So, the only option was to distance herself from the land of conflict, out of sight, out of mind, and keep her ears shut to maintain her inner peace.
Her grandfather had suggested sending her to a city where no one knew her. She refused because having experienced the vibrant life overseas, she had no interest in living a wretched life in a strange place; this was the fundamental reason why she insisted on going abroad.
Since the life she wanted to lead decently was no longer possible, why couldn't she live the colorful life she desired? Her previous desire to return stemmed from her feelings for Zhou Mikang, her hope to win him back, but now she realized, no matter how hard she tried, it was impossible for him to be with her.
