Netty?! She called my name in disbelief. Slightly raising my head I said, WHAT? I just want to get Joel out my head. By being 'foolish' enough and send videos of you to a guy? What if he uses it against you in the future?, she said.
Happer was right, I didn't think about what the consequences of what I was doing could later be. I felt so stupid at the moment.
Here's what we're going to do, Happer said. You will put him to a test, to prove whether you can or cannot trust him, by asking him to end the "thing" the both of you are putting up.
Alright Happer, but what if he's not as bad as you think he is ,I asked. Happer then told me bluntly that, her problem with me was that I trust too much. And she was right, I had a very weird way of trusting and if I trusted you, it's hard for me to lose trust in you.
I decided to think about what Happer said, and the more I thought about it, the more it made sence.
Hearing Happer's advice, I decided to put Hayden to a test by asking him to put a stop to the videos we were saying to each other. And behold, Happer was right. "I have saved one of the videos you sent to to me and if you dare step away from me, I will publish it to the world for everyone to see. I will ruin your reputation", he said to me. He said there's no way out, that I was stuck with him for ever.
I felt like my heart was being pierced with a sword. I felt so betrayed. I trusted him so much that I didn't think he was going to do that to me.
That night, I cried so much. Telling myself Happer was right, my problem was my trust in others is too much.