"Wife! Your... true identity should be the Qingyao Immortal Emperor—Yu Qingyao!"
As these words fell, my wife's body trembled violently. Then, covering her head with both hands, she let out a painful moan.
Amidst the moans, my wife bent over and knelt on the ground, the aura around her began to change slowly and fearfully.
Originally at the Tribulation Transcending stage like me, she broke through in an instant, and without any pause, her cultivation rapidly soared.
Not long after, my wife fainted and collapsed on the ground.
Seeing this scene, I hurriedly held my wife in my arms, my eyes filled with worry.
"Don't worry! Your wife is fine! It's just that the seal on her body has been unlocked, and she is trying hard to adapt. However, her strength cannot be fully restored immediately. After she wakes up, it will take about a hundred years for her to regain her former Immortal Emperor cultivation." The Tai Ling Immortal Lord came to my side and said.
Hearing Tai Ling Immortal Lord's words, my heart settled.
Looking at my sleeping wife, I couldn't help but feel somewhat desolate.
My wife was actually the legendary Qingyao Immortal Emperor. With my strength, what qualifications did I have to stay by her side?
Even if my wife didn't mind me, with my weak cultivation, I would only be a burden to her.
Holding my wife's mature, seductive, and perfect body, I couldn't help but sigh.
"Kid! Why are you sighing? You're just a Tribulation Transcending cultivator, yet you married an Immortal Emperor as your wife, and you love each other deeply. You should be happy! Think about it—you can press the female Immortal Emperor beneath you anytime, anywhere, and enjoy her!" Tai Ling Immortal Lord said with a wicked smile.
Tai Ling Immortal Lord's words left me stunned. Just moments ago, he had seemed like a true immortal of virtue in my mind, but now he suddenly revealed such a "manly" side.
Seeing my astonished expression, he said with a smile, "What's so strange? Just now, in front of a beauty like your wife, how could I show my true self? Ah! Seeing your wife, I can't help but remember several of our mistresses! My old companions and I have often 'troubled' the mistresses. The way they stuck out their big asses to seduce us always excited us to the extreme!"
Tai Ling Immortal Lord's words shocked me. I never expected that the wives of the Biyu Immortal Venerable would stick out their big asses to seduce their own steward. Seeing my stunned expression, Tai Ling Immortal Lord said with a smile, "Kid! Why are you so surprised? Did you think you were the only one who likes his wife to be a slut?
Back in the day, the debauched games the Immortal Venerable and the mistresses played were extremely thrilling!
Although the mistresses acted pure and holy in public, behind the scenes, they were all lewd, promiscuous bitches.
We, the insiders, would play with the mistresses right in front of the Immortal Venerable. As for outsiders, some seduced the mistresses for secret affairs, some raped the mistresses and then threatened them, and some were seduced by the mistresses themselves."
Hearing Tai Ling Immortal Lord's words, I finally understood why that great power called himself the "Biyu Immortal Venerable."
Thinking that this ancient great power shared the same hobby as me—liking to be a cuckold—I suddenly felt a sense of familiarity.
Seeing my expression, Tai Ling Immortal Lord said to me with a smile, "The Immortal Venerable's requirements for a successor, besides temperament, are hobbies! Only a man who, like him, enjoys being a cuckold is qualified to be his successor. Otherwise, you and your wife wouldn't have been chosen. Follow me! I'll take you to the Immortal Venerable's treasure vault. Inside are the techniques and treasures left by the Immortal Venerable. As inheritors, I hope you will make good use of them."
Carrying my wife, I followed Tai Ling Immortal Lord for a while until we arrived in front of a grand hall protected by a formation.
He stopped at the entrance and gestured for me to enter.
The protective formation of the grand hall opened immediately after I stepped inside with my wife in my arms.
When I pushed open the door and walked in, the divine sense left by Tai Ling Immortal Lord completed its mission and slowly dissipated.
After I entered the hall with my wife in my arms, I was immediately stunned by the scene inside.
In the extremely spacious hall, as large as a football field, various unknown refining materials, treasures, and spiritual herbs were placed on shelves.
If anyone saw this scene, they would surely think they were dreaming.
But at this moment, I understood that this was probably the benefit of me, a transmigrator, coming to this world.
