A week later and they're sending me home. My baby has to stay here because he still needs help to be able to breathe and eat. Sad or broken hearted is not good enough to describe how I'm feeling with leaving my baby but at least he's still alive and making good progress.
Ryujin also hasn't left my side. She's been taking care of me and I couldn't be more grateful. I really didn't expect her to be here since she lived far away. Thinking back and how she flew all the way here just to be with me makes me feel so loved.
I still don't know what she sees in me but I don't want to question it anymore. I've given her my heart and I'm trusting that she will take care of it well.
I sigh as I watch Ryujin pack up my stuff. We saw Ervin earlier and we'll be back tonight to see him again. They said that if he's still showing progress in a week or two then I'll be able to actually hold him and not just touch him.
My mom is also in town after she heard what happened. Needless to say, she's definitely done thinking I'll go back to Dana. Apparently, she thought I would go back to him. She's weird, she says she accepts Ryujin because she's nice and stuff but she was still hoping I'd go back to Dana since he's the biological father of my kids.
Maybe thats why I tried so hard to make it work with Dana before too. Thinking back, he showed a lot of red flags but I ignored them because I thought it would be for the best to have my kids with their dad but I was foolish for thinking that. Especially, when he showed little to no interest in caring for them.
I talked to the cops a few days ago too and gave them my statement. They arrested them and I honestly don't care about him anymore. All I really care about is that I have a restraining order so he can't come near me or the kids anymore. The cops also said that he asked if he could come see me to apologize in person. I almost allowed it so I could curse him in person for putting my baby's life in danger.
Ryujin did see him at the police station one time and she came back with a bruise on her face. I wanted to see him then too to curse him.However, with my current state, Ryujin didn't think that was a good idea. Even though I'm not pregnant anymore, my hormones are still out of whack.
Some female nurses decided it's okay to flirt with MY girlfriend in front of me. Then my stupid girlfriend allows it! She claims she doesn't know it, which I do believe her, but I'm hormonal right now so I want to be unreasonably mad at her.
Ryujin is too nice that she really doesn't see when someone is flirting with her. She just sees it as their kindness. She's too pure for those evil women.
But that's where we are now. I keep sighing and glaring at her because she said thank you with a smile to the nurse who gave us my discharge papers.
She finishes packing up my bag and walks to me. "Love, did you want me to give her an angry face when she handed us your papers?" She ask with her adorable face.
I really don't understand how she's so soft with me when I'm being unreasonable right now.
I don't answer her so she kneels in front of me and holds my hands that's on my lap. "From now on, I will glare at everyone who smiles at me. I will always give them a scornful look so they won't approach me" she makes a weird face and claims it's her scornful look.
I laugh and that's when she knows her trick worked. "I can't get enough of hearing your laugh" she tells me as she helps me get up.
We walk to the car and drive home. Karina and my mom are waiting outside to greet me. We enter the house and I sit on the couch. Eva cuddles me while we watch TV. She must have missed me.
Ryujin goes upstairs, probably to take care of my clothes. "She's still good to you?" My mom ask as she sits with us.
"Yes. She's more than good. She's made this whole thing bearable. I really think without her I would have lost it at the hospital. It was hard to see my baby hooked up to a machine just to live" I sigh. Eva fell asleep with her head on my lap. I smile, thinking about how she would be a good big sister to Ervin.
"You really fell in love with her huh?" My mom questions.
"Yes. I've never loved anyone the way I love her. I love her so much that it scares me" I let out a deep breath.
"You know when your dad and I were married, it started off well then he started pushing me away which made me mad. Then I found out he's into guys and that's why he wanted a divorce. I felt so hurt and angry so when you introduced Ryujin as your girlfriend, the pain and anger 1 felt came back. I blamed your dad for breaking our family so 1 blamed Ryujin for breaking your family. I couldn't hate Ryujin though because that girl is too damn nice" she shakes her while chuckling when she said that.
I didn't know my mom knew back then that my dad is gay.
"But I hate myself because it took Dana to almost make you lose the baby for me to give up the idea of you two getting back together. I liked Ryujin but I still wanted you with Dana. It hurts to imagine that I was pushing you to be with someone who could easily hurt you" She starts to choke up.
"Mom, its okay. Ervin is doing good. Dana should have known better but he didn't. I have Ryujin now and I'm happy. Her and Eva got along. This might not be the family you imagined for me but I'm happy with this family" I say surprising myself because I just said my family is with Ryujin.
