I found her asleep in my bed just as soon as I went over to The Chung Family to see that Yeon had already carried out my work for me, which I wasn't too thrilled about. But seeing her safe and out of harms way as she slept peacefully in front of my eyes dissipated my anger immediately, and I couldn't help myself but to watch her for a little while until I had to return to work once again. "Come to bed, I know hoe sleep deprived you are husband…" she uttered softly in her sleep as she slowly exposed her half naked body to me to tempt me into joining her. Nice try Seo Yeon, but not today. "I am eating and sleeping well in your absence I will have you know…" "liar; I can smell the alcohol on your and you are loosing weight every single day again aren't you? Why can't you keep your food down anymore? Why do you keep loosing weight so quickly? And why are you loosing sleep? If you don't answer me honestly, I will never see you again." "Oh really? Is that why you keep coming back to my side each and every time that I send you away? Your brother will cut me off soon if he doesn't see you at home…" "And why do you keep sending me away? Is it because you are hiding something from me?" She woke up and straddled herself onto my legs at this point so that I couldn't escape from her even if I wanted to. "Tell me?"
"So it is alright for you to keep secrets from me, but I cannot do the same thing to you?" "That is different and you know it." "How so?" "You knew that I couldn't talk to you abut anything…since my goals always clashed against yours directly, and you are as obsessed with power as your father was." "So? What did you think was going to happen? That I would keep you a prisoner of some sort until I achieved mine?" "Isn't that what you did to me already? You kept me by your side as a trained noble housewife, and somewhat of a sex slave as well…" "My lust for you is completely warranted since you hid your real face from me for so long, don't you agree?" "So what are you saying? That I owe you for hiding myself for my family's survival?" "You owe me everything and anything in this world when you chose to save me from drowning." "But I…" "But nothing! You saved me, then you abandoned me afterwards, only for us to have met again through your brother and you become a false person to hide your brilliance and your beauty on purpose. You owe me the world Seo Yeon, that is why I shall never stop taking from you until I am fully satisfied and you give me what I want." "Is that why you do this to me? You want me…to bare you children right now? Before our marriage?" "Not right now, no." "Then what do you mean…" "Yeon, I already chose you as my life partner when I saw you blossom under my father's roof…"
"Are you saying…that since the beginning…this whole time…" "Since the first time, or I would have never let you touch me, just like no other woman has been allowed to touch me at all." My way of dealing with this girl without confessing my undying love to her has not gone the way I planned at all. My control over her and my small absence in her life was supposed to make her appreciate me more so that she could stop hiding her family secrets from me as she knew all of mine. But it had backfired on me terribly, to the point where she had no idea when I was lying or telling the truth at all since I was overcome by power as she described so well. Even now as I looked into her eyes, she did know to see degree that I wasn't lying, but she needed confirmation, which was something that I couldn't give her in my drug induced state, because I knew that she would find out all about this eventually, and I planned to be sober by the time that she did find out so that I could lover her with devotion os she deserved. If she found out that I had professed my love to her in the grips of an addiction, she would never believe me again. And from the moment I had started carting for her, I had strived to become someone that she could rely on in this life more than her own brother. If Yeon ever found out that I was less than the man I had made her believe that I was, then she would leave me, just like everyone else left me, and I couldn't let that happen…despite the pain and confusion that I was giving her. "…you planned to make me the mother of your children once our first time together? Is that what you are telling me? Husband?" "I am surprised that you didn't figure this out sooner, why else do you think I got so angry with you when you landed yourself in that brothel…" "That you personally escorted me to? But why? I heard your voice, so do not deny it…"
I still couldn't look at her every time she brought that up because I was still so ashamed of myself for doing it, even though I knew she always had plan in mind that always worked. She brought down The Third Princess Consort with that trick and dragged down the reputation of The Third Prince down so far that I was able to get him to where he was now, on the verge of being exiled from his own kingdom. But of all of the sins that I had committed in this life to achieve what I wanted, I would always be ashamed of that the most for the rest of my life.
"Husband…" my overwhelming feelings of guilt, sadness and anger took a hold of me once again but I couldn't throw a violent outburst in her presence. So I simply rolled her over in bed and I took a few moments to calm myself down and I laid myself out across her chest, soaking up as much warmth and patience from her as I possibly could. "Husband…" "It won't always be like this, I promise you wife. Jus let me carry the Prince out into his exile and I promise you that I will take a good break from the palace so we can start our family together and…and we can talk and…" "My love, I can only confess everything to you once I get you out of this place. You are a good man and you have proven how much good you can do for other, but it is futile if it consumes you like this. So please, let us retire to my father's village for a while so that you can experience a new side of life where you're good deeds will react tenfold for everything that you do here." "I will think about it, it does sound tempting…" "My Lord? Forgive me for interrupting, but I have some important news from the Imperial Court…" "Come back in 10 minutes servant, with a full report." "10 minutes? What is going on husband…" "We have 10 minutes together, so let us make it count…" "No." "No? What do you mean no?" "No more, until we get married anyways…" "Yeon, I know that I can be an asshole sometimes, but you do not get to deny me; not now and not ever…" "Husband, please…" "I can give you a break when you get pregnant finally, but we are not stopping until then, do you hear me? This is far too important to me and I won't stop until I get what I want." "Please…" "Forgive me wife, but you knew what you were getting yourself into when you chose to help me the first time." "And you consider this 'helping you to get what you want?' Because I have viewed it something differently this whole time…" "Nice try woman, but you don't get to turn this around on me. I like it, I want it, I need it which is why I shall be taking it from you when I want it…and nothing is stopping you from doing the same to me either. We will be married in this life one way or another, so let us spare the boring formalities with each other since we have practically grown up together…and you hid so much from me…" "Are you ever going to let that go?" "Not until I am fully satisfied, like I told you earlier?" "When you give me five…." "Five children , husband! Five?" "And I will not accept anything less from you, so you might as well get used to it now…"
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"…Your Majesty, it has previous been discussed that this book is full of blasphemous ideas that support The Late General Choi and The Third Prince. It details the hard work of the 'meritorious officials in the palace' like them are prone to mistreatment and misunderstanding. He also claims that this is due to there 'mediocre monarch and the jealousy of his official court." "He is setting me up as a bad ruler before I can give him his just punishments, isn't that right? How brazen and ridiculous of him to do so; for if this book were to be open to the public, then my people will ridicule me, and I cannot allow this to happen at all. So announce my decree to the world; if anyone is found with this book on their person, they shall be banished to the coldest parts of this kingdom. And as for the author of this book, they will be found and hung on the spot. Their head will be impaled upon the city walls for years to come to serve as a reminder, and his womenfolk will be shifted ti the nearest brothel for the rest of their natural lives. All positions surrounding this man in the palace shall be forfeited for perpetuating such a poisonous legacy from my own family. I also heard that there is another matter at hand?"
"Yes Your Majesty; the winner is enthroned and the losers are outlawed." 'I still cannot kill my own son no matter what he does and he knows this, that is why he is fuming a rebellion against me from afar." "Your Majesty, if I may; why don't you grant his title to your next in line to let him know that he has been replaced once and for all? If you treat his family generously, this will surely over true the rumours that your third son is spewing out to the rest of the kingdom, even if they do somehow purchase this book that is full of flattery and fawning for the enemies of this kingdom. For those who threaten my sovereignty, I would rather make a mistake then spare innocent lives, else I am putting my own country at risk." "My Lord, it has been reported from an unreliable source that Seo Hwi was also in possession of this book at one point in time, although it has never been proven…"