when I saw him again at the end of the day, standing near the hallway with his hands in his pockets, looking at me like I was the only one in the world, something in me betrayed everything I believed in.


Hey, he said softly, his voice lower than usual.


I nodded, pretending to be calm, even though my heart was racing like a storm. Hey.


He stepped closer. Not too close… but close enough that the space between us felt like a secret.


Why are you avoiding me? he asked, with a hint of a smile that didn't quite reach his eyes.


I'm not avoiding you, I lied. I'm just… busy.


He tilted his head. "You've always been a bad liar."


I let out a  breath. Junior, this isn't right.


For a second, the teasing in his face disappeared. His expression softened, and what I saw there weakened me more than anything else, something real. Something dangerous.


I know, he whispered. But that doesn't change the way I feel.


I looked away quickly, trying to steady my voice. Don't say things like that. You're making this harder.


He stepped even closer, and I felt his breath near my ear. Then stop pretending you don't feel it too.


The hallway. The footsteps outside. Even my thoughts froze.


I took a small step back. We can't, I said, though it came out more like a plea than a decision.


He nodded slowly, but the look in his eyes said he wasn't going to walk away.


But it was already fading beneath our feet. And we couldn't change the fact, and what is meant to be.


I tried as possible to stay away from him but there is something in me that always gets me closer to him.


Chapter 6 - chapter 6