I am completely immersed in stillness. I'm hesitant to tell them how I really feel. Every time I consider that I might be to blame for who I am, my thoughts try to murder me. Despite my best efforts, I am always the one who suffers the most while dealing with them. 
I could only get temporary relief from my pain by committing violence against myself.

This book is entirely made up of my own, detailed, uncensored unique quotes and venting place.
I wish I knew how to end this suffering, but I do not. 
BPD is a curse, I feel to much when I shouldn't.

"Why do I have to stay alive for other people's happiness, yet my ultimate happiness rests in death?"


Chapter 31 - QUOTE 31: ULTIMATE HAPPINESS