Chapter 23 – What the Bar Took
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The locker room door swung shut behind them with a click that felt louder than it should have.
The kind of silence that followed wasn't peaceful. It was suffocating. No shouting. No gear being flung. Not even the sound of showers. Just the hum of fluorescent lights overhead and the weight of ninety minutes no one could take back.
Coach Grayson stood near the whiteboard, arms crossed, his shadow stretching long in the low light. He didn't speak at first.
Some players slumped on benches. Others sat on the floor, backs against the cool metal lockers. Tyler Brown had his head buried in his towel. Jamal Carter stared blankly at the studs of his boots, still caked with mud.
Nathan sat motionless, his gaze locked on the floor between his feet. His shirt clung to him, soaked in sweat and regret. His fingers twitched against his knee — not from fatigue, but from memory.
Thud.
That sound.
The bar.
He could still feel the sting of it. Still hear the crowd's collective gasp. Still see the goalkeeper frozen, beaten — and yet untouched.
That was the moment.
Coach Grayson finally broke the silence.
"We lost our chance," he said, voice steady but sharp.
His words fell like hammer strikes.
"But the season's not over yet."
A few heads lifted.
"You want to cry, cry. You want to scream, scream. But tomorrow… you show up. And you build. Because that's what this game is. Brick by brick."
He let the silence return, but this time it felt different. Lighter. Like a door cracked open.
Marco reached over and placed a hand on Nathan's shoulder. It was a firm grip. Not comfort — grounding.
"You were incredible," he said. "No one else could've done what you did tonight."
Nathan didn't look at him. His jaw was clenched so tightly it hurt.
"…I missed," he muttered.
Marco shrugged. "Yeah. And I slipped in the first half. Jamal misjudged the cross. We all did something wrong."
Nathan didn't answer. His mind was still back there — minute 74, ball at his feet, goal at his mercy.
The bar.
He heard it again.
CLANG!
He exhaled sharply through his nose. "The skill came," he whispered. "But it wasn't enough."
Marco opened his mouth to respond but stopped. He knew that look — the way Nathan's eyes burned without blinking.
This wasn't self-pity.
This was rage.
Quiet, boiling, focused rage.
Nathan stood slowly, the bench creaking beneath him. He pulled off his shirt and tossed it into the hamper. His body was bruised, scraped, stiff. But his movements were sharp. Deliberate.
He walked to the physio table, grabbed a towel, wiped his face, then turned to the boot rack. He didn't need to say anything — his silence spoke louder than most people's screams.
Grayson watched him from the corner of the room, his expression unreadable.
As Nathan slipped his sneakers on and reached for his coat, Grayson finally spoke again.
"You going home?"
"No," Nathan said without turning.
"Pitch?"
Nathan nodded once.
Grayson let out a breath, then gave a short nod.
"Turn the lights off when you're done."
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The stadium was empty now, save for a few maintenance staff sweeping the terraces. The roar of thousands had vanished, leaving behind only the hollow echo of boots on concrete.
Nathan stepped out into the freezing night.
The pitch looked almost surreal under the stadium lights — an empty battlefield, scarred and sacred.
His breath came out in clouds as he walked across the frozen grass, hands tucked into his sleeves.
He reached the penalty box. The same one. The one where it happened.
He stood there for a while, just looking.
Then he dropped a ball on the turf.
Thump.
Took three steps back.
And struck it.
Boom!
The ball screamed toward the goal, slamming into the top right corner of the net with a satisfying snap.
Another.
Crack!
This time, bottom left. Precise. Fast.
Another.
Thud! — it ricocheted off the post and spun out.
"Tch…"
He jogged after it, retrieved it, reset.
Again.
And again.
Each strike came with more heat. Not just in power — in intention.
His chest rose and fell in a rhythm now. Not panicked. Not desperate.
Disciplined.
Deliberate.
"I won't waste a single chance."