However, I believed my greatest benefit was not everything here but the wife in my arms. My wife was my benefit and golden finger. Just as I was thinking this, the wife in my arms stirred. When I looked down, my wife slowly opened her eyes.
Meeting her gaze again, I found a gleam in her familiar eyes that I had never encountered before.
The resilience, decisiveness, dignity, and unparalleled aura of a superior accumulated over time and experience absolutely did not belong to my wife.
But when I saw such a gaze, I didn't feel strange at all because, in her eyes, there was still a feeling I was familiar with—deep affection for me.
Feeling the familiar deep affection in my wife's eyes, the unease in my heart dissipated.
As the corners of my mouth lifted slightly, my wife reached out with both hands, wrapped them around my neck, and engaged in an intense lip and tongue entanglement with me.
When our lips parted, both of us were still breathing heavily.
At this moment, my wife's expression and temperament had undergone significant changes.
In recent times, as my wife had increasingly frequent intercourse with men, her temperament and expression had become more promiscuous and debased.
But now, she seemed indescribably noble, sacred, and dignified.
If I didn't know the woman before me was my beloved wife, I might have knelt before her, willingly submitted.
And unbelievably, such a dignified and noble woman still had an extremely seductive charm in her eyes, a flirtatness that made men's crotches stiffen.
"Wife… you're so beautiful!" Looking at my wife before me, I said infatuatedly.
Hearing my praise and seeing me enchanted by her, my wife's face showed indescribable pride.
After getting down from my embrace, she whispered in my ear, "Then… do you mind that your wife is an old woman several million years old, who has been married and had children before!"
After hearing my wife's words, I became even more excited because I love promiscuous, beautiful mature women the most.
Others might dislike their wife for being old, but knowing that my age wasn't even a fraction of my wife's, and that her son could be my ancestor many generations over, made me even more excited.
Especially thinking that the woman before me was actually the female Immortal Emperor revered by all humans in the Immortal Spirit World, a heroine who resisted the demon race, I became even more excited and proud.
Holding my wife's mature, seductive, and enchanting body in my arms, I rubbed her plump buttocks and said excitedly, "All the men in the entire Immortal Spirit World will envy me for marrying this old woman whose son could be my ancestor!"
Hearing my words, my wife gave me a gentle smile, then looked at me lovingly and said, "Husband… I was betrayed by my husband once. Please, never betray me! If you betray me… I will surely go mad! When I was betrayed by Jiang Yuhuang, I thought I would never trust men again, let alone fall in love with any man. But I never expected to lose my memory and meet you, who treated me wholeheartedly. If even you…"
My wife's words were blocked by my kiss. In the intense lip and tongue entanglement, we arrived beside a shelf full of precious refining materials.
When I pushed my wife against the shelf, my hand slipped through the slit of her skirt and touched her plump buttocks. My wife lifted a beautiful leg and wrapped it around my waist.
The clothes on my body, which could be considered immortal artifacts, were easily turned to dust by my wife, leaving us completely naked.
When my fully erect cock pressed against my wife's black pussy, I released her lips and tongue.
"I, Qin Jingtian, swear to the Heavenly Dao! In this life, I will always be loyal to my beloved wife and never abandon her. If…"
My oath was blocked by my wife's kiss. She looked at me with loving eyes, then used the beautiful leg wrapped around my waist to pull forcefully, and my cock slid entirely into her black pussy.
Amid the unprecedented pleasure transmitted by my cock, I let out a satisfied moan, then slowly began thrusting inside my wife's black pussy.
My wife thrust her pussy to meet my pounding while gasping and saying, "Husband, harder… use your little cock… fuck my slutty pussy hard! Oh~~ How did I, the dignified Qingyao Immortal Emperor… marry such a useless man! Such a small cock… can't satisfy my slutty pussy at all!"
If other men heard their wife say such things during sex, their cocks would surely go soft immediately, possibly leading to lifelong impotence. But when I heard my wife say this, I became extremely excited because men like me, who enjoy being cuckolds, love nothing more than being humiliated by their wife and her lovers.
Excited, I held my wife's big buttocks and fucked her fiercely while shouting, "Wife… your husband is just a useless man with a small cock! Your husband is just… a small-cocked waste who can't satisfy his wife! Your black pussy… your husband can't serve it properly!"
My cock thrust fiercely into my wife's black pussy, slamming against her body with loud "smacking" sounds.
