"I used to think," the person said, "that as long as I became a deity, I could bear everything and fulfill everything for them."
Su Ming'an remained silent.
"They needed to survive, so I granted them survival. They needed trade, so I found ways to open trade for them. They needed to fight, so I controlled their battles," the person said. "For me, the sixty years in Yun Shang City were too long. More than once, I felt guilty for the dissipating lives, and more than once, I wished for my life to end or to fall into an eternal slumber."
"But at the moment you pulled me down, I suddenly realized that those sixty years of godhood felt like a vague, unreal dream."
"It seemed as if I loved them so deeply that I had nothing left, yet I felt this love was through a layer of something, more like watching a fire across the river. It was love for a void-like image or a symbol elevated above 'people.'"
