There are no words for this pain.
Sometimes, language just fails.
All I have left in this love is patience.
Even tears won't bring you back, Chris.
If they did, I would've cried until morning on that call.
Is there really such a thing as fate?
Are we always doomed to pay for our choices?
You made me believe in this lie of a love.
Every choice is a renunciation—
So because I chose another man, does that mean I gave up on you?
Maybe that's why you didn't say anything—
Maybe you thought you no longer had a place in my life.
But tell me, why am I the only one who ever fought for us?
You never once took a real step toward me.
I never felt it.
I don't even know where I went wrong.
The thirst in me only grew deeper.
My nights, my days, were soaked in sorrow.
My happiest moments were tainted with pain...
And you never saw it.
I never had the chance to show you how I truly felt.
All I could do was cry.
Look at this broken heart once more, Chris.
I hope you're not happy.
I pray that love never finds you after me.
I feel like I at least deserve that much.
Two people so incapable of clarity—
we ruined each other.
Maybe, just maybe, in another universe...
I'll find you again.
So tell me, Chris...
Did you ever miss me?
Because my longing for you—
it's bigger than you.
It's beyond you.
I'm either buried beneath the earth
or floating aimlessly in the sky.
The torment of that night is still lodged in my soul.
Half-spoken words still linger on my lips.
I should've cried all night on that call.
And you—you should've just listened.
I'm tired. I'm broken. I'm without you.