I've always wondered, what does it feel to easily achieve the things that you want to do, or the things you want to make in your entire short life as a human.
It's such a funny thing to think about while being an 18 year old guy lying in bed while holding his phone on his left hand. Being all tired and bored of the life that I my self created and chose from all the choices I could have made from all the years I've encountered and experienced.
I'm really bored right now while doom scrolling through some social medias watching videos and memes or reading some mangas and manwhas alike.
"Sigh, when will I get the motivation I've always tried to find"
I've always had this thought everyday for many years now. I don't really know when such thoughts have imprinted in my mind but it's really been a bother for me and my mental health.
Especially since I got rejected by my crush who I've always looked and peeked at from my seat for 2 whole damned fking years. But that's all really what I can do since you can say I'm the quite kid in class and wouldn't laugh much even if he whole class does so from a funny thing.
I haven't moved on still from her reply ever since that day and it's been more that 2 months since then and I already graduated from high school. Such pain for a young man in an old f*cked up world.
Anyways, like I always does, I just keep scrolling through my damned phone until I felt this sudden dizziness that feels like really pretty bad, I don't really know if this was the result of having a very improper sleep or not but if it was then I'll be damned.
Slowly darkness in my mind surrounds me as I close my eyes passing out from the dizziness.
From then on I kept having this lucid dreams that's so vivid I can hardly believe it myself, though the biggest problem here is, it seems like I'm not waking up anytime soon, I can't really perceived how much time has passed since I was dreaming but it feels like it's been days in here, or maybe even a month.
Suddenly out of nowhere, my vision in my dream suddenly started being blurred and the world seems like they're swirling all around me, am I finally waking up? I hope so, it's feels very weird to be here being stuck and all, it's finally time huh?
Slowly as I was trying to wake up, my senses have gone back to me one by one, I can feel foam of the bed, the wind of the fan and... there's no light?
That's weird I've always have a small light device that's on all throughout the night, and the beds more comfier that usual and the pillows softer and bigger too.
And what's with the thick blanket? My blanket is thinner that this though... wait this is really really weird, although it's very dark and I can't see sh**, this is definitely not my room, I can't even find or feel my phone in here- oh wait a minute I think J can feel something.
Oh what luck it's my phone! hopefully...
As I tried opening up the phone,
yep it's not mine , the wallpaper's totally different... aaaand the battery just died -_- what luck, now I don't have a flashlight, why was that phone not even charged in the first place only leaving 0% in it damnit.
As I tried being in a sitting position in the bed, I suddenly felt somewhat heavy in my chest part.
I was really confused and tried touching it.
Yep, I can feel two melons hanging in my god forsaken chest, wtf, what, like am I not in my original body anymore is that it?
As I was panicking and getting confused as to where my unused hotdog have run and gone off too I suddenly felt this very weird feeling running throughout my whole body—or maybe 'this body' cause it's not mine— like an electric feeling, like that feeling when you block a nerve in your specific body for a long time and you let the nerve go and you suddenly feel this vibrations all around inside your skin, or maybe another example like sitting on a the toilet for a long time and then standing back up, that kinda feeling you get like electric-like vibrations running through you.
But this ones a bit different, instead of the countless pain-like needles, I don't feel pain, and it's more like a stream of water instead, it's moving very fast all around my body and it feels very weird.
After some time of noticing such phenomenon, my body started emitting this strange bright white droplets off my pores. I don't really know what's happening but it's numbers is increasing as they leave off my body, it was increasing rapidly that the whole room was now filled with it, I don't really know if I can call this water because a lot of it came from me and it's glowing bright white, oh by the way because of the light , I got to take a look that I'm really a woman now, what luc- I mean what bad luck.
Though it still doesn't change my situation of this white stuff- I mean this liquid substance—yeah still a sus name— filling the room, the water level is literally in my knees now and I don't know if what will happen if it fills the whole room, if I can drown in it or not, I mean I can already see the door leading outside of this room , but that will only make all this bright white liquid substance to all go out and wash out inside the house.
I really need to find a way to fix this, damn it what to do...
Since it came form inside me I can also take it back right?!
But how will I do it though, maybe if I try drinking it perhaps? lol damnit, might aswell try
I did then kneel and tried drinking it with my mouth...
Woah this feels weird, very weird, I drank the mysterious liquid without stopping and without even gulping, I don't really know how but I just did it.
It his perhaps magic? lol...
Well what if it was...
After such thought, I stopped the process of drinking and stood up.
I then imagined all this liquid be absorbed just the way of how it came out of me.
With it the liquid started gathering into my feet and climbed up to my whole body and got absorbed through my holes- I mean my pores lol. I mean it also entered through my nose and mouth so yeah...
After that very weird and very fantasy-ish experience, I suddenly noticed that a white flame like appearance started flowing out of me, like an aura or some sort, lmao.
Well maybe people will see such things so I should control and hide it.
Surprisingly it was pretty easy controlling it, it felt like second nature to me, is this what they call a genius perhaps? lmao
Well for starters I guess I should just call this liquid 'Mana' I guess, that seems to be the coolest name I could give it right now, especially since it looks like magic to me.
Maybe I can even do some fireball with it? lmaoI guess I should try
Let's do the classic of creating and conjuring magic, imagining a fireball in my hand and chant it's name!
"FIREBALL!!!"
While I was quite shocked hearing my own voice being very oddly familiar, my shocked expression suddenly shifted to... how can I even explain it...
The feeling like "OH F*CK SH*T WTF!!!!"
The fireball that I oh so tried to cast just blew the whole second floor of the house and many wall besides me creating a very strong surge of wind throughout all directions , well it simple made the house disappear. The fireball I also cast seems to have been atleast at the size of approximately 15 kilometers wide..—that's atleast 161 Statues of Liberty stacked on top of each other—....yep, I shot a world ending mass extinction level from my hand just to do some little experiment of mine because of such a puny thing called curiosity.
I literally froze up as I look at the f*cking ball of fire still going it's way up to the sky flying and making a huge hole out of the clouds in the sky.
Maybe it's probably not gonna stop at that point.
I glanced at my ruined surroundings and thought to my self
"What have I done"
Ummm.. sh*t sh*t sh"t, can't I fix this somehow, agh f*ck if it's magic then it should be able to turn back time or something!!
I tried closing my eyes and imagined such magic even though my whole body trembling from shock.
When I opened my eyes , oh damn... it seems like nothing happened in the first place. Now I'm back in the dark room, though this time I can still feel the water flow of mana running through my whole body.
Damn what an experience, I should probably use it carefully if I'm ever going to use it again.
I lay down on the bed and thought about how I'm in such situations and like how I'm in not in my body anymore, and thought about maybe magic will let me know something about it.
I then tried creating a book that answers everything, basically having all the knowledge of the universe,
"Why do I have this kind of power?"
The book was silent and didn't even show me a single letter. I tried giving out a very simple question instead
"1+1=?"
[ 2 ]
Hmm... it seems like there's no problem, then why did it no answer my previous question?
I tried asking the same why to the book but it seems to not want to answer that specific question to me.
I put the book aside, and thought about recovering the memories of this body and making it mine so I can have no problems going on going forth.
I then close my eyes and imagined a magic that can recover, read , and imprint this bodies memories unto me.
After a split second of casting it, a series of unfamiliar memories flooded into my head,, it was all the memories the body I'm in right now have gone through throughout her life.
And it seems like I'm in a pretty rather interesting situation right now... I worriedly smirked and laughed, damn wtf, I'm in my crush's body.