When did it went wrong? WHEN??!! WHEREE???!!!! Just why? WHYY???!!! How did I end up like this? HOWW??!! JUST HOWW???!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!
screamed at the top of my lungs.
I really wanted to see the serene and lights of the city before I don't exist anymore. HAA That just happens in books and movies, fantasies!! Within this 4 sided wall confined room will be my last demise!! hysterically saying these words like there was other person with me.
2:57am
I turned the AC to it's lowest temperature, 16°C, even tho it was peak winter with 17°C. I mean just how grand my master-plan was having the most gruesome death ever, hypothermia with excessive bleeding. Sounds awesome right? Yeah- who am I even saying this to, myself- maybe?
2:58am
This gonna my day of doing everything for the first time, SHUTTING MY DOOR TO SLEEP??? IN THIS HOUSEHOLD??? DAMMMMM inner voice was saying this random thoughts. Weird. I mean I'm gonna die so why bother even having these thoughts?
2:58.47 am
SPLASHHH
I slit thru my left wrist with the sharp kitchen knife. DAMMMM IT'S BURNING SLOWLY!! saying me in an agonizing voice. Wait a damm minute, why am I even agonizing? This is what I should feel anyways. Funny. Hilarious. Seeing how bloods were flowing out from my wrist makes me, happy? It was mesmerizing indeed. My whole body was already icy-cold and I could also feel the hot blood pouring out. Hot and cold? WOAHHHHH THIS IS SOOO AWESOME!!!! I was so excited that I forgot the extreme pain and cold I was feeling.
0:00.00 am
What's the time again? Ha, why would it matter now. Time huh? It's really fascinating. The concept of time itself is a mystery to this universe. Universe? What if there's something even beyond what we so called universe. Sad. Really. I won't know even if there are gonna be new discoveries. But surely my honeybun gonna get the Nobel Prize Laureate in Physics, it's not too far, I can see it. Honeybun? Ah, shit- I didn't tell him my last words. Last text was " Happy sleep" from him. Hopefully he won't cry too much. Even if the room was dark, there were still few lights coming out from the window outside and it seems blurry.
It's near, my end. my demise.
As I close my eyes after that the world seems dark.
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Ehhhh???? What was that voice???
Ah- shit im dead anyways, well it might be voices behind my back. But- that shouldn't happen right?