The sound of the cashier scanning my items beeped into my ears.
"Cash or Card, sir?"
She asked me as I pulled out the few remaining notes I had left in my wallet and placed them on the counter, as I picked up my items.
"Thanks"
She replied as I took my items and headed out, I bought a bag of chips and a can of soda, a perfect combo to cope with my depression of having failed my high school exams. I sat on some stairs nearby and opened my can of soda, which made a little 'Pop' sound as I drank, staring into the gloomy night sky and going through my thoughts one by one.
I was Renji Takata, a pretty average student throughout my life. When someone would ask me about my ambitions in life, I would typically reply with something like an engineer or doctor, whereas in reality, I wasn't even sure what I was interested in. Throughout my childhood, many things had caught my attention, from cars to videogames to technology and even animation, but in the end, none of them gave me enough motivation to dedicate my time and effort to making them my career goal.
As the night passed I thought about how screwed I was all my friends had passed their exams and were already looking for colleges to join and here I was stuck at the same place it wasn't the end of the world but it sure felt like it with scolding from my parents and questions about my future and what I would tell my friends or relatives about what I was doing kept me up at night each day.
As I finished my can of soda I got up to walk back home as the night was cold so I had wore my hoodie before leaving my house but the sound of the clouds grumbling indicated that it was going to rain and I didn't want to catch a cold this late but that was the last thing I was thinking about as I began my walk home.
I was thinking about what I should do tomorrow, after all, I wasn't going to college so there wasn't much to do in the first place but I figured sitting idle at home would only get me more scoldings from my mom so I scrolled through my phone aimlessly to distract myself from these thoughts.
As droplets of water started to drop on my specs, I decided to walk a little faster and just wait under a tree, waiting for the rain to die down. The roads were full of cars and trucks with a lot of honking. everyone was trying to get home quickly, of course, after all, they have more responsibilities to take care of than me.
I looked at my phone, my battery was low, and the rain was picking up. I thought about calling my dad, but I didn't want to hear more scoldings than I already had, so I just figured I'd make a run for it and started sprinting through the rain.
It didn't take me wrong to realise this was a bad decision I could barely see in the dark and the honking of vehicles made me more anxious in so I kept sprinting and stepping onto puddles of water my jeans were socked wet already but that was the last thing I was worried about as I ran.
I was so desperate to escape the rain that I didn't check if I was going the right way I pulled out my phone to check my gps in the middle of my sprint before I stepped off the sidewalk slipping and falling misearably onto the road my phone flying out of my hands onto the road as I heard the screen crack before I fell onto the road myself my specs falling out of my face simulatneously.
I helplessly crawled onto the road looking for my specs like an old man; my vision was already extremely blurry, and the fact that it was the dead of night made it even worse. As I found my specs I got up to look for my phone when suddenly a truck came with it's lights flashing and horns honking and struck me right where it hurt sending me flying a few feet cracking my specs in the process as some glass shards stabbed into my left eye as I fell back onto the road.
The thought about what happened to my phone was completely out of my head as my brain was trying to process what just happened my left eye was bleeding with glass shards stuck into my eyes as blood trickled down from the side of my head as I looked up into the rainy night sky my vision blurry again.
I could barely hear my surroundings as it felt as if time had slowed down. My head hurt as my heart was pumping through my chest. Suddenly, I saw a bunch of memories flash before my eyes as the realisation suddenly hit me....I was about to die.
I looked up into the sky hopelessly, my body won't move. The pain in my left eye felt like torture as my breath slowed down gently. I had forgotten that I was running parallel to the road on a sidewalk, and I had just paid for it.
Although it felt like my world had just ended a few days ago after my results, part of me didn't want it to actually end. I was still young, still learning why can't I get another chance at that moment, the world felt so unfair to me, so cruel and punishing.
I had grown distant from my parents in the past few years but at that moment I wanted to be with them apologize to them for being such a dissapoint for letting them down and making them feel ashamed I wish I could see them again one last time.
As my eyes started to close my fear of death skyrocked I wasn't the most religious person but now I wished I had prayed to some god to forgive my sins I feared what was to come would I burn in hell for my actions or would I simply stop existing the fear of possibly waking or not waking up again sent a shiver down my spine.
I could see a red and blue light in the distance most likely an ambulance but it felt like it was already too late my hand laid on the road I hoped someone would hold to give me courage to face what was to come but alas no one held it my eyes started to shut no matter how hard I tried to keep them open and at the moment everything went silent and my vision went dark.
I was dead.