As the driver drove me home he kept looking at me with pity. I cleared my throat and he turned away from me. I wasn't really offended, I've gotten this pitying look for most of my life and I could care less. This slap is nothing compared to what I've faced in that house. I laughed mockingly, how can a mother hate her child so much. I didn't ask to be born but what can i do. I stared as the window and allowed my thoughts to drift away. I was going back to his mansion another place where I'm hated. I'm I that unlovable, I've always asked myself. Is it too much too wanna be loved, cherished? Anotella may be a bitch but she has a family who loves her.
I felt my cheeks wet, I wiped the tears away not that it would change anything. A family that hates me, a husband that wishes for me to disappear, welcome to my life. I don't know why it hurts but it just does. I cut ties with them, they hurt me but why does my heart still ache, why does that intense longing still remain. No, I don't hate them because they're not worthy of my feelings. From today onwards, I won't have anything to do with them, whatever I shared with them is due and over.
"Madam we're here."
I nodded as he proceeded to help me out of the car. I stared at the mansion before me. It won't be long before I leave here, I thought gloomingly.
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It's being long since left and I hate to admit it but I miss her presence in this house. I really don't know why I treated her like that. Maybe because this was an arranged marriage, maybe because of those pair of innocent eyes that were not contaminated or maybe because of how she's able to remain pure as she is even after everything.
I called her many names, treated her badly but in all I could see that helpless gaze, she didn't have a choice. She never did. I don't know if it's too late but maybe mom was right, it wouldn't hurt to give this relationship a try. But will she give me a chance? Will she accept my apology? Will she forgive me? But I'm willing to try.
"Rose to my office."
I ordered through my intercom.
"cancel all my schedule for today and tomorrow."
I should head back before she comes back. Hopefully i do get forgiven. I left the office after giving my orders. She seemed shocked not that i cared.
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I got off the car and walked into the house. I almost drooled at the aroma. I wonder who's in the kitchen I thought to myself as my tummy rumbled then I remembered, I hadn't had anything the whole day. I walked towards the kitchen to check who it was.
"ZAVID."
I stood there in shock as i saw him the kitchen. What happened while I was away. I saw him plating the dishes. He turned to look at me, I saw happiness in his eyes then it turned to gloom. I breathed a sigh of relief, how could he be happy to me, he would dance with joy if i disappeared from his life actually.
As he walked towards me I shut my eyes not wanting to face hos wrath. Why am I so weak? But he did the most shocking thing instead.
"What happened to your face? Who hit you?"
I opened my eyes as i stared at him caressing my face. I flinched at his touch and hurt flashed through his eyes but it disappeared almost immediately.
"Wait here?"
I felt as though i was an ant on hot pan. I wondered if I had travelled to a parallel universe or world. Why was he being so nice and i thought, did he want to get rid of me by poisoning, different scenarios popped in my head. I stared at him as he came back with an ice bag, confused. He held my hand and led to to have a seat.
Did he perhaps hit his head or maybe this was on of his many tricks to torment me.
"What happened?"
"Nothing serious."
"What do you mean by nothing serious?"
I flinched when he asked angrily. Why was he angry at me. I really don't know what i did, I felt so aggrieved by everything and very tired. I looked into his eyes and saw nothing but concern in them and was confused. What caused this changed? Where's the hate?
"What changed?"
He paused for a millisecond and continued to tend to my face.
"What do you mean?"
"All of this, worry, care why?"
He stared at me for a while and I felt uncomfortable. Why was he pretending to care? Why do all of this? It's not like he would get anything from me.
"You're tired, take a shower and come down to eat."
I stared at him as he placed the ice down and walked away. I shook my head and walk upstairs to freshen up. After showering, I placed on a large t-shirt with some shorts and left my hair to cascade down. I liked to naturally dry my hair after wiping it a towel, habits die hard.
I walked down and noticed him seated with his phone in his hand, his hair looked wet, looks like I wasn't the only one who freshened up.
