I've been meaning to write this for a while now, but every time I tried, I didn't know how to put my thoughts into words. I'm really sorry for disappearing for so long. Life got overwhelming. I got caught up in too much work and too many things happening all at once. I know I said I'd be back in three days, but certain circumstances just didn't let that happen. I kept hoping things would settle down so I could return to writing, but they never really did.
To Maelstrom443, alexis_chamorro, dennis_dindayal, frankie_vega_2620, MrEatUrFic, luiz_S, and everyone else who spent time reading, commenting, or even quietly following this story — I'm truly sorry. You've all been a part of something that meant a lot to me, and I feel bad for not being able to keep up with it the way I promised.
After a lot of thought, I've decided to put this novel on hiatus. I don't know when I'll be able to continue it, or if I even will. It's not a decision I made easily. This story has been a part of my mind and heart for a long time. There weren't many readers, but those of you who did read it… you really connected with it. That means more to me than numbers ever could. Knowing that my words reached someone, that you cared about these characters — that's something I'll always be thankful for.
So far, I've completed three arcs. If anyone still wants to read them, here's a free link:
https://www.patreon.com/hellothere2024/redeem/F0ED4
When I first planned this story, it was supposed to go on for eight arcs and then have a time skip leading to the ending.A small spoiler for those curious: by arc 5, Olivia and Alex were going to break up. Later, Alex and Billie would grow closer and end up together. The final arc would show them in their old age, dying peacefully side by side after a long life together — a quiet, romantic ending that I really wanted to write.
But I got stuck. I didn't know how to write Olivia and Alex's breakup. They love each other too much. And Alex knows Olivia better than she knows herself, because of his past life. That connection between them became so real in my head that I couldn't bring myself to end it. I couldn't make it feel natural, and I didn't want to write something that felt forced. So the story froze there, and I just couldn't move past it.
Maybe one day, I'll find a way to continue it. Or maybe this is where it ends. I honestly don't know. But I needed to stop for now, even though it hurts to do so.
Before I end this, I want to say thank you. Truly, thank you. Because of your support on Patreon, I earned 89 dollars — my first real earning from something I created out of passion, not for a competition or a job. That may not sound like much, but to me, it's huge. It's proof that something I made mattered to someone out there.
This story may be on hold, but I'll never forget the people who cared enough to read it. You made me feel seen as a writer.
Thank you for everything.With love,hellothere2024