Perhaps, she did it for Nangong Yaoling and Xiaonuan, or maybe, she truly did it just for herself, to regain a shred of dignity in the end.
She knew he loved someone else, yet for all these years, she foolishly thought he would one day fall in love with her.
Now when she thinks about it, Nangong Zhongli finds herself both amused and saddened.
Perhaps, when one loves someone deeply, only after enduring the most desperate pain can they finally awaken.
She could die for him, and after miraculously escaping death, she could let go of everything completely.
Including him.
Therefore, she no longer wants to be entangled in these matters, now, she just wants to distance herself from it all.
She's very tired, loving someone who does not love her for so many years is truly exhausting.
"Maybe. Crown Prince... you should be more aware than I am, Shaochen is no longer who he used to be... I can't understand him now, nor do I want to..."
