Ayzal was crying silently while looking at maaz body laying on the medical cot, she was rubbing his knuckles with her trembling hands she moved her hand and caressed his face gently and whispered near his ear "maaz look at me, look your buttercup is here, your buttercup desperately needs you, your buttercup won't leave you agai-" before she completes her words she felt lump stuck in her throat, her father Mr Zayn walked inside the room and saw Ayzal was crying continuously, he walked towards her and placed his hand on her shoulder soothingly, she looked back at her back and stand up. "Dad maaz is not waking up dad please tell him to wake up ill die without him" Mr Zayn heart shattered into thousands of pieces after seeing her daughter crying like this, he pulled her into a tight hug and rubbed her back gently while his other hand was rubbing her hair he spoke in a gentle voice"Ayzal he is just telling you know the pain of distance that you cause him, stay strong my child" gently kissed her forehead, she looked up at him and spoke "i swear, I promise I'll never leave him I'll accept every punishment but just give me my maaz back dad" Mr Zayn kept rubbing her hair and speak in a soft tone "you need to go home sweetheart you are here for straight 24 hours" Ayzal shook her head stubbornly and spoke "I can't leave him alone in this situation he needs m-" before she ends her words Mr Zayn interrupted in a firm and commanding tone "Ayzal! You are going to home and that's final, period. And I promise I'll take care of maaz I wouldn't let anything happen to him" Ayzal looked at maaz body which was laying on the cot while his eyes were closed and many medical machines were attached to his body she looked back at her dad for a few seconds and nodded "I'm going home but please take care of him" Mr Zayn nodded firmly and said "don't worry he'll be alright" Ayzal walked towards the door while her head was hanging lower she looked back at maaz for one last time and walked out of the hospital.
AYZAL POV
I walked out of the hospital and moved towards my car, tears were continuously streaming out of my eyes and I was sobbing softly, I sat down in the driving seat and buckled up I sat like this for a few seconds my brain was totally gone numb, I sighed heavily and rested my forehead on the steering wheel, I was just thinking about maaz and he was the only person who was roaming in his mind, I sat down straight and started the engine, in between the ride I kept trying to focused on the road but maaz face kept clinging in my mind, I was crying unconsciously and driving at a fast speed, after a few minutes I reached my house and get out of the car and walked inside the house
AUTHOR POV
Ayzal walked inside the house and walked straight towards her room, her mother Ms aima looked at her walking towards her room but didn't stop her because she know that she needs sometime alone she let her walked inside the room, Ayzal didn't acknowledge her mother's presence she opened the door and walked in her room and looked at her surroundings, she felt distress, her mind was swirling around maaz she kept trying to hold her emotions back, she moved inside and closed the door back she kept looking at her surroundings and felt weak on her knee.
AYZAL POV
I started feeling weak on my knees and I fall on the floor harshly I didn't even wince in pain but I can't hold back my emotions and started crying, I clutched my chest in my fist tightly and cried loudly while shouting at the top of my lungs "ya Allah ya Allah what I have done ya Allah take my soul ya Allah maaz is struggling for his life because of me ya Allah I don't deserve him"
She cried louder and louder and placed her forehead on the floor and whispered while her lips were trembling and her body was shaking harshly "ya Allah please forgive me I didn't realise that what I did, I almost lose my beloved maaz because of my own stupidity, mistakes and faults ya Allah your servant is so weak I'm so weak I can't handle this pain please give me my maaz back or take my soul I can't live with this burden on my chest, ya Allah you are the sufficient you are the healer you are the beneficial and the most merciful I'm one of your servants whom you love more than seventy mothers please have some mercy on me and give me my maaz back ya Allah" she stayed in prostration for half hour, she sat down straight and wiped her tears she grabbed the chair beside her as a support and stood up on her feet, she slowly walked towards the mirror and looked at herself in the mirror she undo her hijab and opened her hair, she walked towards the bathroom for ablution while leaning her weight on the wall, after doing ablution she walked out of the bath and wear her namaz shawl, she spread the prayer mat and started praying her asr namaz while her legs were still shaking and tears were streaming out of her eyes.
After completing her prayer, she kept sitting on the prayer mat and staring at it without any expressions on her face, she decided to read quran she stood up and walked out the shelf and again sat down on the prayer mat and started reading it after few minutes she picked up the Qur'an and kissed it and placed it back on the sleep she again walked towards prayer mat and laid down on the because she felt peaceful like this she close her eyes and let the tears fall, she clutch her eyes tightly because the memories of maaz started hitting her
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