This anxiety, after learning that Alexander is pursuing Jing, has intensified!
He knows that Jing admires Alexander very much!
He's afraid that this admiration will make her mistakenly think it's love, leading her to be with him!
It also made him realize that he doesn't love Yang Hui! His feelings for her were just a momentary novelty! The one he truly loves is Jing!
He can lose everything, but he can't lose her!
Before, he could readily divorce her because he knew she wouldn't truly leave him! When he wanted to find her, to turn back, she'd be waiting there, with open arms!
He knows that his actions and thoughts are selfish, and he admits that he's a huge jerk!
No matter how nice his words are, he knows they can't change his mistakes!
He knows he was wrong! He really knows he was wrong!