But such forceful fucking and impact, due to my short and small cock, could not satisfy my wife.
The harder I fucked her, the more thirsty she became.
As her black pussy continuously thrust to meet me, she gasped intensely, her eyes full of desire, and said provocatively, "Husband… although I love you… what should I do if your cock can't satisfy me? I, a dignified female Immortal Emperor… can't even satisfy my own black pussy… I'll be ridiculed!"
Hearing my wife's words, I became extremely excited.
I never expected that after regaining her memory, my wife's flirting skills would become even more formidable. In my excitement, I vigorously kneaded her plump buttocks, thrust my cock fiercely, and shouted loudly, "As an Immortal Emperor… and a heroine revered by everyone in the Immortal Spirit World… it's only natural for my wife to have a harem of three thousand beauties! My wife should find more men with thick, big cocks… who can fuck your black pussy comfortably… to fill your harem!"
Hearing me tell her to establish a harem, my wife excitedly thrust her black pussy to meet my fucking, then said with excitement and fervor, "If I find men with big cocks… who can fuck me comfortably to establish a harem… then my black pussy will be fucked by big cocks every day… and I'll increasingly look down on you… by then… what will you, this small-cocked good-for-nothing, do?"
My wife's lustful and thirsty appearance excited me to the extreme. In my excitement, I shouted loudly, "I, this small-cocked useless husband… will naturally make way for the big-cocked men! As long as I, this small-cocked waste… can be a servant attending to you… that's enough! I just want to see my most beloved wife comfortably… fucked by big cocks every day… that's all I need!"
Hearing my debased shouts, my wife this time did not reply, and even the thrusting of her black pussy to meet me stopped.
When I noticed something was wrong with my wife and stopped fucking her, I found her looking at me with anger and suppressed fury.
Seeing my wife's reaction, I immediately lost interest in fucking her. Pulling out my cock, I said anxiously, "Wife... what's wrong? Did I say something wrong?"
Seeing my anxious expression, my wife took a deep breath, then looked at me seriously and said, "Husband! I know you feel insecure. You think I'm a powerful Immortal Emperor, and you're just a minor cultivator who hasn't even become an immortal, so you feel unworthy of me. But please believe in my love for you, okay? Because you like it, I can be a promiscuous, debased woman, but the premise is that you are happy! You are my husband, and only you are my husband! I will have many men, and all of them will have cocks more powerful than yours, but the only man I love in my heart is you! When we, husband and wife, play debauched games, we can do many thrilling things, but there's one thing you must firmly remember: I am your wife, and I love you! So never again have the thought of being my servant, of being satisfied just by serving me! I am a highly cultivated Immortal Emperor, but I am also a wife willing to devote everything to you! With just one word from you, I can endure my desires and become a chaste wife. Or, with one word from you, I can become a whore ridden by thousands in a brothel!"
My wife's deeply affectionate words moved me greatly. I held her mature, perfect body tightly, then whispered in her ear, "Wife… I'm sorry! Your husband just feels that his cultivation is low and is afraid of becoming a burden to you. But please believe me, I will never be like this again! I love you! I am your husband! If anyone tries to take you away from me, I will definitely fight them to the death!"
Hearing my words, my wife smiled mischievously, easily pushed me to the ground, and straddled me.
After her black pussy easily swallowed my cock, she skillfully twisted her waist and hips and said, "But those men who want to snatch me away are all much more powerful than you! What will you do when you can't defeat them?"
Enjoying the service of my wife's black pussy on my cock, I grabbed the huge breast on her chest with one hand, spanked her big buttocks with the other, and said, "It doesn't matter if I can't defeat them! Anyway, my wife can defeat them! In the future, if anyone bullies me, I'll summon my wife, the most powerful in the world, to stand up for me! I want to be the pretty boy envied by all men in the entire Immortal Spirit World, protected by his wife!"
Hearing my words, my wife's body trembled slightly, then she quickly bounced her big buttocks and said, "My pretty boy husband! In the future… feel free to throw your weight around relying on your wife… bullying men and dominating women! Your wife… will always protect you… making you the pretty boy with the strongest backing in the entire Immortal Spirit World! I want to make you… the happiest man in the Immortal Spirit World!"
Coordinating with the bouncing of my wife's big buttocks, my cock thrust upward repeatedly.
