My biggest fear in this cruel world is to be emotionally hurt or broken and that is possible when you are in relationship, so that's why I decided to stay single and never be in relationship or get married, and even if the love was true, eventually they will break your heart. So that's how I lived my life being single and never dated for 28 years since birth.
I have a young sister which she's 26 year old and who thinks totally differently, she had dated countless times and also got cheated on countless times but she never learns her leason and immediately moves on after seeing an attractive man. And I just realized that she never loved any of them but also never cheated on them also, and never got her real lover yet. Just having fun and living her life just the way she likes, so I got used to it and also finds it something to entertain myself but also finds it so annoying when she cries after being cheated on.
"oh come on, stop crying" I told her being annoyed by her noise
"aahh! Can't you just allow me let out my sadness?" suzi told me angrily
"you don't even love him, you just love his looks" I reminded her calmly.
Suzi stops crying and said "yes and what a shame I got to loose him this way" while wipping off her tears that she wasted.
I just sat opposite suzi while smiling at her drama but I then ignored her and continued reading my romantic novel. Suzi noticed am still only experiencing love by reading fictional love novels.
"Lana" suzi called
"Mmm" responsed without looking away from the book.
"when will you ever leave this your fictional world abd date the man of your reality?" asked withe curiosity.
"Never" my eyes are still on the book with a big smile on my face.
"then you have to stay single you whole life" she said, trying to tell me the reality and expecting a little change this time around.
"And I would gladly love that" I disappointed her while smiling even more.
Now suzi was really annoyed, so she stood up from her sit and took my book harshly away from me and before I could react she started yelling at me.
"look Lana, life is going and you have to do something in your life instead of reading fictional love all the time"
I just sat there looking up at her, letting her say her mind out.
You have to at least experience real love in real life "she continued but now she was talking nonsense so I have to stop her, I stood up and asked with wonders
" suzi, are you hearing what you saying?"
Waiting to satisfy my wonders with her answers but got disappointed.
" now what did I say wrong? " still yelling
"you really don't know what you said wrong?" she now looked like she is a little confused "yes"
"do you really think that all those reality love that you have experienced yourself is called real love?" I wondered and expecting something smart from suzi
"yes because that's the only love that exists"
But I was wrong, she is really stupid. I sighed disappointedly and then said "not because it exists then it's called real love it from the concept itself but I will not explain more further because probably you would not understand" I took my book back and sat down annoyed after she ruined my mood.
"no, is just that you have nothing to say"
I looked at her "no, I have a lot to say but no one is ready and able to understand" I pointed out. "OK, I'm ready to" suzi dragged a Chair and sat right in front of me.
"you are ready but will not able to understand me anyways, so what is the use?" said while looking at my book not caring about her reaction. Suzi stood up from her sit and starts yelling again "what do you take me for?, do you think am stupid not to understand?"
"you said it yourself" said calmly
"LANA!" shouted angrily
"what? Did I offend you?" said calmly while looking at her this time.
"wow, you are really heartless, now I know why you don't fall in love" said disappointedly
"who said so?" stepping out of my chair surprisingly
"what?" suzi was really confused at that moment
"I did not only fall but deeply and obsessed with him" I said that with a bright smile on my face while suzi was speechless.
"but unfortunately I can't date him or even be with him" then had a sad expression on my face while suzi almost slapped me across my face because of annoyance.
"you are stupid one here actually" trying to hold her self back.
"OK, where can I meet him, I will date him instead"
"you don't even know him or how he looks like"
" don't worry, I trust you, it's hard for you to love then do you think he will be bad looking with bad personality?" suzi was exited even putting her hand on my shoulder
"you can never find him even I don't know" then sat back on the chair with a sad expression.
Suzi noticed my sadness and then sat beside me and try to comfort me "don't be sad" while tapping her hand on my shoulder.
"what's his name"
"Sebastian" I replied sadly
"Sebastian" she repeated seem in trying to recall something "it seems like I have seen it somewhere"
Suddenly my father entered the room we are in with an angry expression like always, he always gave us everything like wealth and freedom but never gave us that love and care that as father gives his children, he even chooses his business over us, so now we should just expect that again.
"lana, get ready, tomorrow you will be going to the kingdom of Desher for cooperation"
OH God, I know I don't have anything to experience or do anything but I really don't want to die now.