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Chapter 30: I Masturbated to Mom for the First Time
I masturbated like crazy in the bathroom, imagining Mom as fap material.
Honestly, this is Mom's fault.
While it's partly my problem that such disgusting thoughts about my own mother keep popping up... it's because Mom had me at such a young age. A 14-year age gap with Mom. That's too weird, isn't it?
And what kind of mom has such a young face... a face more like an older sister than a mom, and also has such sexy buttocks and thighs?
Yeah... that seems to be a bigger problem than me being the issue. Yes, this is all Mom's fault. Mom's sexy body is to blame. Mom's too-big butt and smooth legs, slender waist and white skin... only a 14-year age gap with her son but looking like just a 5-year difference due to her youthful appearance... and her lewd nature.
How lewd must she be to do those things so shamelessly with her children right next to her? Doing it right next to the kids with Dad, with Kwak Young-cheol, that lewd nature is the root of the problem. I gritted my teeth and blamed the imaginary Mom.
"Huff... huff... ah shit"
Tap tap tap tap
As I shifted the blame to Mom like that, my hand moved faster. I no longer tried to chase Mom's body out of my imagination. That So-hye girl was no help at all.
'...Ah I really shouldn't be doing this'
The sense of blasphemy, the strange feeling of deviation from breaking moral rules, pushed me on.
Imagine more boldly, it said. Imagine Mom whimpering under Kwak Young-cheol.
Plus, those moans from yesterday... think about how she moaned that it was okay for her son to masturbate watching her.
"Ugh!"
That must have been the trigger, as I climaxed while imagining Mom being violated under Kwak Young-cheol. It was truly a disgusting and unpleasant imagination.
In that fantasy, I was right next to Kwak Young-cheol, grabbing my dick and sucking on Mom's breasts as she was being fucked like an onahole.
...Ah. As if I was gangbanging Mom together with that bastard Kwak Young-cheol...
Though I felt like I was going crazy from the tremendous disgust and self-loathing from that imagination... the sense of blasphemy grew just as strong, and I lost control of my body, convulsing madly as I ejaculated.
The emptiness that followed as a reaction. And the guilt...
I barely cleaned up and came out to the living room, where Mom had already set the table and was gesturing for me to come eat
"Sorry... I'm not feeling well"
I couldn't even meet Mom's eyes as I went into my room. It just didn't seem possible at that time. The aftereffects tormented me for quite a while.
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January 4th morning.
After starting the new year with sin, it was hard to look Mom in the eye for a while, but as time passed, that faded too.
Well... they say any pain or happiness eventually dulls, don't they?
So I gradually returned to daily life.
After the January 1st holiday ended, as a high school senior who finished the college entrance exam, I legally lived as a NEET just playing games at home, but my sister still had to wear her uniform and go to school.
Since she was held back a year, she had to attend high school for another year even though she became an adult this year.
"Ah fuck, I don't want to go"
"Hey. You skipped almost a whole year, so go"
"Fuck off"
Kang Mi-hyun was... it's awkward for me as her brother to say this, but she was truly the epitome of a delinquent girl with no hope. Just look at the state of the uniform she's wearing now...
"Do you fucking want to wear that uniform even as an adult?"
"Why are you bitching again?"
"You should call me oppa, you brat"
"Fuck off. We were born 5 minutes apart"
Anyway, the uniform she's wearing. No, this isn't a uniform, it's practically a hostess outfit.
She wears the uniform top extremely shrunken to fit tightly to her body, and since Mi-hyun's breasts are even bigger than Mom's at 70G cups, the already tight top is stretched almost to bursting.
One button has already fallen off, exposing her cleavage.
The skirt is also shortened as much as possible, to the point where it looks like she's just wrapped a scrap of fabric around herself rather than wearing a skirt. Even now as she changes clothes, bending over slightly exposes her panties and the underside of her butt... a complete micro-mini skirt.
Just like what Mom wears to work...
'Hah. Mom and Mi-hyun, really'
Honestly, I was grateful she hadn't gotten pregnant as a minor somewhere like Mom did.
Clicking my tongue, I came out to the living room and saw Mom also wearing a tight micro-mini skirt that clung to her butt as she prepared to leave for work.
She went to work in exactly the same fashion a few months ago... she's sticking to exactly the same fashion even now in winter.
The only difference seems to be the fabric quality and price range of the clothes. It's the same office look, but now it looks strangely more luxurious.
And that tote bag she's holding, from what I know, is an ultra-expensive product costing over 3 million won.
Also, the coat she's wearing over it before going to work, I heard the material is cashmere.
There's no way she could afford this on an accountant's salary.
'...Sigh...'
Even though she's my mom... I couldn't help feeling a bit of contempt.
I'm sorry for thinking this as her son, but honestly, it's obvious she's spreading her legs for that Kwak Young-cheol bastard and getting sponsored like a mistress.
Twitch.
But thinking about the relationship between Kwak Young-cheol and Mom, contrary to my contemptuous thoughts, my crotch got hard again.
