I had exams the next day, a very major exam at that.
Since I was a young girl I never let my emotions get the best of me since my parents died and I was left in an orphanage separated from my younger brother.
I learnt to keep to myself, to avoid trouble, I hardly ever cried, hardly ever smiled.
But Yoon-Ah came into my life when I came to college, she was like a shining star, always smiling
She made me want to smile too, we became freinds and then best freinds but today today broke it all up making me realise that emotions are just a ragdoll to be played with by others depending on who you give it to.
I had exams, yep I'm pretty sure I had exams.
It all started with Yoon-Ah, inviting me to dinner in a small cafe saying she had something very important to tell me.
When I arrived at the agreed place, she was nowhere to be found I decided to wait for her for a few moments.
The bell signifying the presence of a new customer rang and my Crush Jae-Hyun stepped in.
Honestly speaking thinking back now, I wish I had walked out the moment Yoon-Ah stepped in with in crossing her arms with his and giving him a peck on the cheek.
But as a fool that I was I waved at them.
The moment Yoon-Ah came to me, the usual kind expression she had on her face whenever she met me wasn't there instead replaced with a scowl.
"Gwa-Saeng I just want ot tell you that me and Jae-Hyun are now officially dating so please stay away from him"
I understood what was going on at that moment, my life was turning out like one of those soap-opera where the best freind steals her freinds boyfriend,
Just Jae-Hyun wasn't even my boyfriend in the first place.
The only thing I sure hate about me is that I easily chicken out of situations I've thought about it a lot actually, maybe if i hadn't chickened out my brother would have still been with me now.
"I understand"
With that I stood up abruptly and left.
I wanted to cry, I wanted to cry so badly.
But I controlled myself till I made it to the dorms locking myself in my room, my roommate wasn't back from the library yet so I settled to crying on the floor.
Losing my Crush didn't hurt.
But losing a best friend so easily hurt more.
I was so stupid at that time, not realising that that Yoon-Ah was only using me all through our college years, now that we had finals she had hoped to unbalance me to make me fail.
Yoon-Ah was pure, too pure, she had pale green eyes and brown hair and a slender timid figure.
Even after that incident I had hoped that Yoon-Ah was just joking
That there was still hope in our friendship
During that hard time I read a book a book that changed my life.
By some miracle I had managed to pass finals even though I spent the whole night balling my eyes out instead of actually revising.
After that Yoon-Ah never texted or called me again that was until her wedding day, a day that also changed my life.
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