Amid the crisp "smacking" sounds, my cock felt more and more comfortable, more and more excited.
A long time later, I finally let out a loud roar and ejaculated inside my wife's black pussy.
But at this moment, my wife had not reached orgasm; instead, she lay in my arms on my chest.
Suddenly, I felt a bit of coolness on my chest. I immediately lifted my wife's face and saw tears at the corners of her eyes.
Seeing my wife crying, I panicked and said, "Wife! You… don't cry! It's my fault for being useless… unable to make you comfortable! I… I'll go find a few men to make you comfortable!" After saying this, I was about to get up and find men for my wife.
Seeing my flustered, my wife couldn't help but laughed through her tears, then said with a loving, happy coquettish tone, "Silly! Who said I'm crying because I didn't get fucked comfortably!"
My wife's coquettish look with tears in her eyes made me feel both heartache and infatuation. Then I gently touched her face and puzzledly asked, "Then why are you crying?"
Hearing my question, my wife hesitated slightly, then decided to be honest with me: "Because… I remembered my ex-husband… that man who betrayed me! Back then… when we made love, I often swore to protect him, to make him the happiest man in the Immortal Spirit World, the pretty boy envied by countless people! But…"
My wife's face was now full of helplessness and pain. I held her tightly in my arms and said, "But he joined forces with outsiders to plot against you, nearly causing your death!" I said heartbrokenly.
Feeling the pain in my wife's heart, I gently whispered in her ear, "Wife! I know saying this might be overestimating my abilities, but please believe me! One day, your husband will help you vent your anger! I will make Jiang Yuhuang pay the price!"
Hearing my words, my wife held my face, kissed me, and said, "Silly! Your wife is the number one female Immortal Emperor! How can I let others fight my battles! Please believe in your wife!"
Hearing my wife's words, I couldn't help but feel a wave of helplessness and sadness.
Because I clearly knew that Jiang Yuhuang was now at the Immortal Emperor cultivation level, while I hadn't even achieved immortality.
With my cultivation, talking about helping my wife seek revenge was purely overestimating my abilities.
Holding my wife's sexy body, I helplessly sighed.
Seeing my lost look, my wife kissed my face, then said mischievously…
My wife's words made me feel depressed, then I said with a resentful expression, "Wife! Saying that makes your husband so embarrassed! This is what powerful men say to comfort their little wives! But… your husband accepts it! Who told your husband to be so useless! But I can guarantee that your judgment is absolutely not wrong!" I said firmly, holding my wife.
Seeing my depressed expression turn resolute, my wife lay on my chest and sighed, then said, "Husband! I know you might get angry comparing you like this, but I dare say, apart from cultivation and cock size, you are better than Jiang Yuhuang in every aspect!"
"Wife! I know you're praising me, but aren't cultivating and cock size the most important things for a man! But… you are my wife! Your husband will forgive you for looking down on me!" I said magnanimously while vigorously spanking my wife's plump buttocks a few times.
As soon as I finished speaking, my wife bit my chest hard, then said coquettishly, "I'm not looking down on you! I don't care about cultivation level at all because no matter how high it is, it can't surpass mine! As for cock size… my husband is so magnanimous and loves me so much… even being a cuckold, what does cock size matter! What does it matter that my ex-husband had high cultivation and a big cock? He never loved me and was always using me. Back then, I treated him so well. As an Immortal Emperor, not only did I remain chaste for him, never seeking other men, but I also let him have his way with me in bed, agreeing to whatever he wanted. And what was the result? To break through to the Immortal Emperor realm, he actually joined forces with the Blood Heaven Demon Venerable and the Ling Zhan Immortal Emperor to plot against me. To please his two allies, he even drugged me with aphrodisiacs and watched as I was raped and played with by Blood Heaven and Ling Zhan. If I hadn't used a blood-contract spirit treasure to mimic my self-destruction, I would have truly fallen then. But self-destructing the blood-contract spirit treasure only injured my divine soul, and it's only now that I've recovered my memory."
Hearing my wife's words, I couldn't help but feel heartache for her and intense hatred for Jiang Yuhuang.
Looking at my wife's beautiful face, I gently kissed her and said, "Wife! Can you tell me about you and Jiang Yuhuang? Of course, if it's too painful, we don't have to mention it!"
