"«My Lady, it's time to wake up» Lina said, gently opening the green curtains making the room lit up. She was my favourite maid, but luckily anyone here was nice to me, even if it was just for pity. What else could anyone feel about a child being abandoned by its own parent? Confinded in a remote villa, forgotten by everyone. That was her life since her birth, and her sin was being born from an affair with an unknown maid. Not to long after, Maila and Jealmia entered my room to help me dress. My wardrobe was pretty humble, just dull old dresses that I mostly grown in. They all said that they seemed good on me, but I could spot the way their eyes would look down as soon I turned around. I knew they were doing their best, so I acted like I never noticed. At least there was always food in the table, with silence as my only companion during those moments.
«Miss, are you sure you won't be cold? Last time you got the flu...» One of the maids said when I put on a brown cape. One of my new hobbies was going on a walk after breakfast and coming back before lunch. When you don't have anything to do, you actually find time to do everything. The few knights here taught me how to wield a sword, use a bow, and how to ride an horse. The maids instead made me learn how to write and read, to saw beautiful flowers on the embroidery loom, and how to walk like a dignified lady. Not that any of those things had a meaning, everyone here knew that I would have remained in that house for probably the rest of my life.
But anyway, after reading the few books that sat around the villa I grew boring of doing just that. That's when I discover that outside the garden there was a big forest. The first time I didn't tell anyone and came back at dawn, and I found out that everyone was desperate as hell to find me. Some of them were crying, and their reaction when I came back was priceless. They did scold me, but right after hug me tight in their arms. I had to promise that I wouldn't to anything like that ever again. That was about 3 years ago, since then we made a pact that let me go out, but only till' lunch. I was, and am, okay with that. Honestly, I was just relieved I found something that could keep me sane for another while.
«I'll be fine, I promise» I answered. And I closed the door behind me. The forest I randomly found was really big, full of little animals and wild plants. Colors there seem more vibrant, sounds more real, and it smells like flowers. It didn't seem an abandoned forest like it should have been, like, at all. That was one reason more to go there when I had the chance.
And I felt like the forest wanted me too: animals wouldn't run away from me (I read in a book that this is most animals do when they see humans), and whatever direction I took I always found different flowers. I don't know how, but I never lost my way back home: that forest was like a maze made for me and me only. Today, I took another route, one I never tried before, and I discover a place that screams to me to go back. There is a little lake, but i'm sure there must be magic in it. I never saw or felt magic with my own eyes, but I would bet my very existence about that lake being something more than just a mere lake.
Maybe it's not so rare, and me being excited for something like this may make me appear childish, but the thought of something not being just what is supposed to be gives me hope. Hope of maybe, just maybe, being more than an affair child. Of a future where I'm not trapped in this damn cage. In my way back, I found you, my little Diary. It's dumb for a lady like me to write all these things, like what happened during my day, but it's not like there is someone to judge me. I just have to keep it a secret from Lina and the others, and it isn't that difficult. The only diaries I know are the ones from the old heroes and famous characters from the past, and it never came to mind that I could have my own diary. What I'm supposed to say now?
Maybe I should introduce myself, yes, right. I'm Aileen Daisy Denekat, the illecit daughter of the Grand Duke Denekat. I've got black hair, blue eyes (symbols of House Denekat), and unfortunately a few freckles, it seems like the only thing my mother cared to left me are those devil marks. I think I said more than enough for today, thank you for listening l, I guess.
-From your beloved Aly (it's my favourite nickname)"
With this, the girl sitting in front of the desk closed the book she was writing in. Blow off the flame of the candle she was using to see and then went to bed. Oh, if she knew what she just did...