"You're really moving to the states though? If you get married?" My mom wipes hear teary eyes.
I nod and give her a tight smile. "Is that okay?"
"As long as you're happy then yes but make sure you visit us often. I want to see my grand babies as often as possible" my mom chuckles.
"We will and you can too" I say.
Suddenly, we hear a knock on the door. "Who's that?" I ask and my mom gives me an I don't know look.
"I got it!" I hear Karina say from the kitchen. We watch as she opens the door then my mouth hangs open when I see the Shin's walking into my house.
I carefully move Eva off my lap and into the playpen. My mom looks confuse because she doesn't know who the Shin's are.
I walk to the door with my mom following. "What are you guys doing here?" I accidentally make it sound like I don't want them here but I'm actually happy to see them, I'm just surprised.
"Ouch, I thought we were sisters" Rosé chuckles.
"No. Thats not what I mean. I just didn't expect to see you here" I say as t start hugging them one by one.
"We were supposed to be here for your baby shower but congratulations on your baby and sorry about what happened" Yuna says.
"Baby shower? And where's Mr. Shin?" I look at everyone.
"I need a break from him" Mrs. Shin laughs.
"We were gonna surprise you with a baby shower and our presence since you said you didn't really have anyone to invite so you didn't think you'd have a baby shower so we came instead Rosé explains.
"And our dad isn't here because someone needs to stay to help with our grandpa" Yuna adds.
"Where's Eva?" I hear Gabe suddenly ask.
"She's asleep right now but she will be so happy to see you when she wakes up" I say to him.
"Ecko?" He ask next.
"I'm not sure. She went to my room but hasn't come back down yet. I'll check on her okay?" And he nods.
My mom introduces herself next since I failed to do so. Mrs. Shin pulls her in for a hug. "We're family now. We should be hugging" she says. I chuckle because I know my mom is shock.
"Make yourself at home. Food is almost ready" she says before excusing herself but Rosé and Lisa follows my sister to help in the kitchen. My mom takes Mrs. Shin, Yuna and Gabe to the living room while I go to my room to see what Ryujin is doing.
I open my door and I see Ryujin sleeping. She must be pretty tired from always taking care of me and comforting me when I wake up in the middle of the night crying. I walk closer to her to cover her with a blanket and quietly leave. That girl keeps making my heart skip a beat. I think she's trying to kill me. I shake my head, smiling while walking to the living room.
"She's asleep. She's tired from taking care of me" I say while sitting down next to my mom.
Mrs. Shin sighs. "That kid worries me. When she left, she didn't tell us what was happening until she already arrived here."
"I'm sorry about that I apologize.
"Why are you apologizing, sweetie? You didn't do anything wrong. Only apologize when you're at fault" Mrs. Shin tells me.
She then turns to my mom, "You have a lovely daughter. My Ryujin is head over heels for her."
"My daughter seems to be the same" my mom comments.
They continue their motherly conversation and I move to sit next to Yuna. "How are you feeling?" She ask me.
"I'm better now than I was before" I answer and she nods.
"You should move to the states now" she suddenly say.
"Why now?" I ask, curious.
"That way your ex can't go near you. I know you have a restraining order but he sounds crazy so who's to say that he will follow that. At least when you're in the states you're actually far from him and he doesn't know where you are and my sister can protect you. We can protect you and take care of you" She says.
She looks at me, "We were all so worried about you and your baby when we heard what happened."
"Thank you for caring about me" I give her a hug.
"Honestly, I was afraid my sister was gonna go to jail when she left. I've never seen her so mad so we thought she might actually kill your ex" she comments.
"She's been such a big help heing here. I'm worried about her job though. She just suddenly left so I doubt she was able to give proper notice" I say.
"Don't worry about that. She gave them a heads up that she might have to leave unannounced when you were only 4 or 5 months pregnant.
She said sometimes babies come early or other things might happen so she told them she has to be ready to go anytime. We didn't expect that you would have your baby early because someone would hurt you" She explains.
We continue to talk and I ask about how school is doing for her and such. Eva wakes up and we play with them until it was time for dinner. Ryujin hasn't woken up yet so I go to my room to get her. She's probably hungry too.
We're all at the table now, eating and talking. My mom is getting to know the Shin's. I feel happy seeing them get along. For once, I don't feel like I'm alone in this world. If soulmates exist, I believe Ryujin is mine.
She makes me feel complete and content.