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When she came down i really felt nervous but happy at the same time, what's happening to me. When I saw the bruise on her cheek I felt so angry. Who hit her? I know she scared by my change but i hope she accepts me one day.
"You're here."
She nodded and pursed her lips. She looked really beautiful, noticing she was getting uncomfortable by my stare I turned away and she breathed a sigh of relief.
"Have a seat."
I gestured to her and i signaled the maids to serve the food. I smiled at her noticing she sat farthest from me. I said to myself 'baby steps'.
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"Are you going to tell me what happened to your face?"
I raised my head and stared at him. Remembering all that happened left my mouth tasteless making me feel as though I was chewing wax.
"Nothing."
"Then maybe I should ask the driver."
No, if he's to investigate he'll find out everything including my relationship to Mr. Knight.
"I went to visit my family."
That last word left a bitter taste in my mouth making me feel like throwing up. I treated them like family but I was never really one of them, it hurts so much. I blinked away the tears making sure he didn't see it.
"I got into an argument with my mother."
He raised his brow at hoe formal I called that woman.
"And I ended up like this."
He looked at him deeply.
"Don't worry this will never happen again. No one will lay their hands on you not even me."
I was shocked by his statement, gazing at him not knowing whether to believe him. I couldn't wrap my head round everything that was happening.
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"Follow me."
He said as he led me to his office. I have never being here before. the decor was black and minimal. Nothing seemed out of place in his office. He led me to his couch and sat me down and sat right beside me.
I felt uncomfortable being so close to him. This wasn't like him at all. Why wax he acting like this?
" I wanted to ask you a question and I want you to answer truthfully."
He looked nervous as he rubbed his hands together. What exactly is he up to?
"You can ask me."
I gave him a shallow smile.
"What do you think about giving our marriage a second chance, giving me a second chance?"
Was this a joke? I looked at him and he looked serious. I felt as though i was dreaming as I stared at him.
"Is everything fine? If you need me to pretend I will but you don't have to do this. Don't you hate me? I know you didn't want this marriage so what changed your mind so suddenly?"
"I know I have made you pass through a lot since we got married, I was nothing but a jerk and an asshole but i really want us to try this marriage thing."
He looked at me hopefully.
"Why?"
I whispered out.
"Why now?"
I stared at him confused.
"I know I've really hurt you so much but lrt me use my action to prove to you I really want us to work out. I want to earn your forgiveness and a place in your life."
"I don't know. Is this a game?"
"NO, it's not i really want us to work out. I promise you won't regret it."
I stared at him. This is what I wanted but I felt scared, what if , a lot of what if's but i pushed them down. I don't know if I'll get hurt in process but love is a gamble who knows. What I want is actions not empty promises I thought to myself, hopefully hr won't let me down.
"OK."
And that sealed it. He looked at me happily, I could see he wanted to touch me but refrained from it. What I didn't know is one day I would sit, smile and laugh about this day.
But that's a story for another time.
Do you think she made the right choice?
One thing about love is that it isn't all about feelings but is about mutual trust, understanding, respect and so much more.
Feelings could die anytime and you'll see that love is a fleeting feeling.
It could blind you so much that you would see whoever you're in love with in the brightest light but when it finally dies you'll see the person for whoever they are
Yes love is a beautiful feeling so never beg for it. Never distort your energy and when you see that you're not receiving what you deserve pull away immediately.
No one deserves the bare minimum or bread crumbs.
Yes it can be hard but that's what love is it's all about the gamble take that chance, fall in love and never regret it because everything in life is a lesson
One is when God gives you want you want it's a blessing but when he doesn't it's for your protection.
This story is just about to begin. There are gonna be misunderstandings, it's not going to be easy. Let's see how our couple skide through their married life. Lessons will be learnt the hard but one thing is will they still remain together. Will their bond be that strong
She may have easily given him a chance but will he cherish it.
Will he let her down or will he...........
read to find out in the coming chapters
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