"There's nothing I can't mention. If you want to know, I'll tell you. Because you are my husband, I have an obligation to tell you about my past love history." After finishing her laugh, my wife lay on my chest and began narrating her past experiences.
Qingyao came from the Wuji Sect, which was once a mid-to-upper-level sect in the Immortal Spirit World.
Her master was the sect leader of the Wuji Sect, Jiang Shouyue—also Jiang Yuhuang's father.
Jiang Shouyue brought Qingyao, who was an orphan almost sold into a brothel to become a prostitute, back to the Wuji Sect. He treated her with great kindness, and Qingyao respected him like a father.
Due to Qingyao's astonishing talent for cultivation, she became an immortal in less than twenty years and reached the Grand Unity True Immortal realm in over a thousand years—an unprecedented genius in the Wuji Sect.
Jiang Shouyue, as the sect leader of the Wuji Sect, appointed Qingyao as the future successor of the Wuji Sect without hesitation.
After becoming the successor sect leader, Qingyao began traveling the world to broaden her horizons.
During her many years of traveling, Qingyao made many friends and did many chivalrous deeds, slaying demons and vanquishing monsters.
At the same time, she experienced several love affairs and had several lovers.
However, these love affairs ended due to differences in personality, goals, and methods of conduct, though she remained friends with a few lovers for many years.
After about ten thousand years of cultivation, Qingyao had already reached the Grand Overarching Golden Immortal realm, not weaker than her master, Jiang Shouyue.
At this time, enemy sects, fearing Qingyao's continued rise in power, united with several other sects to attack the Wuji Sect. Qingyao immediately returned to the sect to rescue them.
But unexpectedly, their attack on the Wuji Sect was just a feint; their real target was Qingyao herself.
On her way back, Qingyao was ambushed.
That ambush was one of the most dangerous moments in Qingyao's life.
At that time, she was trapped in a confinement formation and besieged by several experts of the same level, with no hope of escape.
Just when she thought she was doomed, Jiang Shouyue arrived.
At the cost of burning his immortal energy and suffering severe damage to his divine soul, Jiang Shouyue broke the confinement formation, severely injured three of the besiegers, and took Qingyao back to the Wuji Sect.
By this time, Jiang Shouyue was at the end of his rope, with only a few years left to live.
Jiang Shouyue was only concerned about two things: the Wuji Sect and his only son, Jiang Yuhuang.
Under Jiang Shouyue's expectations, Qingyao became the sect leader of the Wuji Sect and simultaneously married Jiang Yuhuang, who was only at the Earth Immortal realm at the time.
After a hundred thousand years, Qingyao achieved the Immortal Emperor realm and established the Qingyao Divine Court, which lasted for nearly two million years.
After establishing the Divine Court, Qingyao worked hard to eliminate internal conflicts among humans and fully resisted the demon race, becoming a heroine who drove the demon race out of human territory.
Until a hundred years ago when she was plotted against, it can be said that my wife single-handedly greatly improved the chaotic situation of humans killing each other. Although it wasn't completely eradicated, it wasn't as difficult as before.
It was precisely because of this that my wife was celebrated in the Immortal Spirit World for over a hundred thousand years.
Listening to Qingyao tell her story, I was amazed and admired her talent, wisdom, determination, ability, and more.
Thinking that such an extraordinary woman had become my wife and loved me deeply, I felt incredibly proud and delighted. At the same time, I couldn't help but think Jiang Yuhuang was a fool.
While listening to my wife's story, my lecherous hands were never still, constantly kneading and caressing her back, buttocks, breasts, and beautiful legs.
My wife let me take advantage with my lecherous hands while her seductive body kept squirming in my embrace.
If I weren't listening to my wife's story, I would have long been unable to resist pressing her down and having my way with her.
When my wife stopped talking, I flipped over and pressed her beneath me, lifted her legs onto my shoulders, and my erect cock inserted into her black pussy again.
The comfortable feeling made me moan, and my wife looked at me with anticipation.
But I knew that my small cock would be lucky to make my wife orgasm once.
"Wife! Will you seek revenge on Jiang Yuhuang?" Thrusting my cock inside my wife's black pussy, I asked with a smile.
"I… don't know! I'll decide when I see him!" My wife said while thrusting her black pussy to meet me, gasping.
