I couldn't sleep that night.
The event that happened hours ago kept on replaying on my head. The kiss, the heat of his hand , the way his voice cracked when he said: "you make me weak".
It wasn't just what he said but how broken he looked when he said it, like needing me was the worse thing that could have ever happened .
And still he kissed me... like he had been starving for it.
By morning, I was a wreck .I skipped class, didn't answer Mira's call , couldn't focus on anything but him.
Alexander, what the hell was he, a stalker , a liar or something worse. I don't know but I feel worse. Worse for wanting him.
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He found me on the rooftop that night.
My favorite place I go to whenever my thoughts gets too loud.
I didn't hear him approach. He just appeared beside me like the wind.
"Are you avoiding me?". He asked.
"No ". I said flatly
He stood beside me silent for a while before saying: "I shouldn't have kissed you last night".
"Isn't it too late for regret now".
"That wasn't supposed to happen last night and am sorry".
"That's your problem, you think apologizing will solve everything ?".
He chuckled. "You don't get it ,do you ?".
I turned to face him. " Get what ? , that you've been following for weeks now ? , drew me in your creepy journal and leave warning notes taped to my door ?. Or that you kissed and vanish like am your dirty little secret?".
His jaw clenched . "You think I want that ?".
"No". I snapped. "I think you need it and you hate yourself for it". He was silent, which was the only confirmation I needed.
I should have stopped there. but something in me , something reckless broke lose.
"You are scared", I said." Not of them or whoever is watching you but You are scared of me ".
"Why".
He moved before I could say anything more, hands around my neck . Not tight but enough to make my heart thunder.
"You don't know what you are doing to me Jace". His breath faning across my cheek. "You keep pulling me closer , testing my patience but one day , I won't be able to stop myself". His words full with dark promises.
I gulp . Damn,he looks so sexy right now, and I feel like kissing him.
"Then don't". I said staring at him with the same intensity.
His hands fell back to his side, his eyes searching mine.
Then_
We heard a gunshot, sharp and close.
Me and Alexander ducked. There was a second shot , this time much closer than the other one.
Alex shoved me behind the roof's metal ledge. "Stay down".
He pulled something from his leather jacket . A weapon, sleek and Black , that made my blood run cold.
"You are not just being hunted?". I said staring at his hand that held the weapon.
His expression shift, turning cold and focused.
"No". Alex said flatly. "Am hunting back".