---Perspective of *******---
"Ugh, what a waste of time this is!"
"Be quiet already! I've already been punished once because you're always complaining!"
"What else can I do in this place but complain!"
How annoying! I'm at the best moment of my life and all I do is waste my time at university! What for? To graduate and get a low-paying job and an unhappy life? Well, I refuse. I can do more than that, I'm sure.
I wish I could be like the characters in the manga or novels I read. I'm not asking to be teleported to a magical world, just something exciting. If it weren't for the money the country gives me to attend school, I would have dropped out already.
Come on, world, give me something! I'm close to being like those Japanese people called Hikkikomori. The only thing missing is losing the only friend I have. Which I'm sure will happen soon. Even my parents abandoned me, and my grandmother, the only family I had, passed away recently. I'm alone in this world. If something happened to me, no one would notice my absence. I'm the perfect person for something incredible!
"Stop getting lost in your thoughts and pack up your things. Let's go home, Lukas."
"I'm coming, I'm coming."
Hernesto, because of you, I'm not being swept away on an incredible adventure! Because of your concern and presence, I'm not being swept away on something fascinating.
"Are you going to visit your grandmother's grave? It's Tuesday."
Oh, right... now that I check the calendar on my phone, it's October 26. It's the day my grandmother died. I guess I have to leave her some flowers... Should I? Yes, she was the person who raised me, but she never treated me with any 'affection'. Come on, I don't even have any memories of her treating me like her grandson. I was a nuisance from the start, and I don't blame her. Taking care of a child when she should be enjoying her retirement sucks.
But what else can I do? I didn't ask to be born, I didn't ask your bastard son to leave me on your doorstep without warning, I never asked you for anything... and you never gave me anything. You did what I never told you to do, and that bothers me.
"Hey!"
"Kuaj!"
Doesn't this idiot know how to warn me? Is it better to grab the collar of my shirt to stop me? And, above all, it was the collar of my shirt! Of my whole body, it was the collar!
"Watch where you're going, you almost got hit by that truck."
"What? A truck? Why didn't you let it hit me? I could have been teleported to an Isekai world!"
"... Why don't I beat you to death right now?"
Because you don't have the balls!
"Because it would be a waste, you always say that."
"How disgusting."
You always say the same thing, and yet you never leave me alone. Even when I hit you as a child, you never defended yourself. At first, I thought you were a masochist, or one of those people who let themselves get hit so they can have an excuse to hit back ten times harder. But now, after knowing you since childhood, I can say that... you're a weird guy. One of the good kind, the kind that are revered in manga and TV series. And you're even more than that. You have a nice family, good grades, and the potential to have more friends. And you waste it by hanging out with me.
"Can you give me some flowers?"
"Sure, what kind?"
"I don't know, the cheapest ones... Keuk."
Nah, I deserved that punch.
"Ask for pretty flowers."
As if that kind of thing mattered to the old lady. She raised me telling me not to spend money on useless things and that I'd be better off spending it on gambling. Thanks to that, I have some minor gambling problems.
"By the way, are you okay with getting home late? I don't want your mother making snide remarks about me."
"The cemetery isn't far, and it wouldn't hurt to visit Mrs. Maria."
Sure, you say that because she treated you better than her own grandson. And the hints aren't something to laugh about. When I said she's wasting her opportunities by being around me, I wasn't just thinking about friends. Hernesto's family hates me to death.
Let's put aside the fact that I'm an orphan, ugly, or something like that. They hate me because I'm poor. That's right, classism! The worst part is that it's true, so I have no way to reject their hints or, in some cases, their direct comments.
"...Hey, why do you want to disappear so badly? You say it a lot, and I still don't get it."
"I don't want to disappear, I want to do something incredible. For example, be teleported to another world."
"I don't think you'll do anything 'incredible,' and what if you die right after you get there?"
"Well, it would be a shame, but it wouldn't take away from the fact that I did something incredible."
"They made you."
"...It's the same thing."
I was so busy talking to this guy that I didn't realize we were already near the cemetery. Well, I'll leave the flowers for the old lady and go. Should I read the new manga I bought? Or sleep all day? What a difficult decision.
"There."
I have to admit, even though they're cheap flowers, they go well with the grave. Mainly because I bought the color that the old lady doesn't like. That's something I never understood. How can you hate white? It's a shame they match your white grave, hehehehe.
With nothing else to do, we left the cemetery, each going our separate ways.
Getting home is both good and bad. I love the silence; not having to talk to anyone to avoid awkward moments is certainly liberating. But at the same time, I hate it. Remembering that I don't have anyone to talk to sucks.
"Everything would be better if I disappeared!"
My backpack hit the wall with a thud when I threw it down. I threw myself onto the bed with the same force.
I want to leave, I don't want to go to college, I don't want to go out, I don't want my only friend to see me like this. I swear, if I were given another chance, even if it's in this world, I would do everything better...
"...."
Oh come on, I just said the typical cliché phrase about reincarnation and time travel, why isn't anything happening? Someone, a bitter goddess, a sweet one, an annoying or funny god, why won't anyone grant me this insignificant wish? Is it because I'm poor? Or dark-skinned? Damn racist gods, if I'm not white-skinned, you ignore me! That's why no one believes in you.
[You're tiring me!]
Huh...?
[Tell me, you damn son of a bitch, do you think it's easy to watch over infinite souls? Without rest and for all eternity? I achieved immortality, I am worshipped as a goddess, which I am, and all this is ruined by dissatisfied mortals like you! I am not to blame for what happens in your life, or in anyone's! And yet we constantly receive complaints from you! Worst of all, if we help you, even out of pure charity, you never thank us! But you blame us for everything bad.
Hey, wait, let me speak.
No, be quiet.
Yes, ma'am.
I've done everything possible to ascend to divinity. I sacrificed my relationships, my future, EVERYTHING! And all I get is boos. I'll tell you something, do you want to go to another world? Do you want me to fulfill your disgusting wish? Very well, I will. I will send you to a world abandoned by the gods, one where you can easily die!]
W-wait, can't it be a generic one, one where everything is simple and stuff? You know, with mana and that. I hate cultivation worlds—
[I said be quiet. Are you being picky even when I'm giving you this opportunity? Anyway, whether I send you or not, your behavior won't change. You're a mortal who won't be satisfied with anything, so at least you'll be of some use to me. You'll be a 'seed'.]
Suddenly, a portal opened above me and sucked me in.
[Now that I remember, you wanted a system, didn't you? Well, I'll give it to you. In exchange, I'll drag the only person who never hated you, your only friend, into this.]
As the goddess began to speak, my body turned into a small sphere of white light. An identical one appeared beside me.
"Damn you, Lukas, what have you done!?"
Wait, I was the only one who was supposed to be dragged into this. Hernesto still has a family, his family loves him! Only I am fit for this, I am a nobody unlike him!
[It's a shame, now I hope you learn your lesson. May the only person who loves you be the one who curses you the most! Welcome to the continent of Zetinos, you son of a bitch!]
My consciousness... everything is going dark... damn goddess, I'm going to kill you...!
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