There's a kind of feeling that you can't define like last breaking what does it make a sound. No glass shuttering just a quiet shift. Just like something fell out of place when you weren't looking.
This is how I felt with Cam
Hilarious right? You never would think your favorite person can turn into a stranger with just a blink of the eye. Not really you think you will fight or argue some times, sure. You'll get pissed maybe drift a little but you won't think at all not even the slightest, think they will erase you from them.
I didn't see it coming until it did. We shared lockers cause I didn't get one so she offered like the good friend I thought she was little did I know I would get the thrown out of the locker. Just early in the morning I saw all my notes on the floor and a smirk on Cam and fezi's faces I was so mad but i didn't give them a reaction.
Cam walked by with her new friends I didn't know of and didn't even look at me. At least I said "Hey" why are my books outside the lockers? She looked at me and gave me a look I couldn't describe, I just carried my books up and left.
Come to think of it maybe the signs were always there and I didn't pay attention. The way we argued more often than we used to, little things I do makes her upset if I laugh too loud or talked too much, I was extremely confused cause this isn't the Cam I know.
One time during maths test we had she called me, I was shocked she asked me for question 7, the answer the teacher was staring at me and besides I didn't know the answer so I told I didn't know it, she didn't say anything but her expression said it all like I purposely didn't want to tell her the answer.
After that, she completely stopped walking with me to classes and changed her seats. She started making lots of new friends. Laughing so loud and she had a problem when I did it.
I kept on feeling my mind with maybe she's stressed, I'm over thinking.
We will bounce back.
We always bounced back.
This time was different.
My academic wasn't the best at the moment that even teachers were invested. I wasn't focusing, I was always chasing after Cam. And I always assumed if I just stayed close enough I could remind her who we were.
Didn't work out
By the next term, she walked into the class with a girl shouting to everyone "see my new best friend princess" I was stunned but didn't talk I was trying to sit down until Cam told princess to sit there. MY OWN CHAIR!
I didn't cry.
I didn't confront her.
I just stopped hoping she'll come back
Fast forward to the future where everything went down in my love life