Hey guys! After a long break, I've decided to come back. AND not only did I start writing again, but I also picked A NEW PROJECT!
However, it may not be what you're expecting.
I do have a few unreleased chapters for all of my fanfictions. But well, from today onward, I have decided that I will stop writing fanfiction! And I have a good reason for this —please hear me out!
At the beginning of my writing journey, when I wrote the KNB ff, I thought writing would excite me.
Well, it did, but only for a few early chapters.
After that, it was just tedious work that I didn't feel excited about; it was just a struggle for me, but I hung on because many of you guys are supporting me.
Even if I didn't do it for myself, I thought I'd do it for you guys. BUT, it was a mistake!
Once I'm done with KNB, I started picking up next, and next, and next. I just did so without thinking too much about it. I wanted it!
I thought I was ready.
And without realizing it, I was writing empty words using 'PLOT' that I felt I had excitedly devised. I tried to justify my action with positive comments, but in the end, it broke me, and I could hardly touch my keyboard anymore.
I like writing, so why do I feel like it's tedious work? I should be having fun, no? Sure, I can't have fun every day, but surely not every day I should've felt like I'm just doing a chore, right?
At the end, it felt like my mind became hazy, and I could barely think of a plot or a scene that excites me.
What is the problem? I asked myself.
So, I began chasing something else in life. I trained for a marathon that I never did.
Long hours I've spent training, days and nights. Happy or sad. I keep on training because I can't go back since I've registered myself for one.
And finally I DID! I finished a marathon race! All my blood, sweat, and tears! It resulted in MY achievement!
ALL MINE!
This is when I realized what the problem is. I LACK A SENSE OF BELONGING! All of my hard work, these long hours I put into writing, and I can't proudly say IT IS ALL MINE!
It felt like something blocking my mind was slowly breaking down. Ideas are pouring. Ideas that are mine.
AND SO I DECIDED.
I WILL PUT EVERYTHING ASIDE TO CREATE SOMETHING THAT SOLELY BELONGS TO ME!
And what is it?
AN ORIGINAL!
I have been spending my time working on it. It's been a bit more than a month, and I'm finally ready. This excitement, when I write my first-ever chapter, is finally back. Now, each chapter I wrote is exciting to me.
So, I present to you guys, my next project! (Insert pic here)
It only has 4 chapters as of now (10k words), I posted for free on my PP, but I will only start posting later when I have about 15 chapters.