Xavier also sat on Shitou, and slowly said, "Do you ever feel very happy?"
"Klee does!" Klee was the first to say, "Klee is very happy when her mother writes to Klee, Klee is also very happy when Albedo takes Klee to eat delicious food, and there's also..."
There seemed to be so many things that made Klee happy that he couldn't finish talking about them.
"Hmm~ If we're talking about happiness, it definitely has to be when I eat dessert, oh, and when I play allogene!"
Furina thought for a moment and gave his answer.
Hu Tao's answer was even simpler: "Ha, that must be when Wangsheng Funeral Parlor gets business, preferably two or three orders at once, it's just too happy!"
Xavier didn't know whether to cry or laugh for a moment.
Their answers were stranger than the last.
"What about you, Xavier? You must have very happy moments too, since you're asking this?" Furina asked back.
"Of course," Xavier said without thinking, "It's when I met you."
"Me?" Furina pointed to himself.
Xavier nodded and said, "That's right, and the others too. In short, every time I feel very happy."
"Hmm~ Perhaps it's because I'm a native of Teyvat, so I don't quite understand your feelings, but I can probably sense some of it from the reactions of others."
Furina tried to find Xavier's feeling, but no matter how he thought about it, he couldn't connect with it.
Xavier's hands waved continuously in the air, as if he wanted to catch the winds flying around.
"It's actually very difficult for a person to know what he wants. Before I met you, I was also troubled by this."
"Thinking about my childhood, it seemed quite happy."
"I would run around the village with my bare bottom, I would play hide-and-seek with my friends on the mountain, it seemed no different from anyone else."
"But gradually I found that people seemed to be different; some were very happy, while others couldn't be happy no matter what."
"I even used to mock those classmates who never said a word all day, thinking their lives were boring."
"It wasn't until my parents passed away that I realized that people's joys and sorrows are not interconnected."
At this point, Xavier gave a self-deprecating smile, as if mocking his past self for being so foolish and naive.
"Oh, it's very simple to know what you want, just ask yourself!"
Hu Tao never seemed to be troubled by such things.
She took large strides, walking back and forth in front of Xavier.
"I'll tell you a good method: when you don't know what you want, just ask yourself what you don't want."
"For example, I, Hu Tao, really dislike sad emotions, and I hate not having friends around!"
"So, I'll find ways to make myself happier, to make more friends, and then find the ones that are most suitable for me!"
Hu Tao's idea was simple, but also very useful.
"Oh, it's not that easy..."
Furina proposed a different idea. He sat on the stone, propping his small head with both hands.
"Instead of saying it's not that easy, it's more like you, Hu Tao, are truly amazing to be able to do these things."
"Anyway, I find it very difficult. During the time I played the Hydro Archon, I often asked myself if this was truly what I wanted."
"Actually, many times the answer was no, but I still gritted my teeth and persevered."
"If you ask me why, I don't even know myself."
"Although in the end, when I saw that everyone in Fontaine would no longer be cursed, I felt that everything was worth it, but during the process, I had no idea of the outcome."
It was the first time Hu Tao had experienced another side of Furina.
He didn't seem as silly or only capable of silly laughter as he appeared on the surface.
He had endured too much pressure, too many rumors.
Perhaps it was precisely because of this that Furina had deeper feelings.
"Furina is right, sometimes the external environment makes you not know what you want."
"For example, on Blue Star, people only ask you about your academic performance, your salary, whether you've found a suitable girlfriend, whether you've had children..."
"Over time, people naturally come to believe that these are the standards for judging their lives."
"That's not right!" Klee interrupted Xavier, "These things don't make people happy. Klee only feels happy when Klee is with everyone in the Knights of Favonius in Mondstadt!"
Xavier smiled and stroked Klee's small head, saying, "Klee is also very smart, he knows what is right and what is wrong."
Sometimes it's really strange. You read more books and learn more knowledge.
Logically, you should be smarter and wiser, but precisely because you know too much, you become more confused.
"Xavier, you're so abnormal today. Why are you saying these things? It's too strange."
Furina still couldn't quite understand why Xavier had become so strange.
"Of course, it's because life is too fragile, and those seemingly solid relationships are as weak as wind."
Having not received the warmth and nourishment of a family, Xavier naturally had doubts about family.
Because his parents passed away too early, and then Taigong suddenly passed away, he felt the fragility of life.
"Life and death are fated, and destiny is unpredictable!" Hu Tao was very open-minded. "In short, living each day well is more important than anything else. Even if I, Hu Tao, were to die tomorrow, there wouldn't be too many regrets!"
Furina agreed, "Yes, and haven't you found the life you want?"
Through this conversation, Xavier felt he had gained a lot.
Yes, living each day well and finding the life you want are indeed the most important things.
Whether it's the departure of loved ones or unexpected events, these are things he cannot avoid.
"You're right, so we should go back!"
Xavier stood up and stretched his body, then turned to look at the huge windmill behind him.
He planned to leave this village, to accept his past imperfect self.
Perhaps a person's growth isn't about thinking how foolish or naive his past self was.
Rather, it's when he understands all of this, yet can still accept and embrace his past self.
Without past experiences, there would be no present Xavier.
He might not be able to forgive some people, such as his grandfather, his eldest uncle, and his third uncle.
But at least he would no longer be troubled by these things.
By the time Xavier drove home, it was already evening.
Returning with the autumn sunset had a somewhat romantic feel.
As soon as the car reached the entrance of the residential area, he saw a large group of people sitting there.
Xavier was very puzzled and leaned out to ask, "What are you doing sitting here?"
"Hmph, waiting for you, of course!" Diona said, crossing her arms, "It's no fun at all without you at home, boring!"
"Mm-hmm, exactly!"
Everyone agreed with Diona's idea.
Xavier smiled, the feeling of happiness almost overflowing from his body.
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