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EP.44 Realization
I woke up from sleep with a throbbing pain in my clitoris, not knowing how much time had passed.
As I sat up, I felt an unpleasant sensation in my lower abdomen. Looking down at the wetness between my legs, along with the pungent smell of blood filling the room, it seemed my period had started.
I must have tossed and turned a lot while sleeping, as my thighs and the floor were covered in blood.
'Sigh...'
I let out a short sigh and immediately got up.
To clean up, I carefully opened the door to check if my brother was home, making sure not to make any noise.
Poking just my head out of the room, I saw the dark living room and my brother's open door. Feeling relieved, I headed straight for the bathroom.
As soon as I entered the bathroom, I did a dogeza bow in front of the toilet and greeted it:
"Hello, senior toilet..."
Though my clitoris twinged with pain, doing this act voluntarily in front of the familiar toilet I'd used since childhood made me feel sinful excitement.
I then got up and removed the blood-stained gauze while looking at myself in the bathroom mirror.
Seeing my clitoris for the first time after surgery was truly shocking.
The foreskin covering my clitoris was completely gone. My protruding clitoris was surrounded by grotesque stitches that looked like something from a horror movie, along with scabs.
Of course, it would look somewhat better as it healed, but the current appearance of my clitoris was so swollen that even I as a woman found it disgusting and hideous to look at.
'Ugh... This... will definitely be despised...
Everyone who sees it... will look at it with contempt and pity...
I didn't even want this... I didn't think it would go this far... Ungh...
To think I have to live like this for the rest of my life... It's the best...'
A mix of heartbreaking sadness and thrilling excitement welled up inside me as the area around my clitoris throbbed intensely.
After examining my clitoris from various angles, I finally picked up the showerhead and washed the blood off my butt, between my legs, and thighs.
As I was cleaning off the blood, I suddenly realized I had no way to use sanitary pads since I had left all my underwear at Jung-su's house.
Wondering what to do, I remembered the tampons I had bought out of curiosity but never used.
Since that would solve the immediate problem, I dried off and left the bathroom.
I took out the tampons I had bought before from the dresser drawer.
There were 10 in total, with 9 left since I had only used one before.
9 should be enough to get through this period somehow.
I immediately opened the package and inserted a tampon into my vagina.
After inserting it, a white string dangled between my legs.
Then I took a bandage from the desk drawer and put it over my clitoris.
After finishing the basic treatment, I took out wet wipes from the dresser and cleaned the floor.
Only after dealing with the urgent matters did I take out my phone from the handbag I had tossed aside and check the time - it was already around 8 PM.
After moving around frantically since waking up, I felt the need to urinate.
I opened the lid of the blue bucket by the door and squatted over it.
Trickle... trickle... trickle...
'Ungh... It hurts...'
When I strained to urinate, a stinging pain made it difficult for the urine to come out properly.
Beep beep beep- Ding dong~
While I was forcing out urine, I heard the sound of the front door lock being pressed.
I jumped up in surprise and quickly closed the lid of the bucket.
I hastily took out a t-shirt from the closet and put it on, then grabbed the dolphin pants I had left on the bed.
"Sis? Are you home?!"
My brother must have noticed I was back, as he knocked on my door.
"Oh! Just a moment~"
I hurriedly got dressed and checked my appearance in the dresser mirror.
The lower half was fine, but my nipples and ring-shaped piercings were clearly visible through the t-shirt.
Click.
I covered both nipples with one arm and slightly opened the door, poking my head out with a forced smile.
"Did you have fun? You could have at least contacted me. You didn't answer your phone either."
"Oh... Sorry. I guess I was too busy having fun to check my phone~"
My brother seemed to find it strange that I was hiding behind the door and asked playfully:
"Why are you like that? Were you masturbating~?"
"No. I just woke up."
"Really? You must not have eaten then. Let's have dinner together!"
"Okay. Can you prepare it? I'm not feeling well because of my period."
"Alright. I'll set the table after I wash up."
"Okay. I'll rest a bit more."
As soon as I finished talking to my brother through the crack in the door, I closed it.
I tried to calm my pounding heart while wondering what to do.
