Taking a deep breath, I ask myself, "Whose emotions are these? Not me; I barely know Abby. Are these the emotions left behind by the old Leo? No, I don't remember anything about the real Leo Jackson. I don't have his memories, so I can't have his emotions. This is not emotion. Well, I myselfdo feel pity for Abby. Well, I guess acting like a jerk does make me feel a little shitty. Other than that, uh, what is this? It's almost like this body remembers Abby even though I don't. This body is calmer around Abby... huh?. Even though the true Leo Jackson is not affecting me in any real way,his body still acts different around other people, huh? How amusing...
Laughing a little because when I found myself in this young emo kid's body, I really thought Leo had no effect on me. Looks like I was wrong; this kid's body did have a 0.2% effect on me, huh?.
The reason I don't like to get people near me is because, at least in this world, they can become my weakness, and I don't like having weaknesses. Even in my last life, I stayed away from others; I hated liabilities and weak people, and most of the time, people use each other anyway, even family... in fact! I believe family is the worst in times of need. Even a stranger might help, but family? No, they mock you or act dumb because, well, no one likes helping, but everyone wants help, right?
In the fucked-up world we live in, being good often feels much harder than being bad. Opening up to others is far scarier than simply shutting ourselves off... Fuck, why am I doing a whole internal monologue? Ugh, stop thinking, just move, Leo... Ugh, yeah, Leo, I am Leo...
I stand up and crack my neck casually, and mutter, "Yeah, I am Leo, not an emo boy who has no life," and I start to walk out of my room, taking slow steps, and I walk near Abby's room, and I knock on it a few times, but Abby does not open.
I spoke loudly: "Hey Abby, if you don't open, I'll go and drink the acid in the bathroom," and a few seconds later, I move my feet up, and I slap my feet on the floor, making stepping sounds, and then fast Abby opens the door, and I look at her with a smile on my face, and I walk inside her room without asking, and Abby wanted to push me back, but I just slip past her, and I sit on her bed. Her room was much cleaner than mine; even her window looked like it was wiped clean! and Abby speaks, "What do you want, and why are you here?"
I take a deep breath…
"Hey Sis, I am sorry, ok? I know I have been bad, and I think you know me the best, you know. How fucked up are the thoughts I have... Last morning I was awake, I thought a lot, and well, I made my mind up. I am going to try to change; I don't want to be a useless brother anymore..." and I speak in a soft tone, and my head is down, and in fact, right now I am acting a little, but still I feel like some of the things I said were so near my heart or the real Leo's heart I almost felt emotional....
And Abby just looks at Leo for a second; everything in her eyes was gone—the anger, the annoyance, and even the frown on her face. Right now she just looked like a girl who had finally seen her big brother after years... and Abby almost had water in her eyes, and she looks away fast, and Abby speaks in a shaky voice, "Ok then, fine. Just next time tell me before you go anywhere else, stupid..." And I stand up, and I walk slowly closer to her, and I look at her, and I gently hug her. Without thinking, I hug her shoulder gently, and Abby just hugs Leo tightly, and Abby sobs slowly...
I did not know why I hugged Abby. Was it a need? emotion? What was it? Or was it just the face of a girl who had been trying so hard to carry everything on her back... I did not know why I hugged Abby. Maybe I will never know, but I know this much: from that point on, I started to treat Abby as my real little sister....
And after the little hug, I smile at her, and then Abby pushes me out of her room, and I smile. It looks like Abby still does not like acting like a girl around me. And then, well, after that, I take a bath, and I change into the new clothes I bought. The evening goes by. I was going to go out and test with the Omnitrix, but, well, I did not do that. I just stayed at home with my little sister, and I even helped Abby in making dinner, which shocked Abby. And then, after eating a warm dinner after what felt like weeks of struggle, I felt like I was at home or something. I felt a little better for sure....
And at night I say, "Um, Abby, I have a little bit of money. I am working a part-time job. I just wanted to let you know you can stop working, ok?" And Abby looks stunned again, and she speaks, "What job?? "Which idiot took you in??" and I was stunned too, and then I spoke in an annoyed tone: "Well, I got a job which pays well; here is the money, and also this idiot brother of yours is not truly useless, ok!" and I pull out $200 out of my pocket, and I put the bills on the table, and Abby, on the other hand, was too shocked to speak. Abby really did not believe her brother Leo could ever get a job that actually pays!
And Abby speaks in a shaky voice, "What, are you selling drugs, Leo!!!" and I blink fast! It almost felt like I got punched with air, my face flinching at Abby's question, and I said, "No! I did not sell drugs. Where would I even get the money to buy the drugs in the first place?" I really did work, ok? dumbass." I stand up, and I rush to my room, and I leave the $200 on the table, and Abby, for the first time, seems to have a small smile on her face, and Abby mutters, "He works now? stupid...."
And after I lock my room door, I sit down on my bed, and I don't even think about what happened in the past few hours. I wasted them? No, I needed that mentally. At least my mind has been overthinking and so much more. Ugh, anyway, test. Yeah, test. I was going to test with the aliens in the Omnitrix... I push up my hoodie sleeve, and I turn the dial of the Omnitrix, and then I twist it till I get to the alien I want...
BANG... BANG... BANG...
Just as I was about to hit the Omnitrix, my wardrobe shook hard, and it sounded like someone was stuck in there, and well, I just now remember. I mutter, "Fuck, how did I forget? Ugh! Now this is a problem. Uh, he should not die, right? "Hey, no, he'll be fine; I'll just take him to the punisher in the next morning, yeah," and I look back at the Omnitrix, and well, I get an idea. Well, I need to test a few aliens, and I have a test subject right inside my wardrobe... Well, I'd be a real bad person if I did anything to that man, right? But think about it: that man also tried to steal from me, so this is fair, right??...
I twist the dial head of the Omnitrix, and I keep twisting till I find the ghost-looking alien, and I push the dial head in, and then a green light fills the room, and a second later I feel different but still like myself.
'When I first got the Omnitrix, I wanted badly to test out all the aliens, but I did not have the time, but now I do have time and also a test subject, and Ghostfreak was one of the aliens I wanted to test badly if you really think about it. Ghostfreak was so powerful that Ben as a kid could not use him because the writers of Ben 10 made Ghostfreak way too strong with invisibility, intangibility, flight, ghostly powers, fear inducement, superhuman strength, and even crap like regeneration! And don't even get me started on Possession and Control! If Vilgax was in space and if Ben could actually use Ghostfreak... I am pretty sure Ghostfreak would eat Vilgax like he was sushi....'
'Anyway, let's start the first test. Does my mind have any weird thoughts?' And after flying around my small room and thinking a lot, I don't feel a change in my thoughts at all; in fact, my mind seems clearer than anything. Well, it makes sense. In the Ben 10 show, the explanation for the weird stuff with Ghost Freak was that the Omnitrix was not reconfigured yet, so the Omnitrix was in an incomplete stage. That's why Ghost Freak could not only affect Ben's mind and body but also get out of the watch, and this explanation makes sense considering in Ben 10: Omniverse, Ben could use Ghost Freak without any problems, and the reason for that is because by that time, the Omnitrix not only had been reconfigured but also had been upgraded...
I speak, and my voice was hauntingly cold: "Ok, now time for the real testing," and I move my hand up, and I try to move the bedsheet with my mind... and a few seconds later it does happen; the bedsheet does move! And I then quickly make my room cleaner with telekinesis, and after making my room look like it was out of a 5-star hotel, I open the wardrobe doors with telekinesis again, and then the thug who tries to rob me, Max, falls down on the ground. The poor guy looked like he was crying? or dear...
It's only going to get worse...