Hearing my wife's reply, I kissed her and said, "Don't force yourself! You can't bring yourself to do it! Because you are too kind! With your master's kindness, you would never kill Jiang Yuhuang no matter what. If he hadn't colluded with the demon race to harm his own kind, you would definitely choose to forget about him and go your separate ways! At most, you'd teach him a lesson to keep him from going down the wrong path!"
Hearing my words, my wife stared at me blankly, then gently stroked my face and said, "I never expected that after being with me for only a hundred years, and with me having lost my memory, you understand me so well. Jiang Yuhuang was with me for nearly two million years, yet he actually thought that I… thought that I would disregard his life and death, letting him die to get rid of him. How could he know… I had already prepared spiritual medicine for his advancement, but didn't tell him to avoid him relying on it and not working hard. It would be best if he could break through to the Immortal Emperor realm on his own. If not… before his lifespan ran out… I would definitely help him break through!" At this point, my wife's voice choked up.
My wife's choked voice broke my heart. I held her and comforted her softly, even stopping my cock's thrusting.
Under my comfort, my wife finally suppressed the sadness in her heart. Signaling me to continue fucking her, she said, "Killing him… I would feel sorry for Master! But while the death penalty can be avoided… living punishment cannot be escaped! As long as he behaves himself and manages the Divine Court properly in the future… I will only teach him a lesson!"
Seeing my wife was still somewhat sad, I said with a wicked smile, "If he doesn't behave then… we'll capture him and bring him home, imprison him in the backyard, fuck him every day, play with him every night, make him your crotch man beneath your crotch! Let him know that the price of wrongdoing is becoming the female Immortal Emperor's tool for venting desires, a sex slave and fuck toy!"
Hearing my joke, my wife couldn't help but laugh, then bit my shoulder hard and said provocatively, "You think his cock isn't big? Let me tell you, his cock is much bigger than yours! When he fucked me, he could make me climax again and again! If it weren't for his big cock making me feel so good, I wouldn't have been so deeply in love with him back then!"
Hearing my wife's words, I looked incredible, then asked hesitantly, "Wife… is he really that powerful?"
Seeing my disbelief, my wife blushed and nodded, then said somewhat embarrassed, "I had a few lovers before marriage; I wasn't an ignorant woman. But on our wedding night, after he fucked me, I understood what it meant to feel like dying in ecstasy, climaxing repeatedly. You know how sensitive my body is and how promiscuous I am in bed; it was all trained by him. Although I am a strong and noble female Immortal Emperor in public, when having sex with him… I had long become a plaything, not daring to resist at all."
Hearing my wife's words, I showed a look of understanding and said, "No wonder your pussy is so black and your body so sensitive; you were trained long ago! To train a powerful, proud female Immortal Emperor into a plaything, his bed skills must be incredible. Sigh! Compared to him, apart from loving you more and treating you better, I have no advantages at all!"
Hearing my words, my wife smiled promiscuously, then said provocatively in my ear, "Your greatest advantage, what made me devoted to you, is that you like being a cuckold, willing to find big-cocked men to fuck my black pussy! When Jiang Yuhuang was my husband, he kept a tight watch on me. Although he liked me wearing sexy clothes and letting men drool over my body, he would never give anyone else a chance to touch me. Because he felt very inferior in front of me, he could only satisfy his self-esteem by fucking me into submission in various ways, making me his exclusive woman. Although it was very enjoyable when he played with me, sometimes I also thought about other men! Now that I'm your wife, I can finally be a promiscuous female Immortal Emperor! In the past, I was bullied by my husband; in the future, I can bully my husband!"
Hearing my wife's words, my cock thrust wildly into her black pussy.
Imagining my wife cuckolding me in the future, other men raping my beautiful Immortal Emperor wife, I let out an excited roar and ejaculated inside my wife's black pussy.
And at the moment I ejaculated, my wife let out a series of high-pitched, promiscuous cries and reached orgasm. Just as my wife climaxed, I felt an incredibly powerful force surge into my body.
My long-stagnant cultivation rapidly improved with the influx of power.
A sudden surge in cultivation should not be a good thing because it can cause an unstable foundation.
But at this moment, I felt extremely comfortable, without any sense of unreality.
My physical body, divine soul, and divine sense all advanced rapidly, the comfortable feeling making me deeply addicted to it.
Not long after, I entered a meditative state. The last thing I saw before entering meditation was my wife's gentle, loving gaze.