I was riding my bike through the streets of Kansas City Missouri. I was pushing the bike to it's limit. I just got off the phone with the hospital and they gave me the worst news of my life, My mother didn't have long..
My mother has been hospitalized since I was four years old. She first started to gain symptoms when i was two years old or so I was told by my grandparents. It's strange, because she got sick immediately after that bastard ran out on us. I don't even know my father or know what he looks like. All i know about him is what my mother and grandma have told me. They always try to sugar coat things. No matter how much they do, I will always hate that bastard for running out on my mom. I don't even care that I never even met him, the only thing that matters to me is how devastated my mother gets when that bastard is mentioned. They way he just disappeared without even saying goodbye has effected her deeply even after she became ill.
I finally arrived at the hospital. instead of parking my bike I just left it on the sidewalk the moment the entrance to the hospital was visible. I ran in as fast as I can, but in the process I got stopped by security.
"Let me threw my mother is a patient here and i need to see her!"
I was in such a rush that that being nice was completely thrown out the window in my mind at this point.
"I don't think so kid, you are causing a disturbance and you came running in here like a bat out of hell." said security officer one
"Yeah and you don't have the right to make demands of us, last time I checked we are the security and you seem very much like a threat." said security officer two
They both nodded to each other and went straight at me just when I thought they were going to restrain me.
" Don't touch him or you both will be without a job." said an extremely familiar female voice.
I looked around and there she stood, Grace. Grace is a doctor here at the hospital. From what I here from a lot of the nurses she is the perfect role model and the best doctor here in the state of Missouri. The nurses like to gossip on there downtime and from what i have overheard she has the most influence in the hospital.
Instead of just sitting there letting the silence prevail I took my chance to escape this predicament I found myself in.
"Hey grace."
"Hey Trent, here let me take you to her room." said grace with the most beautiful smile I have ever seen.
As we were walking in the halls i couldn't help but notice how she hasn't changed much, if any at all (appearance wise) in the past 19 years that i have been visiting my mother. While i was thinking all of this we arrived at the door to the hospital room my mom was staying in. As I put one foot in the door, I noticed how deathly pale my mother was, she was more pale than usual. I walked straight up to her bed and reached out when she grabbed my hand. With her eyes extremely red and watering. "I'm sorry my baby, I was never able to raise you, feed you or do much for you.. The pain from this illness never bothered me as much as the pain of not being able to raise you and watch you grow as I just laid here and couldn't do anything... When your grandparents died a few years ago you were stuck paying the bill for their funeral on top of the bills from the hospital that they covered until then...I am so so sorry that instead being a mother who helps you I have been nothing but a burden.. I am sorry that I am the reason your father ran out on us.. I am sorry that..that..that.." she was saying all this in in a weak voice not just from the illness but the unending sadness and emotions that she has had building up for years.
"Mom, you can't blame yourself for any of this. You have been the perfect mother and i couldn't ask for any better. When grandpa and grandma died they saved me money for me to be able to pay for the funeral an hospital bills, even if it ran out I would do anything to be able to pay for your treatments. I would even sell my soul to the devil if I had to.You have never been a burden to me mom you have always been such a blessing to me and I am happy that you have always supported me when i needed consolation from stuff that I experienced at school. Mom you aren't to blame for him running out, in fact you are the reason he should have stayed in the first place, no one is more than a blessing than you" while I was saying all of this I was trying my best to fight off my tears.
"I am so lucky to have a son like you, I love you.my baby" she said her head falling to the side.
"I love you mom, mom? MOM! Please wake up, mom please you're the only one I have! MOM!