I had to tackle this now. I held his hand, praying he will turn and he did .
I hugged him tight. "I don't want to lose you, please am sorry. Just stop ignoring me , that's all I ask for" . I broke down.
He struggled to pull away, noticing this, I let go reluctantly.
"Kim am sorry "
"For what huh, you did nothing wrong, it was all me" There was this guilt in his eyes as he spoke .
"I have to leave" he said eventually.
My pleading fell on deaf ears. He finally turned to me, " You did not offend me Tricia . I just need space away from …. you".
I held his hand to stop him .
"I don't understand huh". He yanked his hand away but then I hugged him again. His breath suddenly became unsteady, I held him tighter. I was about to speak when he pulled me closer , his eyes kept lingering on my lips . He was about to capture it when he stopped midway. "Damn"he cursed lightly, before taking his leave...
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The next morning , I woke late, very late coz I met the others preparing to leave for the the swimming session. Montez told me where the food was and the destination before they left. I grudgingly went to take my food after which I went to bath . After dressing up, my swimsuit in hand , even though I had no idea how to swim, prepared to leave. I was about locking up when he came out. He looked tired yet so so cute. I didn't know what to say. He muttered a "Good morning "then left. My face fell. He sat outside with a book and a pen In
hand .
" Wasn't he going?
" Uhm…Kim,aren't you going to swim?
His fingers were brushing his hair as he closed his eyes drowsily. " No" .
"Oh" ...…I….., I just left . Why did it seem so awkward . I hardly closed my eyes last night and here he was resting. I rolled my eyes and packed my things yet he never realized I left. That broke me , turning back , I looked at him yet it felt like I never knew him.