Elyssa Raine
I shift uncomfortably on the chair, still feeling his eyes on me. Silence had long settled between us in the dark and I wondered what the Alpha was doing now — apart from staring at me like some kind of lab rat. My mind is a mess right now but only one phrase kept hovering was...
You can never tell.
As vague as the word might sound, it was the nearest most comforting thing I've heard in many years. No one had ever given me hope about my wolf or let me have a second thoughts about it. It's an irony that it's coming from the same person that caused me pain in a short span of time.
The irony tastes bitter .
If the light was on and I could see his eyes — those cold grey eyes...would there be sympathy in them?
I hope not. I don't want anyone ever looking at me like that . I don't want to look weak or vulnerable in front of someone that isn't myself....I can't take that.
But I couldn't help but feel exposed before him like that. It felt like he could see all of me and I couldn't see him at all..literally. I felt like an open book in front of him and it unnerves me.
But thinking about it all made me wonder if the Alpha is somehow...bipolar. I know Alphas can be extremely unstable but he's just —
Just yesterday, he had tagged me as ' Property ' and now what is he doing? Comforting me?
And that time his hand brushed my hair? I swear, my heart stopped beating for like 5 seconds straight. I don't know if it was out of fear or something else I wouldn't dare name.
Goddess!! Is this some kind of punishment? Why do I have to sit down in the dark with someone that will most likely kill me if I breathed wrong. I didn't get to dwell in my thoughts any longer as the Alpha finally said another word.
One that felt like cold water dumped on my head " The tea — the one Agatha served me that night — you made it, didn't you?".
I don't know if it was what he was obviously accusing me of or because of how his question didn't really sound like a question but I stood up abruptly, my fist clenching into a ball " You should ask her yourself, shouldn't you?".
He growled at my tone but I was so blinded by anger that I didn't even flinch at it. How could he accuse me of poisoning him? But if truly I'm as despicable like he thinks of me, I'd have added something that will kill him not...
" Watch your tone. I have every reason to question your role in —
" Because I'm from moonbeam pack? I didn't even ask to be here — i should be the one suspicious of everyon here because y'all intruded our pack and killed— everyone". The exploding sounds and screams from that night all came back to me at once, making me wince and I realized one thing that made new found fear and wash over me" You're a monster".
My breath was knocked out of me as my back was slammed against the wall. It happened so fast — one moment I was there and the next, I was pinned to the wall , a feral dark eyes staring back at me. I couldn't see his whole face but I didn't need to do that to know how furious he was. " What . Did. You. Say?".
I grit my teeth, my fear all forgotten " I. Said. That . You. Are. A. Monster".
I don't know where the nerves came from but I knew I wasn't going to go down without a fight. He's going to kill me either way so why not just die in a rebellious way.
He seemed thrown aback a little because his grip on my neck loosened a bit and I felt.him pause before he swerve me to the right aggressively and I landed on the floor.
I coughed from the impact, my whole vision blurring. My resolution earlier might have distracted me from the fact that he was blocking my air pipe but the moment I was on the floor , it all hit me.
My breath came out in wheez as black dot danced around my vision. I don't know what happened next bit I blanked out with only one thought in my head.
It all happened in the dark.