Today, i was planning on meeting with Inna, as per usual, there's nothing else i should be prepared for, it was just another day.
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"WHAT DO YOU MEAN YOU FORGOT DOING YOUR HOMEWORK, ARE YOU SERIOUS!"
"Look i just was so occupied, there were a lot of things i was doing, so i forgot all about it in the process."
"Huhh, I just want to know, under what basis you prioritized those things over my homework, are you just an airhead, how can you do this to me."
"...ma-my fault Inna. I really wanted to do your homework, but i feel like I'm not good at doing tasks, i get distracted really quick and yesterday was very filled with too many activities."
Inna started to look at me with mad then interesting expression.
"Is that so... Let me ask you this, did you feel like what you did deserved abandoning your duties?"
Inna's question was very surprising, i was expecting her to get even more mad and think of sort of punishment, but she instead considering my feelings and what i think.
"Umm... Well definitely not, but it was enjoyable."
I think I'm lying, even with this routine of chasing fun, never tend to last to the part where i start enjoying it, but my mind just made me think that i was actually enjoying myself.
"Enjoyable huh, Is that it?"
"Yes, it's only me and the world when I'm outside of school, whether it's at home or outside... Like do you know how good it feels after a long day at school to just forget it and start doing what you want. And how hard it is to avoid everyone who's calling me, Don't you feel the same?"
Inna was listening to the whole talking and then she just stayed silent, before she said
"n-NO, you're describing someone who's just living on the fly—kind of like I figured. No real self-awareness, no thought for the future. Honestly, I expected as much from someone like you."
Wow, she just made me regret it so bad, either she's so good at reading me, or i am easily predictable. Either way, I'm feeling bad about myself.
"Alright Inna, don't think so hard of the situation, we still have a long road ahead of us until i become a proper adult, okay."
"I'm really sorry for disappointing you, i really am, how should i make it up to you... would like to go to a café later on afternoon, there's a nice spot that has just opened we can go there."
I wanted to do something so that Inna would enjoy her time with me more, instead of having to deal with my easy going self, at the same time we might connect better with each other.
Inna just looked at me, surprised about my suggestion. And then she just looked down and started laughing.
"Hmm. You really have no shame."
Oh my god. What have i done.
"Ruby, in what world would you think taking me to a café could make me forgive you, i can't believe you think that's going to solve anything."
I forgot something really important when i suggest that, Inna isn't like me, if someone would offer to take me out as to compensate something he has done to me, that would be enough, apparently not everyone is as easy as me, but for some reason, I didn't back down.
"I would love to bring my guide to go out with me, especially you Inna, you are trying so hard for me, and i feel like a burden if I don't offer something back, do you get it Inna."
Inna stared with a soft expression, it hard to tell if she understood or not.
Then she smirked, whenever she smiled it looked like a smirk in my end
"...you really are something else, Ruby."
This coming from the shut in student made me a little confused, but i was happy how soft and calm her expression was.
"Ahhh, okay fine let's go after school, just like you said."
At that moment i felt I'm going to burst into joy that i could get Inna to go out with me, it's miracle!
"Really? That's great! You really made me so happy that you decided to join me later, Inna."
"Tsk, calm down! I'm only going to a café, making such big a deal about this little situation is confusing me."
"Haha, are you kidding me, I'm getting Inna the beautiful princess to hang out with me, that an achievement, you making me really happy."
With these high spirits, i thought it's going to be good times. I was smiling and holding Inna's arm expressing some clingy feelings.
"I'm really glad you agreed Inna, it'll be fun. So let's just continue what we do."
In that moment, i felt that what's has been going on was me pushing myself into Inna, thinking if I'm really glad that she accepted my invitation, or is there something else that made me satisfied about this. Is what I'm doing serves that purpose of this gathering, or that purpose is shifting to something else, or I'm just being self-conscious...
Suddenly, Inna grabbed me, and pushed my shoulders to face her.
"We still need to address something very important, as you know, i don't tolerate failures, so you need to be punished."
I was kinda surprised. I will never understand how this girl thinks, i thought she forgot about that situation, whatever i guess i have to play along.
"Alright, i guess i deserve a punishment."
At that moment i never thought of or predict what was coming, i was anticipating some tasks, like they do in school, write a sorry letter or something like that.
"Get on your knees. Now."
I was trembling, once i heard those words my mind was thinking of the things degenerates do on their knees, but i was unsure, is Inna like that, what is she planning on doing to me. Am i okay getting on my knees for her.
But the way she spoke made it look like a natural thing for her, like i was just thinking too much of the situation, so i decided to do it anyways.
"Oh Inna, are planning on a physical punishment, I didn't think that's what you were trying to do."
Read this part slowly and carefully
I was sitting on my calves, when Inna starting to silently approach, and then, as i was very vulnerable and off guard, her arms swang hard to hit my face, leaving me out of words.
The slap shocked my whole body, my organs felt heavy as well as my breathing, i couldn't believe what just happened.
I slowly turned around and looked at her, still confused.
"Are you serious Inna, why did you lay your hand on me."
"What do you mean, i told i was going to punish you."
"Yeah but, i didn't expect it to be like that, why did you slap me like that!"
"I just told you why, discipline requires some hittings, i didn't lay my hands on you, i simply just reminded you how much do mistakes cost."
"As your guide, you should follow my instructions, so when you don't obey, you get punished."
For a period of time i took some heavy breaths, realizing that this relationship might not be a thing anymore
"... I'm sorry Inna, but i don't appreciate someone using violence on me, even if they claim to tutor me and that it's for my own good, so right now, it's better if we don't get together anymore."
As i started packing to leave the room, Inna was just standing silently, no words, no movement, which is unusual, but I think this is how it should be.
When i got close to her body to grab a paper of mine, suddenly i felt a hand grabbing my arm and holding it desparately.
When she grabbed my hand she didn't do anything, she was just standing there looking like she was about to do something .
I thought about sliding my arm out of her hands, but then, Inna got on her knees in front of me, and then she got her back down and her arms in front of my shoes, just to bow down further and kisses my shoe.
"I'm sorry."
And just like ever since we started talking to each, i could never get how this girl thinks.