Chapter 01, Roseline
I'm sitting on the cold bathroom floor, staring at the test in my hand. My chest feels tight, like I can't breathe. Positive, it can't be. What I am supposed to do.
"Rose, are you alright?" Kyla– my best friend said while knocking on the door. Well I have been here for the past 20 minutes so her worries are real.
With shaking hands, I opened the door. Her anxious face was the first thing which came in front of me.
"How does it go?" she asked with an anxious voice.
I walked towards her and handed her the test. I really don't have energy to say a word. My whole world was crumbling in front of my eyes. What I am supposed to do with this unwanted pregnancy.
" it-it's positive!" She said as she saw the result .
" It's gonna be alright, don't stress yourself out." She tried to comfort me. But no words could comfort me at this moment. I am pregnant.
"Kyla, I am pregnant, what am I going to do?" My words tremble with anxiety.
" Rose, calm down, don't stress yourself out, we will find the solution, okay." Kyla pulls me into tight hug ,her eyes full of concern.
She look towards me with some hesitation for a moment before she asked.
"Rose… who's the father?" Her voice is soft, careful.
I lookdown, my heart started racing as the memory of that night flashes in my mind. The charity event, I attended with Kyla where I lost my self control for first time and now I am paying for it.
"It was at the charity event," I admit quietly, my voice shaking. "Last month, the one you took me to. It was… a one-night stand."
Her eyes widen, but she doesn't speak right away. I can feel the silence stretching between us, heavy and unbearable.
"You mean that night?" she finally asks, her voice barely above a whisper.
I nod, the weight of it all pressing down on me. "I didn't plan it. It just happened. And now…" My voice trails off, my throat tightening as tears burn at the back of my eyes.
Kyla pulls me into another hug, firmer this time. "Rose, listen to me. It's going to be okay. You're not in this alone."
But despite her words, all I can think is that nothing will ever be the same. My whole life is good to change and I know it.
Kyla got silent for a moment but spoke again, this time in a more serious tone. "Rose, did you… did you exchange contact information? Or do you even know him? Was he someone you knew before?"
I shake my head, the guilt creeping back in, tightening around my chest. I can't bring myself to meet her eyes.
"No, I… I left before he woke up," I whisper, feeling the weight of my own words. Thinking how stupid my actions were, I am a renowned Dr. in this city who has yet to date anyone. But here I got my self pregnancy on my first night stand.
"I didn't want to stay. It was a mistake. I shouldn't have even gone there. I didn't want to get entangled with anyone." I know my words will not help me in any way but I tried to justify my actions.
Kyla looks at me, her eyes wide with disbelief, but there's no judgment, just concern. "Rose…"
"I know, it was stupid," I cut her off, my voice trembling. "I thought I could just walk away, forget about it. But who could've known… I never thought this would happen."
She sighs and pulls me close again, but this time, the silence between us feels different—heavier, more real. I lean into her, but my mind is racing, wondering how everything spiraled out of control so fast.
"What do you want to do, Rose? With the baby, I mean, do you want him or her?." she asked with hesitation.
The word baby hits me like a wave, and for the first time, it feels real. Baby. It's not just a test result anymore; it's a life. I've seen so many babies as a doctor, being delivered, watching their families holding them. But now it's my own child my own baby we are talking about. A flood of emotions I've never felt before rushes through me. I don't know what I am supposed to do with this whole mess but this baby will come to this world I will make sure of that, he/ she didn't need to loose their life because of my mistake.
"I… I don't think I can… get rid of it," I say quietly, my hand instinctively moving to my stomach.
"you know Kyla, I'm a doctor. I know how precious life is. I can't just take that away from someone because of my mistake. My baby is innocent is this whole mess I have created"
Kyla doesn't say anything, just squeezes my hand, giving her silent support. She had always support me, but i am worried about my parents, how they are going to react on this unexpected pregnancy of mine. But I have made my mind.
"I'm going to keep this baby," I finally whisper, the decision settling deep within me. It's scary, and I have no idea what's coming next, but I know I can't turn back now.