103 – Ivan POV
I should have brought better outfits.
Haaa.
I sit at the little table, curled in one of Zander's shirts—sleeves too long, hem brushing my thighs—watching him move around the tiny yacht kitchen.
He's making breakfast.
Hair damp from the shower. Rolled-up sleeves. That ridiculous focus in his eyes, like this is some five-star meal instead of just eggs and toast.
And I'm sitting here, wondering:
When is he going to ask me the question?
I mean...
It can't be over breakfast, right?
Surely not with toast crumbs and egg yolk on the plate?
I saw it. I know.
And now every single thing he does feels like... a lead-up?
Like:
Is this the moment?
Is this the moment?
But instead he's flipping the eggs like nothing monumental is about to happen.
Haaa.
I lean my chin on my palm and just watch him, amused and exasperated in equal measure.
He's being so casual. Too casual. Overly casual.
"Did you sleep okay?" he asks, glancing back at me with that too-smooth voice.
"Mm-hmm," I hum. "You?"
He pauses just slightly too long.
"Yeah," he says, and that one little hesitation tells me everything.
Nervous.
He's so nervous he's practically vibrating out of his skin. But trying—so hard—to act cool and unbothered.
It's adorable.
Dangerously so.
I hide my smile behind my hand and hum again, pretending to scroll on my phone.
Inside, I'm buzzing.
Marriage. He wants to marry me.
For some reason, the thought is both terrifying and... kind of amazing. Like this is real, this is serious.
I sneak another glance at him. His broad shoulders. The way his back flexes a little as he moves.
I definitely want to marry him.
Oh, I really do.
***
Zander POV
He's so pretty.
With his hair longer now—he's started tying it up sometimes, today in a loose side ponytail, strands falling softly along his cheek.
I can't take my eyes off him.
He's sitting across from me in one of my shirts again, sleeves half-rolled, bare legs tucked up in the chair, eating breakfast like he hasn't got a care in the world. Just stabbing little bites of egg and toast with perfect concentration.
And I'm sitting here, useless, watching him.
So pretty it's unfair.
My heart's pounding again. Like an idiot.
I don't even taste my own food anymore. Just looking at him, thinking—
How the hell do I ask him?
Last night after he went to bed I stood in the kitchen for an hour, ring box in hand, rehearsing every damn way to do it.
Quietly at breakfast?
On the deck tonight?
Just pull him into my arms and blurt it out?
And yet here I am. Staring like a fool. Food forgotten.
He glances up then, catches me looking, and raises one perfect brow.
"What?"
I clear my throat, try for casual.
"Nothing," I say, too fast. "You just look... happy."
That gets me a smile. Small but warm.
"Mm. You make good coffee."
My chest squeezes.
God help me.
How am I this far gone?
He goes back to eating, humming softly under his breath. Some little tune stuck in his head.
And I just sit here like a lovesick idiot.
I'm going to die at this rate.
I've got to ask him.
Soon.
Before I explode.