I am a nobody, I live for each breath waiting for death. Live lost meaning for me along time age , but I was a coward to afraid to wrap my neck in rope or bring cold metal to my vains. So I waited from 10 to 15 to 20.
Year after year I waited, but it was not until I almost reached my thirtys that I got to feal deaths sweet imbrace.
It was in march between the month with one of the most nauseating holiday and my birth month. A time in which my status of single hood get hammered into me by family and colleagues alike. I mean what wrong with dying a virgin?
Getting of topic… anyway the day it self was bloody lovely, please note the sarcasm but what would you expect from Great Britain, if it's not raining it's flooding. Not only did it ruin a perfectly good pair of shoes. I work & lived in the country side near the mountains and dying via land slide is not something I expected. At least the family does not have to pay for a funeral.
So I died if that was not obvious already yet I'm not at the same time. No clue were I or my soul is, maybe limbo certainly not heaven and it's far to nice to be hell well unless you suffer from claustrophobia. But I hear voices even though I am completely alone with barely any room to move.
How long has it been anyway… I have the same level of sanity as I did before my end, so it can't have been that long surely. Speak of sanity I think theirs some kind of drug in the air cause this gray mist drowning what little space I have is messing with me.
To be more exact my mind gone a bit patchy like I have no idea what my sex was though I know I'm into men or what my name is but I know everyone called my Ryan as a nickname. I might have had siblings though I'm not sure. Did I was grand parents growing? What about any pets? Did I was any friENds GroWiNg Up or Ve-#~%%<<%#CRACK~
Green and such a pretty shade it is too though I think I'm for of a blue and purple colour kinda person. It's shattering my prison. So beautiful and mesmerising I wonder if this light of emerald's warm. Were the last thoughts before I was enveloped by that light.