I was out of my mind when I saw Clara walk by. She never knew how I felt since Hellen's arrival and unexpectedly kissed me on the lips, just as Clara walked out of the room. She doesn't know how I've been holding back like I'm going crazy and by God, I didn't sleep with Hellen. But what did I do when I saw Clara again? I was like an idiot. Helpless and not knowing how to explain things to her.
I wanted her more than anything in the world. Hellen had always come first and I don't know when, but it was all eclipsed by Clara. That troublemaker had managed to make me feel lost and disoriented whenever she wasn't around.
Not being able to concentrate properly made me forget my obligations to Jenna, who needed me to check up on her. Jenna also seemed to understand what I was feeling at the moment.
