I had a very weird dream. I was in an abandoned building and there was blood over the walls that seeped down to the ground. Despite that the outside of the building was a whole vineyard and flower bed put next to each other. It was a full moon, no wind blew but the air was cool and fresh. I couldn't get out to the Field.
I couldn't get passed what was holding me inside and the metallic smell of blood filled my lungs. The floor felt damp and there was little to no light in there. I was l alone and desperate to get out and the claustrophobic feeling had me in its chains. I couldn't move, only look towards the beautiful scenery I could never seem to reach.
That's when I realised that sleep became a fortress of something trapping and confined.
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We didn't find anything for the first three days of the search. Everyone was in a panic. Jenn and I were a mess. My parents put their stupid fights on a hold for once when I talked back....shouted more of to stop their stupid power games and that my best friend was missing. They froze and just watched as I left to the door.
I stayed at Jenn's for the past two nights. I don't remember wanting to eat or speak. I rarely broke down unless I had reached my breaking point completely. We heard a knock coming from Jenn's bedroom door and she went on to open it. My breath caught when I saw Q standing there breathless. Our eyes met as I stood up to walk towards him. Jenn stepped aside and he pulled me into his arms. His arms were comfort. His arms were like home I didn't know I needed.
"Can....can we talk?" He said without letting me go. I nodded and Jenn cleared her throat.
"I"ll leave you two alone-"
"No Jenn, you too please." He said and both of us closed the door as he sat down. I plunked myself on the bed and he remained standing. His hair was damp and when he shifted his shoulder to take off his leather I stared. He took out his phone and I stared at his long slender fingers as they glided along the screen. There was no perfect times to stare at someone with ulterior thoughts in your head. For Q it was every time I saw him or when he held me. I didn't know what our relationship was but I hope he's stay long enough for us to figure it out.
"I was able to get something from the station. Yeah they couldn't give evidence but nothing a little Mula can't fix." He flipped his phone to us and showed us another one of my stalkers come backs. Jenn gasped and moved back. I could only stare. The image showed our usual drawings but this time a faceless woman with blood dripping through her mouth. Her clothes shrewn and her feet bare. There were trees surrounding her. Odd, but it wasn't really. She was hanging, her body dangling in the air in the middle of nowhere.
"What the hell-" I started but Q beat me to my cursing.
"So, the source I got it from at the station said that they got this at her apartment." He said and Jenn spoke up from behind me.
"I'm not some detective but the fucker just gave us a clue about where she might be. She isn't dead. Maybe it's just an empty threat. Right?" She asked her voice shaky.
"Q, you think they've sent people out to go look in the forest miles from here?" I asked and he folded his arms as he took his phone from my hand.
"No...they said it was just a theory."
"Theory my ass." I said and stepped behind Jenn and got my travel bag I had brought to sleep at Jenn's. They both didn't seem to move as I packed stuff into the bag.
"What are you doing Venice?"
"I'm going to look for my best friend." I said and pushed between them gently to get to the bathroom to get my toothbrush and Jenn seemed confused as I came back.
"How are you going to do that? Don't we need some kind of support?" I thought about that and well I already had Tim working on something but this could be a major lead for us both here. So I looked up at them both my bag in hand and said:
"I know someone who can help us. Renji?" I said to Jenn specifically and her brow raised and her mouth fell open.
"Tim?!!! Seriously?! He is in San Fransisco. He came back?" She asked as I walked outside her door and Q followed behind me as Jenn did her own packing and I felt an arm curl around my wrist and I stopped. We were in the hallway it was dark and quiet.
"What's up?" I asked and since I couldn't see his face I only felt a sigh.
"Are you okay? If this is too much-"
"If you're going to stop me it would be a good idea to split ways right now." I said before he finished his question. I was not okay I was stressed and I this man being so close wasn't helping my thinking process.
The hand that was in my wrist l, his fingers traced my skin till he reached my bare shoulders. Two fingers he used to push my hair a little back over my shoulder. His hand was big. His skin was hot, or was that just me. He stepped closer, my grip on my bag loosening with the closer he got. His one hand went to my shoulder. Down to my back I felt that hand over my waist. His hand was large it's like I was tiny compared to him.
"Sometimes I'm confused about whether I should love or break you." He whispers then kisses the base of my ear. My body trembles. At the contact. His back bent forward a little, his hand came to the front of my sweats. Those fingers came to my stomach his fingers spreading over my skin under my tank top. I know we couldn't see in the dark hallway, but I could feel his eyes on me. Unmoving, focused entirely on me.
"I want....I want you to..." I struggle to say under all my desire. He was waiting and I sighed shakily and cover my face with my free hand as the other went to the nape of his neck and pulled him to me. My hand over my face came down as I kissed him. It was just a little one. One to keep me from going insane.
He pushes me against the wall. The gentleness from before gone. That hand that was in my shirt on my stomach moved up to one of my breasts and he moaned in my mouth and I folded immediately.
"Guys! Let's go. Tim is here."
We broke apart at Jenn's voice and he let out a soft chuckle.
"Can we talk when all this is over?" I asked and he let his lips hover against mine. I sigh breathless almost before he walks away first. I caught up with Jenn at her door and she gave me a look.
"Girl. Venice-" she called and I shook my head. I know I was going down a path I wasn't going back.
"I know. I don't have an excuse for this time." We both walked out of the house together.