Even if I taped them down like before, it was clear the piercings wouldn't be easily hidden.
I searched through the closet for a long time but couldn't find any suitable clothes to wear at home.
Feeling increasingly desperate, I lifted up the t-shirt I was wearing to expose my chest and tried to remove the piercings, but it was no use.
Even when I tried to pry them open with the tip of scissors, the piercings on my nipples showed no signs of opening.
It seemed they weren't a normal structure that I was familiar with.
While I was struggling with the piercings for a while, my brother knocked on the door and said:
"Sis~! Let's eat!!"
"Okay~!! I'll be right out~!!"
Feeling rushed, I put on the blouse I had worn yesterday over my t-shirt and left the room.
My brother looked at me quizzically and said:
"Why are you dressed like that at home? Aren't you hot?"
"Huh?! Oh... I'm not feeling well. Let's eat quickly. I'm hungry."
It was just white rice with rolled omelette and kimchi stew, but to me who hadn't had a proper meal in days, it was a feast.
If anything, sitting in a chair to eat felt awkward, as if it was too much.
Sitting across from my brother made me anxious as my clitoris throbbed and I became more aware of the anal plug in my anus.
"What did you do for fun?"
Caught off guard by my brother's sudden question, I stammered a response:
"Huh?! Oh... Went to karaoke... Met some new friends... Was busy.."
"Sounds like you had fun."
"Yeah... It was fun..."
As recent memories came flooding back and my body heated up, I decided to get up first, feeling like I might get sick.
"Han-young. I'm not feeling well so I'll go to my room first."
"Oh? Okay..."
I went into my room, locked the door and took off all my clothes.
Then I looked at my body reflected in the dresser mirror and thought, as if giving myself a self-hypnotic suggestion:
'This appearance really suits me after all...
I was born to dedicate everything to my master..
Stupidly offering up my money and life...
Ruining my body just for my master's amusement...
I'm livestock trash disguised as a human...
I'm glad I went back after all...
Masochistic pig... Stupid masochistic bitch... Ruined slut...'
Looking in the mirror, I gently squeezed and massaged one of my breasts that had turned purplish while I slept.
It must have bruised, as even light pressure caused enough pain to bring tears to my eyes.
But for me, even that pain excited me as it reminded me of my place, though there was a limit to what I could do alone.
I lay face down on the floor, gently massaging my breast with one hand while repeatedly inserting and removing the anal plug with the other.
Not being able to touch my pussy and clitoris was so frustrating.
No matter how much I fucked my anus, I couldn't reach a satisfying climax.
The throbbing in my clitoris gradually intensified to the point where I couldn't think of anything else from the pain.
I gave up masturbating and curled up tightly on the floor, having to endure until the throbbing subsided.
Only after it calmed down somewhat did I get up to take medicine, soon falling asleep.
A few days later.
My period finally ended and I woke up to a refreshing morning.
I usually don't have severe menstrual cramps, but this time they were especially bad.
For the past few days, I would get drowsy after taking medicine and repeatedly slept after taking it, unable to properly masturbate and spending my time very boringly.
I just looked at my body in the mirror every day, brainwashing myself with miserable thoughts, and when my brother went out, I practiced giving an even more devastating self-introduction in the middle of the living room with the white string of the tampon dangling between my legs.
I tried to avoid running into my brother as much as possible and seemed to desperately wait for my period to end at home.
Perhaps because I rested well during my period, my physical condition was at its best.
My breasts, which had never been unbruised from Jung-su's beatings, had somewhat returned to their normal color. My clitoris, which I hadn't dared touch due to the throbbing pain, had healed enough that I could fiddle with it with my fingers, though the stitches remained.
My pussy tingled, ready to do anything my master commanded.
With an excited heart, I called Jung-su.
Ring ring ring- Ring ring ring-
"What."
Hearing Jung-su's voice that I had been waiting for made me so happy.
"Ah! My period is over!"
"What's there to brag about your pussy bleeding being over, you excited bitch."
"I wanted to see you quickly... Can I come over now...?"
"Sure. I'll play with you hard after a long time. You idiot."
"Yes!"
My heart swelled at Jung-su's words as I quickly got dressed and left the house.
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