This goes out to one person who I lost along the way thinking we would be friends even after we were done with high school. There's no context needed and I will keep that between the two of us. I know some people are seasonal and some friendships fade over time, it's hard to accept that especially if you're someone who hates change.
This person who I'm talking about isn't portrayed through any character. Not Q, not Venice, Not Tim. No one. The person I'm giving this acknowledgement to, inspired the dark side of my mind that sprouted after we stopped speaking to each other. No that's a lie. We had instances where I did cry and I put my emotions on paper. One thing led to another something that I thought would be made into a light psychological romance, got deeper with each night a I cried as our friendship was ending. Am I ashamed to say that I had a whole bucket of emotions? No, because I got over it.
It's rare to find someone you can express yourself too. I could tell you anything, I could tell you how I was feeling, what I was doing, I would like that you had cats as well and I had mine and we could talk about them almost everyday. I was weird, I AM weird and as much as that used to be on a daily, I was never scared of telling you intrusive thoughts I had and your reactions used to make me laugh. I laughed more times we talked than any other time during the time we had been close four months we were texting.
I may have never met you in person but I had had a feeling it would have been the best experience ever. Did you hurt me? Yes. Do I still think about you often? Yes. Do I wish you the best in what you do? Always, because you used to wish me the best as well. Did I hate the way things ended? Yes. But that doesn't mean this first book I wrote was revenge.
This might be the first piece I have written when I felt confident in my writing. My writing has been mature from what people told me but, this was my most confident experience in writing. I have a lot to learn and work on in this genre but I'll get better I promise. I will get better and I will put myself out there until I want the result I want.
So thank you for everything. For telling me I was going to be amazing writing this, for being there for me when I needed a word with you about something. I miss you, and that's never going to change but I'm never going to look over this book because it's like an emotional memoir for me. I hope you're doing well and this reaches you somehow. I want you to know how proud of you I am and how much I am cheering on for you as we get older.
PS. Even if I'm still always going to be older than you😂
To my readers and friends who gave me updates as well on how they like it and my mistakes to work on you're the best. I'm not crying I'm not crying. Thank you and Bye bye🤍
To: Veylan.
From: Kelilah Author of IN ONYX DARKNESS