Hey there, fellow humans.
How goes it?
How has this planet been treating you?
Me?
Eh.
Lol.
But I am alive to tell the tale!
Soooooooo.
I will.
One short story, poem, and old journal entry at a time, you know?
I hope that this newest addition finds you all well and that you continue to be well until the next one!
That includes you as well, Kid.
I don't know if you exist...
If you ever will...
But I am looking for a brown-eyed girl with glasses to help me make you lol.
You will probably need glasses, because I do!
Lmaooo.
See you back here soon enough, yeah?
Enjoy.
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September 23rd, 2018.
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Dear You.
I am getting near to being drained...
I've worked doubles for the past 3 days...
That's 16 hours a day.
That's 48 hours of work in 72 hours.
And not enough sleep.
But wow...it's fall.
It's that season.
Time for people to cling to other people lol.
-Dad.
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Another post dated for the same day.
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September 23rd, 2018.
Later that day.
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Dear You.
I just realized that I may write a bit too randomly
And sporadic...
You don't have to read them based on date, lol.
I hope you've come to that conclusion. (Insert smiley face here.)
Just in order!
Obviously...
Pit stops are great.
A pit stop is when something random (often involving a friend) happens and it changes the quality of the day.
My guy XXXXX stopped by.
We talk about random worldly shit.
He is very well-versed and traveled.
I think I talk too much.
I probably annoy people.
But they're still around...so maybe that's kinda ok?
-I ramble.
-Dad.
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More continued later than the first later.
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BUT maybe one day I'll get to ramble to you in person.
I'm going to will you into existence!
I promise. (little heart drawn here.)
Wherever you are.
You will be here.
Sitting right where you are right now...
And you will read this.
And you will find me and give me a hug.
If I'm not around for some reason, just find me.
I'm sure you will know how.
-Dad.
Along the edge of the page, there is a lyric.
"I wanna fly like an eagle...to the sea."
-Seal.
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-I've become a lot less talkative over time, you know?
I had lost the sense of value and power of my words after being belittled and made to feel small for so long...
When you are made to feel like a know-it-all all of the time, the real knowledge that you have can be subconsciously suppressed.
It's sad and it sucks. Don't let anyone dull your shine, Kid.
Let your light blind the shit out of anyone who hate it or you.
-Maybe you will wait till this series is complete, then read it backwards, I don't care! lol
Just as long as you read it!
-That worldly guy?
He is still a very good friend of mine! He and his wife had a child a bit over a year ago, and they seem to be doing just well.
He was dating that very same woman when the two of us met back in 2015, and I could tell that he was madly in love with her.
I am glad that they worked out and are as solid as they are now.
He and I had met on the job site when we had been hired as Special Registration Deputies for the city of Milwaukee. It paid decently and was very satisfying in that we got the opportunity to really help the city and the people who live within it.
We would walk and walk and walk. Sometimes up to 10 hours a day!
And in that time, we would talk and get to know each other pretty well.
It was quite the tedious job, and it required us to not only walk across the city in all manner of weather, but to meet and convince people to not only register to vote, but also to actually head to the polls when the time was right.
-I don't recall why I was working doubles all the time, but I know that it kept me away from drama and loneliness...
While yes, I was in a relationship, and we had both her brother and one of my friends living with us at the time, I was in love alone...I felt like I was always alone and fighting for attention.
So I would go to work...just a little more.
A little more,
A little more.
Maybe then I would be good enough?
Worthy of ALL of her love and affection?
Maybe if I made more money and bought her more things and took her more places, she would fall just as madly in love with me as I was with her?
I was working to fill a hole that I should have left and filled in a more healthy way, you know?
But Kid...I wanted YOU.
Not just her.
But you.
I wanted you so bad that even if things didn't work with her...
I would have YOU.
...
I am alone and single now lol,
And you probably still don't exist.
It's okay.
You know?
Things...EVERYTHING happens for a reason.
When and only when it is supposed to.
It wasn't for me to have you.
At least not yet.
Maybe not ever.
Maybe you are a thing already, and I simply have no idea?
Bah...
Enough of that.
-As soon as the weather shifts, people start looking to settle for the winter, lol, cuddle season is a real thing here in Wisconsin!
I will leave you all with that, and I hope that I see you all back here soon enough for the next part!
I love you all, with your consent, of course!
Safe travels, folks.
And you as well, Kid.
Till next time.
Stay safe.
Stay healthy.
Stay vigilant.
-Redd.