More and more brothers have sided with my adversary. His influence is growing stronger. Recently, I have had to enforce many decisions through the power of my majority of votes, even though the masters have held a different view. I realize that I can no longer maintain this situation for very long. The majority of the brothers will demand their rights. The lodge is to be directed in a different way than I can approve of.
The number of murders is increasing daily. Many are again finding pleasure in crime. In crime for crime's sake. For a while, it has been relatively safe to know members of the lodge. If this development continues as it has begun, there will soon be no means left to infiltrate the lodge. It is still possible to strip the secret society of its cover. It is still possible to betray the identity of the sorcerer. When that will end, I do not know. I only feel that there is no time to lose.
Even some of my closest confidants have turned away from me and now openly support the brutal tyranny. They believe it is easier and more effective to enslave people than to serve and empower them so that we can extract even more profit from their labor. I see a regression to the time of slave owners or the darkest Middle Ages.
If only people were not so preoccupied with their everyday lives. They might sense what is happening around them and in their neighborhoods. Are people happy because they do not see the calamity that is approaching them? Or are they only happy for the moment?
Evil in itself has taken shape and is acting on this planet. The lord of darkness is gathering his loyal followers and is preparing for a strike of destruction. If he succeeds in positioning himself at the head of the masters of the world, then humanity, with all its civilizations, is threatened with an epoch of darkness and torment lasting millennia. I see no possibility for myself to prevent this development.
"Prevent. My opponent is stronger than I am. He will penetrate the innermost circle of the lodge. He will be surrounded by the angels of darkness who protect and shield him. Then he will challenge me to a duel and subjugate me. He will absorb my strength, and I will have to serve him forever.
The only hope that remains for me is that the Evil finds its Master. He cannot find him in me yet. My hope is the promise of the man in my vision. If I meet his son on this Earth, then I can ally myself with his strength, and together we will dissolve the Evil, just as light pierces the darkness. Which living person is stronger than I am? Which living person is the greatest of all men? If I cannot find him, I hope and pray that he finds me.
This world is preparing for the decisive battle between the powers of darkness and the powers of light. When the angels of light unite, there will be no more darkness in this world. For where there is light, there is no shadow. The shadow exists only where we do not allow the light to enter.
Throughout my life, I have come to realize that light is the stronger and only power. The path of life and light may initially appear more uncomfortable than the path of darkness. Yet, when one sets their foot on the right path and trusts fate, one walks as if on rose petals. I do not believe it is possible to convert a person. Everyone must experience their own errors with all their consequences. Only then can they convert themselves if they still have enough sense and heart left. Many lose their sense and heart on the path of greed and selfishness. How these people can be helped is a mystery to me. Perhaps there must be an eternal separation of people into different factions for the world to take its course."
However, I have come to the conviction that it is easier, more comfortable, and more beautiful when we pull together. If I can persuade my adversary to turn back, I will stop him. If the momentum he has gained is too strong, he will roll over me. There are frogs that catch flies with their tongues. When the animal sees an insect, it rapidly rolls its tongue out and tries to catch the fly. Occasionally, it happens that the fly is faster and escapes. The frog is then unable to stop its tongue halfway and roll it back in again. Although it sees that there is no fly sitting there anymore, it fully extends its tongue.
The same can happen to the aspiring master when he realizes that he is on the wrong path. The movement he has set in motion can no longer be stopped.
If only I could find the son of the old man!
Since I learned that he lives on the same earth as I do at this hour, I no longer believe in the Lodge and its power. I can reveal all secrets and have no fear of the Brotherhood's revenge. Those who stand by my side will support me, even though I have broken all vows. And those who wish to fight me will try to kill me. They will do so whether I betray the Lodge or remain loyal to it.