Ilaya walked out of the door and saw a long hallway. She looked at the side of the walls and she saw many doors. As she started walking, she started thinking
'Is this whole building is sort of hospital for the Yakuza? Well, the fact that they bring me here when I'm injured kind of confirmed that. Ivana also said that time when I'm asking about Yamato that he's in the other room. So maybe it's really a hospital for them'
She became curious about the rooms as she slowly walked towards the door, of the other room besides the one she stays in, and decided to take a peek. Then, she quietly opened the door as she popped her head inside
But, she saw that the beds are all covered with partition. She also heard the beeping of machines. Then, she hesitated to whether enter the room or just leave
'I'm really curious about the people here. Are they the critically injured from the fight last night? But, the woman said that I'm not supposed to enter restricted area. Is this a restricted area?'
She turned her head at the hallway, to her room that the woman was currently inside. When Ilaya didn't see the woman got out of the room. She immediately entered the room she was peeking earlier and slowly closed the door. As the door closes, she suddenly felt a little excited
'Hehe, it seemed like I'm being naughty by doing this. But it's also kind of fun'
Then, she turned around and saw 10 covered partitioned bed. Ilaya slowly walked towards the covered part in the left corner that was nearest to her. As she neared, she hears many sounds of machine, as well as a deep breathing of the person in the bed
She flipped the covering as saw the patient behind it. Then, she subconsciously took a step back and covered her mouth when she saw an amputated man behind it. Her eyes trembled as she saw that the leg of the man is cut from his thigh and the bandage covering the cut is full of blood
His left arm is also amputated from the forearm. His head is also covered in bandages and she saw that there's still blood on his skin. Ilaya immediately heaved heavily as she remembered the bloody night that she had gone through
She immediately looked away as she trembled. She felt her hands, face, and neck turn warm and sticky as she smelled a faint scent of blood. Cold sweat covered her body as she thought of her other self in her dream. As she started to teared up, she hurriedly walked out of the room
She closed the door and got startled by a woman's voice beside her
"What are you doing there?"
Ilaya turned her teary face towards the woman as she wiped her eyes and she said
"I'm sorry. I just got curious about the people in my neighboring room, so I entered"
The woman looked at her for a moment before sighing and said to her
"You said you want to walk around aren't you. Then come with me"
The woman then approached her as she opened the door that Ilaya just got out. She looked at her and gestured to her to enter
"Come here, I'll show you what happens when there's a war"
Ilaya hesitated. She really didn't want to see the injured men inside as it will make her remember her trauma. But, as she looked at the eyes of the woman, her eyes were apathetic. Like she's used to seeing all kinds of horrible things that she have gotten used to it
Ilaya gloomily stepped into the room as she looked inside again. The woman nodded seeing that she entered the room and said while walking towards the patient that Ilaya had seen
"I've been told that you're an important person to Boss. She even mobilized half of the entire forces of the Yakuza to conduct a search and rescue for you. Heck! She even personally moved after so many years of sitting at her desk"
The woman flipped the curtain wide open as she checked the medical apparatus and she asked Ilaya
"So, how are you going to repay their sacrifices?
The woman then turned around and glared at Ilaya as she pointed at the man in the bed
"What are you going to do now that all of the happenings outside is all because of you?"
As Ilaya was having trouble understanding what she was saying, the woman scoffed and she talks to herself while replacing the bandage of the man in the bed
"What's so special about this woman that the boss risked the entire group to be attacked like that?"
As Ilaya's emotion is in turmoil, she asked the woman confusingly and anxiously
"W-what do you mean that… the fight happened last night is because of me?"
Ilaya stelled herself from the frightening stare of the woman as she continue to ask
"Repay!? What is all of this got to do with me!?"
Ilaya shouted as she teared up. She couldn't help but think that the world is suffering because she's alive. Yamato almost died from protecting her, and Mars and the owner is worrying so much because of her
And now, the woman said that she's responsible for all the people that got hurt from the fight last night! She really didn't know what's happening anymore! The woman stared at her for a moment before going to the next patient as she said while walking
"It's all your fault. If the boss didn't deployed her forces, the enemies will not be able to find our men. And if they can't find our men, they will not attack. Then, there's no fight that should've erupted"
The woman continues checking the medical apparatus and replacing bandages as she speak to Ilaya without looking at her
"Of course. What happened is, the boss deployed her forces. As the members are thinly spread in the city, the enemies managed to find them and attacked. To make the city more chaotic, the enemies even attacked the police forces. Then, that leads to the Yakuza and Police forces to launch a counter attack"
The woman finally stopped and looked at Ilaya who's whole body is shaking and finished her sentence
"The counter attack happened last night. And the outcome is 300 men of our forces died from that fight! Did you see the critically injured people here!? There are 40 like this amputated man in the other rooms, and some of them even died! There's 100 seriously wounded like Yamato who you talked with such enthusiasm! And all that's survived are all traumatized and going crazy!"
Ilaya slumped in on the floor as she hugged herself. Crying and trembling as she digested what her very existence had caused. The woman didn't seemed to care as she said mockingly
"Ohh! I didn't get to say about the damages that the police force had suffered. Do you want to hear it?"
Ilaya placed her hands towards her ears as she mumbled while kneeling on the floor
"D-Dont say it… please don't say it… please!"
The woman walked away from the patient as she stopped in front of Ilaya. Then she crouched with her elbows in her knees as she whispered to her ear
"Of over 900 police officers that took part in the operation last night. More than 700 died last night. With so many people in critical condition and more than hundred seriously wounded"
Those words is like a curse that was placed in her heart. Ilaya tried to held back her tears as she gritted her teeth so much that some of them cracked
"... Kghhh!.."
She was consumed by intense self loathing and grief. Blood dripped to her chin from her mouth as her consciousness dimmed. But before she lose consciousness, she heard the woman said a brand to her very being
"Ilaya. You have killed over 1000 people just because of your existence. How are you going to pay for it?"
Then, Ilaya slumped heavily on the floor. Her face is full of suffering. With tears and blood marring her visage