Now whenever I see that guy I always avoid him on my way to school. I've been seeing him a lot since we're in the same dance class now, since I moved up to the higher dance class.
I didn't know before but the teacher has been telling me recently that I'm actually quite a good dancer, not the best in the class but not as bad as I said I was to her at the start of the term. I'm actually surprised because I thought I was untalented in dancing but I guess I'm not. So I guess I can cross out dancing from the top 20 thing's I'm untalented in.
Anyways there are definitely really talented people in our class who pop and lock and flow to the rhythm of music with ease in my class. Also yes. HE's in my class.
Park Joon Tae.
If course I'm nothing other than what might be a weird fangirl who supposedly needed lip balm, I should probably stop acting dramatic but I can't help it. It's my first time interacting with an ACTUAL idol. I mean it only hit me when I got home that's what I've been watching on a screen, they definitely look more unreal in real life though.
In comparison I look basic, I used to be popular back in England for my looks. I was leng, pretty attractive or whatever words to describe my appearance so I always thought I was quite the looker or a bit above average. I was trying my best to hide the secret narcissism I gained from all those compliments... but that instantly depleted,
disappeared, as soon as I started going to this school. Everyone was well above average so I definitely did not fit right in. I mean I even tried putting makeup or doing my hair for the first time in my life. I never put much of an effort because I always thought I was one of those natural beauties. Found out I can't apply makeup to save my life.
But either way I'm coping okay now, it was a bit hard at first but I'm adjusting, I avoid looking him in the eye every time we sit near each other in dance class. Even though I had a secret dislike to MonXer Park Joon Tae he's definitely very talented....
his dancing is phenomenal whenever we do duo dances everyone wants to pair up with him (you can do a solo too, me I'm ALWAYS solo).
But either way I guess I respect him... but he seems very distant from the rest of the class but at the same time he's on good terms with all of them. Therefore can pair up with anyone.
One thing that is very common in this school is camera crew or staff of idol's companies coming to film footage for idol episodes, show's or personal school vlogs. Which is why it's very common to see students holding big camera's to filming vlogs, a lot of trainees do it too and there are a lot of famous Ulzzang Ktubers in this school.
But either way camera crew was here today and it was for Park Joon Tae it was definitely quite a lot and there were students standing around the windows and the door to see what was going on.
I listened carefully and heard it was a day in the life of MonXer and the dance teacher announced that they would be footage of the class dancing and that all their faces will be blurred. Except from people who want to be shown. When they asked me I honestly was struggling a big because the guy who asked had a strong Jeju dialect so I honestly had no idea what he was saying, so I just nodded only understanding the part. "You... film your class... dancing."
Those were the only words I could make out because he spoke really fast, I was good at korean but not perfect.
So we started our dance lesson as always and for the first time I think I saw this guy genuinely smile, he looked happy. I mean he smiles and talks to everyone but me being experienced with the 'put myself out there or double personality types of people' I recognised the difference.
Unlike everyone who seemed good at ignoring the camera crew and used to it,. But me whenever I saw a camera zoom in on me I felt the need to stare it down it was strange there were so many camera's so I felt a bit naked, but relieved that I wasn't the main focus. Many girls in the class interacted with him and danced with him to put themselves in the center of attention, but I'm pretty sure the camera crew just focus on something else.
Anyways for some reason the dance teacher suggested a duo activity with the person who's next to you and just saying I've never been partnered with Mr Joon Tae so I was not very pleased as we were next to each other. But I didn't mind since they would probably blur everyone out like they did in normal kpop vlogs I've watched. Of course many in the class muttered, "Wow, I'm so jealous of you..."
I just nodded awkwardly.
We were in duos to create a short dance with a short sound if a upbeat music. We had only 15 minutes which was really short. So Park Joon Tae talked to the camera for a bit before going back up to me. Well...
me...
I couldn't even look him in the eyes at this point for every time we met I always look at his ears or his hair or neck. A bit weird right. Well I was just a bit embarrassed not just because if the lip balm but because I couldn't admit to the fact that I kicked his face at the bus stop which made me look like a hater. Of all things I hate people who hate on others for no reason the most. But it sadly seemed I was doing the exact same thing.
I avoided his gaze as he asked me,
"So what should we do for the choreography... any ideas?"
He asked eagerly awkward escaping through the stretching silence.
I responded quietly,
"Urm... I guess we could do a.. hip hop style dance..." He nodded and did some random complicated leg, binder, twister... moves expecting me go follow (like we ain't on the same level -_-). But guess what happened next....