Fuck, fuck, fuck.
Masturbating while thinking about Mom like that time had such big aftereffects that I'd been trying my best to hold back since then, but again...
"Hyeon-seong. What are you thinking about?"
"Huh? Ah, nothing"
"How bland... Mom might be late today. There's a company dinner"
"Really?"
"Yeah. So eat dinner first"
After both Mom and Mi-hyun left, the house became quiet.
With nothing particular to do as a high school senior who finished the college entrance exam, I lay on the sofa in the living room and flipped through channels on the wall-mounted TV.
"Nothing to watch here, or here..."
Come to think of it, we didn't even have a TV or laptop when we lived in the studio. There was nothing to do in that cramped room. Maybe that's part of why I focused on studying and Mi-hyun kept going out.
Thinking about it that way, I suddenly thought differently about Kwak Young-cheol who provided all this... and Mom who sucked up to that Kwak Young-cheol.
'...I haven't earned a single penny for the family. Was I right to despise Mom like that?'
Honestly, I instinctively felt contempt for Mom giving her body to Kwak Young-cheol... but thinking the opposite way, Mom forcibly spread her legs for us to live in this nice house and environment.
"...Ah suddenly I feel sorry"
Though it was just my inner thoughts, to have secretly considered Mom who sacrificed for the family as a prostitute selling her body...
"Yeah, you fucking idiot!"
Suddenly unable to bear the shame, I hit my own cheek and muttered to myself like a madman. The guilt from using Mom as fap material last time and this guilt came crashing down doubly. It wasn't overwhelming guilt, but still my mood turned sour.
And with my mood soured, I went to my room, opened my laptop and searched for new porn.
Depression is supposed to be solved with masturbation after all
After jerking off once in the morning like that, I ate lunch and took a nap. Around 2 PM I woke up again and played games like a shut-in, then crawled around the internet reading shitposts.
Even after all that, it was only 3 PM.
"Wow. Really nothing to do"
Bored, I visited Instagram. Of course, I explored the grateful older sisters showing off their bodies. Though less stimulating than porn, regular people's sexy photos give a different kind of arousal.
"Oh... oho"
As I swiped through photos like that
I paused
It was a quite trending video of a female employee with an incredibly huge ass swaying her hips side to side in some office.
A tight H-line skirt... precariously short like a micro-mini. But the way it teased, ambiguously showing glimpses as if she wasn't wearing panties, was insanely stimulating. Of course, she was turned away the whole time so her face wasn't visible, but her body, especially her lower half, was insane... not just her huge ass, but the thick sexy thighs below leading to slender ankles, her leg lines were insane.
If it's not edited, it seems like at least the top 0.01%...
"Wow shit... huh?"
But...
I saw this outfit today...?
"...Isn't this Mom?"
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Though her face wasn't shown, it was clearly Mom.
Just looking at that huge ass... could there be another person like that? Plus, that skirt is the one she wore out today.
Urgently, I went to the account of the woman presumed to be Mom.
It was an account created just recently but already had thousands of followers. And though there weren't many photos or videos uploaded
A photo in a very sexy monokini at a hotel pool, provocatively sticking her butt out
A photo lying face down in doggy style position with her butt raised, wearing crotchless panties in a hotel room.
Even...
"No way..."
It's clearly an office... in an office...
A video of her doing 'twerking' while lying face down on a sofa, wearing sexy full-body fishnet stockings that are worn as an event during sex, with that huge butt raised...
This had the most views. Plus, this was also filmed this morning.
Fuck.
That video with tens of thousands of likes in such a short time, tens of thousands of people jerked off watching Mom shaking her ass in Kwak Young-cheol's office wearing sex event cosplay clothes.
"Ah... ah shit..."
Ah.
I felt dizzy.
"...Mom... is Mom doing things like this in Kwak Young-cheol's office every day...?"
My delusions had reached an incredibly filthy place.
Would a bastard who makes Mom wear full-body fishnet stockings and dance in the office...
Leave Mom alone in that office?
I already knew, even though I didn't want to know, that Mom and Kwak Young-cheol were in a relationship where they thoroughly mixed their flesh, and they properly proved it with the sounds of fucking from the next room recently, and I even knew they were close enough to do body writing play on Mom's body...
But this really... felt like something else.
How far is Mom being used by Kwak Young-cheol?
...No... is this really one-sided use?
What if Mom... enjoys this kind of thing?
With trembling hands, I clicked on Mom's hottest Reels video and looked at the comments... sure enough, vulgar compliments about her body were the majority.
Instagram must have censored comments that crossed the line too much, but the sight of flashy heart emojis plastered everywhere was really unpleasant.
And the most unpleasant thing was... my dick getting rock hard watching that video.
It's clearly Mom's account... but her son getting hard watching it. It was the worst, but I couldn't control myself rationally either.
Lewd imaginations kept trying to fill my head, crawling out from inside like bugs.
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